Lyric-a-Day.fm • Page 24

I've had time to think it through and maybe I'm too good for you

 

It's not much of a life you're living
It's not just something you take it's given

 

The media crucify me like they did Christ
They wanna find me not breathin' like they found Mike

 

We're left as shells, we lost the fight

 

Listo o no
Hay un abismo dentro de mí

 

I was born again in a foreign place with my pupils wide and my friends on stage
It was a warmth I had not had the pleasure to face
And when the music fades the kids could* care less
It's a mockery of the time we spent
So I crept into a hole where I could rest

You can paint me a junkie, it's quite alright
I've got all the drugs in the world

I was bound and gagged and held to the flames
And you expect me to try to entertain this curtain of humans who always knew my name
So I wrote new songs and we danced for nights
And we smoked it all 'til the bag was dry
I part the doors and creep back into the light

You can have me anyway you want me, my body is yours
I've got all the love in the world

*does this bother anyone else lol, it's like a fourth wall moment in a perfect song

 

Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend

 

We're held together by diametric forces
You and I we're just walking corpses
I'm tired of living
So let's be dead together

I've been through hell without you
I don't believe in heaven
We don't understand
Because it's understated
We try so hard but it's complicated
We try so hard
Just to communicate it

 

in the light of the day, stabilize and reset
and then burn in the image till i can't forget
and end ceaselessly speaking till nothing's unsaid
i don't know what i want what i want's where i've been

in the night will you rest your head into my hands?
will you disrupt this pattern from starting again?
if i ask you for nothing will nothing there stand?
i don't know what i want what i want's where i've been

 

So what, you read a book
I took it from you as you took a second look
You quote a line, you quote three
I'd give more substance to an argument if it were me
Don't worry, you always say
But it's the worrying that gets me through a day

 

I don't wanna fucking be here anymore. I'm leaving forever, if you miss me whatever I don't care. I'm tired of your face and the way that you hate everything.

You make me want to start smoking cigarettes so I die slowly. Anything that's bad for me, you're killing me. You're killing me!

 

I saw you with a very loose grip on your tight ship
And I lost you when you said one hit couldn’t hurt a bit
Took a little time for your trip but I saw you starting to slip
Cause you always kept your eyes on any little hiding spot that you had forgot
And I can’t shake the terror of my life fleeting, minute by minute
Even when I can’t imagine another day waking up in it
Fought my mind to keep my life, but my body’s putting up a tougher fight
Yeah if it feels wrong, you can go on along
But once it feels right then you just lost the fight

 

And if you fight with fire
If you wrestle to sleep
May the wrestling end
Now you find what you need
And you fill it with lead
And it fills you with ink
Always less than you want
Always more than you think
You know, you know it's not the easiest thing
To decide to keep the easy things close
Cause it's hard enough without
An open mind to weigh you down

 

I was standing in the rain
Hoping you would notice me
I don't miss those days
What a fucking bore
That's so millennial

 

Slow things down baby check your motives
Sleep at night and stand up straight
Keep in mind there's a big, big difference
Between letting go and running away

 

Honey, I'm feeling like a wave
about to break
I've been on my way back home for so long
I just need a place to go
and rest my head maybe for a while
If that's alright

 

I've seen you dive and come up with nothing
I've seen you melt and dissolve into sobs
Inconsolable under the blue light

 

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt when it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built

 

Never pick up though you owe me
You’ve become the epitome of who I don't wanna be
Thought you’d be around forever
Change of a season you come and go like the weather
Just like them you’re no better

 

It was the hardest ground that I had ever walked on
And just like everybody I kept on walking on
There was a man in the park and he was lying down
he could have been dead
he could have been dead
but just like everybody I kept on walking on
pretend not to notice the body lying on the lawn
he could've gotten up when I had gone
and just like everybody, he could have kept walking on
walking on
he could have kept on walking on
and I thought to myself
"hey, there was probably something I should've done"

 

Alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright...

 

I killed 100 million cells of embryonal carcinoma
with a love that caused my middle-aged heart to burst,
then I completed every blank left on my tax return
and ran the mile or so
to the gun shop with my card
and my moldy recorder.
I held my ground. I tried so hard. But they still said:
"Look, I just spent over seven hours in an office in Corona where the clerk showed me no human compassion, but they spend 40 hours dealing with that every week. Would you let it slide if they held their hands up high in a kind surrender, if they embraced the human tide, if they bled?"

And they're right.
They're the honor,
and they deserve to sleep, to be warm,
to be well.
BUT I CAN'T PAY.

 

Well now that you’ve got your gun
It’s much harder now the police have come
And I'll shoot him if it's what you ask
But if you just take off your mask
You'd find out everything’s gone wrong
Now everybody’s dead
And they’re driving past my old school
And he’s got his gun, he’s got his suit on
She says, 'Babe, you look so cool'

 

I try to speak but the tears choke the words
and I think I finally know what they mean when they talk about joy

 

I think I’ve finally identified the difference
I think I live in both my hell and my home
I will forever be a slave to your distance
Don’t let me in
Don’t let me go

Carry me back to your bed
My conscience is my coffin and I swear sometimes I’d rather be dead
Make sure that I still feel, I don’t care how much it hurts
I’ll always be numb on my side of the earth
Don’t let me in, don’t let me go