Mental Health Thread • Page 85

I started putting a lot of pressure on myself towards the start of the new year after I didn't get the raise at work I wanted so I could afford to move out of my 4br apartment. With my the end of my lease coming up soon and the need for a new job I've been feeling so emotionally exhausted and anxious but I made some good decisions, got my portfolio together and decided to sign my lease for another year. Now I can job hunt without the extra weight and focus on that a little better

Moral of the story, I am my own worst enemy sometimes and I need to continue to identify when it's happening, step back and approach my problems realistically and more thoughtfully for my own well being.

 

Finally started applying for new jobs. Have enough experience that I hope companies will overlook that I'm not local. Super paranoid about my standing in my current job. I don't really have any reason to be, but I am an anxious mess at the best of times, so with a new boss sitting down tomorrow afternoon I am a human puddle at the moment. I assume he just wants to chat and get to know me, but like friday afternoon. ugh.

 

This this this this all over. It took a long time for me to apply a) and c), and I'm currently having d).

 

I've been struggling with bi-polar depression for more than a few years now;i also have severe OCD that has affected my life in many ways. I can spend hours a day making sure everything is "in its right place" and constantly check rooms after i clean them like I'm on a loop. I know keeping my mind busy and getting out of the apartment helps, but theres times where I'm still thinking about my place being perfect, which results in me not being able to participate in activities/ enjoy life. Just wanted to see if anyone can relate and what they do to cope and/or overcome these kind of problems

EDIT: It's also hard for me to start something or leave my place until everything is cleaned up

 

Really hating that my anxiety prevents me from interacting with anyone I don't already know right about now. It's not a great feeling to be the dude in the corner of the room on his room when everyone else is getting to know each other.

 

I totally get that. It takes almost nothing to get me anxious. It drives me nuts. I want to talk but then am just too anxious to do so.

 

My birthday is next month which apparently means it is time for everyone in my life to remind me I'm a giant failure. "You're going to be 26 and you're still single and still can't drive and still working a dead end job. Get your shit together." Thank you for reminding me. Not like I think about it every second of every day and hate myself for it. Fuck.

 

Aw sorry, if it's any consolation the Friends theme is now stuck in my head

 

Sitting in a house full of ppl where I hardly know anyone and they all are close to each other and I'm just like .............. sulking in a corner

 

Fuck those people. You're awesome. You have a steady income and you're a wonderful person with so much to offer the world. You don't need to get your shit together at all; you already have it together. Anyone telling you that is completely wrong.

 

You are seriously the best!!! Your posts are always so sweet and make me smile and this meant so much to me! Thank you, I needed to hear that

 

Hey, you're not alone. Don't know what you're going through but I've been there and am sure several people here have as well. PM me if you need/want to talk to someone, I'm always willing to listen.

 

I'm glad you're alive. Hope you're ok. ❤️

 

Hey I'm with you. Near the same age and pretty much in the same position. I'm sorry. hugs and hugs. It's annoying when people talk like you're not aware and aren't also upset.

 

I ricochet between content to not-doing-so hot way too easily and for seemingly no reason at all.

 

I have had a history of depression and anxiety, but a recent break up and my job have pushed me to some of my lowest lows. I have anxiety attacks at work 3 days out of 5. I can't function like a normal human being at work and I can't get anything done.

Luckily I only have 4 months left until I start training to be a teacher. I just don't how I'm going to get through it. I'm in so much pain and it feels like it's only getting worse and worse and worse. I've stopped exercising and started eating terribly, because I'm so busy and it's the only thing that makes me feel comfortable. I've also had increasingly more common thoughts about self harm.

It fucking sucks but I'm trying to stick it out. I'm excited about becoming a teacher but I'm worried that I'll just feel the same as I do now and I'll be in this endless loop of misery and incompetence.

 

god I hate my stupid, defective brain.

I did nothing but sleep and nap and eat and lay in bed on my two days off.

 

Just want to say that I have lurked in this thread a lot, and it's cliche to say, but hope you guys know that you are not alone. I am in my 20's and have had mental health problems for over a decade. We are just a bunch of strangers and avatars on a music website, but I want to say that I love y'all and hope things start looking up

 

I'm kinda becoming a hypochondriac.
Every time I get a sore throat that changes the sound of my voice (which is happening every month as of late) I get to thinking I probably have throat cancer.

 

Like hoarse or your pitch changes? Sorry I've never heard anyone say that before so I'm trying to picture it lol

 

They've been making my voice significantly lower, and I have had some fun with that, but the frequency that I've been getting sick lately has me bugging a fair bit.

 

Yeah that sucks. Sounds like whatever you have isn't going completely away. We've been seeing a lot of those cases right now. I know you don't want to hear it but you migggggggggght need to bite the bullet and get checked out!

 

Yeah, I should probably go see the doc, but I keep giving myself one more day to feel better, and then I do feel better for a couple weeks...and then the cycle repeats itself.

I swear I'll make an appointment IF I don't feel better tomorrow, haha.

 

Me and my sis are planning a trip to visit family and I was super hyped initially but now I'm thinking of how dark and down I can get on myself when I'm with my sister for long periods of time, especially around family. I'll always feel in her shadow and that she's the pretty sister and I already know what I'm gonna hear. They're gonna be gushing over how beautiful she is and either awkwardly address me or like reach to pity comment on my appearance. Like when they gushed she should be a model cause she's so gorgeous and then turned to me to try and reach for a compliment and said I could be a hand model lol. I feel bad cause it's not my sisters fault and she's super nice and amazing but I constantly compare since childhood. She's always the personable bubbly pretty one ppl like to talk to and I'm shy and awkward and mopey. I think I've come into my own and I like myself most days, but I just go back to that place sometimes when I'm around her for a while


I fully realize I'm basically describing the lyrics to Ashlee Simpson's song Shadow lmao