Mental Health Thread • Page 446

I’ve done virtual in the past but I need in person for an added layer of accountability, all virtual usually leads to me relapsing if I think I can get away with it. I do virtual sessions with my current therapist when she needs to if she’s out of the office for whatever reason but yeah I just need to go in person because I get way more out of it and am less likely to pull some shit if I have to go see someone face to face once or twice a week. but if l virtual works for you def give it a shot it’s still better than no therapy. just don’t use betterhelp for the love of god

 

Yeah I'm leaning more towards virtual. I'm going to reach out to my insurance about getting a referral so I can see a therapist of my choosing.

 

It's nice to see some good news in here and people taking positive steps!

 

looking to be a cop Josh

 

ACAB but I’d like to be able to prove if some dickhead causes an accident yes

 

Personally, I find CBT utterly useless lol. But everyone is different, it’s worth trying!

 

I miss when my bed was my safe place. I’m so tired

 

I am just so tired of being alone. I'm tired of going everywhere by myself. I'm tired of having no one to call when I need help. If I'm excited about something, I don't have anyone to share that with. If I'm upset and just need someone to sit with me, I have no one. I just want someone for once. I've never had a partner and have always struggled to make friends. All the friends I have had have treated me like shit. I've always been treated like the least favorite in my family so it's just been me on my own for basically my whole life and I don't know how to change it. I've tried everything I can think of to make friends. It's just so frustrating to know exactly what you want but no matter what you try, you can't get it.

 

all things considered things are going well. but my weight is getting even worse and I feel horrible about it. I worked out a bit a few days ago and am planning on doing it again tomorrow. It’s so hard to get into the habit of doing it every day or even every other day. other than that idk things are kind of stagnant again, I despise the summer and the heat is already getting to me, it makes me so lethargic and uncomfortable and I hate going outside but my condo’s ac system is horrible so it’s hot as hell inside and it makes me feel awful

 

tw: pregnancy

Well, my wife is pregnant, and I'm losing my mind lmao. I feel bad that my reaction wasn't, like, cutesy Facebook video reaction. It was more like...I'm standing on the stairs and I need to sit down because I think I might pass out. On one hand, this is what we want, I am happy and excited, but I am also out of my mind scared about the whole thing. I did NOT expect it to happen this soon - we took one half-hearted "if it happens, it happens" whack at it and here we are. (It's also only been a month, so we're not telling anyone, but I feel comfortable sharing in this thread.) She's more concerned about the pregnancy and complications/keeping the baby healthy, which is real, but I'm just coming to terms with everything in my life potentially changing forever. I feel like I have to take everything out of my head and write it down and start eliminating things and reprioritizing. I was going to go back to school in the Fall, which my wife and brother are telling me to still pursue, but I legitimately think it's a bad idea and borderline impossible with how aggressive of a program it is.

Idk. My brain is in a million different places, oscillating between being excited and mortified. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel or if what I'm feeling (about a 50:50 excitement to frightened ratio) is normal. She feels the same way. There's also just so much to do. I need to get a car and get back on the road, which is terrifying to me in its own right, and her current job is not conducive to starting a family. I don't know how I'm supposed to work today. I feel like I need to spend every minute with her talking about this and making sure she (but in reality, more so myself) is okay.

 

One more thing - it's really, really hard when the first people I would normally call with information this big (my parents) are the ones I'm supposed to surprise and not tell for another two months, if everything goes well. Kind of brutal not having anyone but my wife, brother, and therapist (and now, this thread) to tell. I'm terrible at keeping secrets.

One plus is that her cousin just told the family she is pregnant, and she's only a couple of months ahead of us. Ironically, her and Jess have joked about coordinating the birth of their kids since they were little.

 

I haven’t been able to sleep for days

 

what's going on?

 

Hope you’re okay, homie, don’t be afraid to reach out if you need to.

 

wish I knew

just haven’t been able to sleep the last couple nights and I’ve barely eaten because I haven’t had much of an appetite. it’s starting to scare me

 

thank you, my friend. it means more than you know

 

Couldn't sleep till like 5 am last night myself. Sucks.

 

I ate a pretty big meal not too long ago at least

 

@Aaron Mook

 

Really truly thought years of processed chicken and Diet Mountain Dew would have done me in but here we are

 

it’s cause you haven’t had a hot dog so you were safe

 

hmm I think I'll have hot dogs for dinner

 

I have been having trouble with sleep too. Just came off a super stressful time at work that isn’t totally over that I think caused it. But every night I wake up at around 3 am and can’t get back to sleep. Been going on for almost a week now. It’s really wearing on me.

 

hoping for the best for both of us