Mental Health Thread • Page 437

Yeah that’s real awesome to hear!

 

This is incredible and please do NOT feel like you can't post positive stuff in here. Positives and negatives are all a part of mental health.

Congratulations!

 

Huge congrats man, that's awesome to hear. We need more wins!

 

How do you guys even find new jobs? I'm so scared to move to a new job.

 

I used mostly LinkedIn when I was job searching. Took almost 9 months to find the right one and actually get a response

 

I wish I knew. Been a year looking.

 

I feel like such a failure and I've been doing the same, low paying, low effort stuff for years now, but I need a job that pays better for medical reasons and I'm scared I won't actually be able to do real work.

It's also just hard to find a job in general so that's cool.

 

I've been going through something similar recently. Work is getting busier/ harder for the first time in a long time and I was really worried that I was too mentally weak to put up with it. In my experience, the change was by far the hardest part. Once you get acclimated to your new situation, itll become normal and wont seem too bad.

Dont let this fear stop you from looking for something better and good luck on the job hunt.

 

I just have no idea what to do or what I'd even be good at. I just need money haha. It's so fucking stupid.

 

I feel like I’m too messed up of a person to be loved or understood

 

I’ve been really depressed lately and idk if I’m going to get out of this funk. Like I just want to go away

 

I really don’t know how I’ve made it this far in life with all the problems I’ve had but I’m glad I’m alive

 

I think I’m definitely having a mid life crisis

 

I’m glad everyone in the thread is alive.

 

It’s easy to get cynical when people mourn the deaths of loved ones but when I’m struggling day to day no one’s cheering me on telling me how great I am and everything like they would if I was dead. It’s a horrible thought to have but I’m sure anyone suffering from a combination of depression and substance use disorder has felt it at some point. a weird mix of survivors guilt and self loathing. it’s something I carry around with me almost every day and is pretty much the reason I relapsed last fall and flipped my life upside down. I was 16 months clean and after a year no one’s patting your back every month and telling you how proud they are and happy every time you do some basic task. You start to think no one cares anymore and no one’s paying attention enough to notice if you start using again. I’m doing well right now but I’m always afraid of it happening again.

 

We should make a group where we can all go away together

 

I'm in my early 30s and I'm having mine

 

Wife and I did a 180 after last weekend where we had a pretty challenging therapy session. We talked some things out and this weekend, we not only spent a lot of time together but had an emotional day yesterday catching and delivering a pregnant outdoor cat to a rescue about an hour away from us. Lots of laughs and tears and it felt like an important day in our lives. We had dinner together, rested together, and tag teamed what needed done around the house towards the end of the night. So that's a really nice thing.

Not that we won't encounter problems again, even the same ones, but we're both much more aware of each others' struggles and the part we play in them. Knowing that we have the tools to stop disconnect from happening is good; we just have to remember to use them. Life is currently very stressful between us trying to start a family, her wanting to leave her job, and me wanting to go back to school, but I at least feel more confident now that we can get through it together.

 

There is a lot I could and have wanted to write for a long time now but I still feel like it’s not right for me to post details about my personal life in here. But for now, I’ll just say that I have been feeling desperately lonely lately and it is not good.

 

No pressure if you're not comfortable, but my inbox is always open. Happy to talk with you or simply listen if you'd like to vent. Or even bullshit music and stuff with ya! You've got friends here. I know that's not the same as seeing people in-person, but it's true.

 

The only person I want to talk to about how I’m feeling rn, I can’t. I feel so alone and empty.

 

This is how I feel.

I don't have anyone I truly feel comfortable with to talk about what's going on.

 

It's really difficult when you do things on your own/don't have a partner sometimes. Facing a lot of challenges by yourself, stressors, health issues, life changes. It can be overwhelming.

 

I'm so fucking angry all the time.

I hate who I am. I hate who I've been. I hate getting close to people because they always leave. I don't want to be me. I don't want to exist. Why do I do any of this if I just die and it all goes away anyway?

 

my girlfriend visited me a couple weeks ago and I had the best time I’ve had in ages, as of right now she will be moving here at the end of May and I’m very happy to not have to live alone and do everything alone anymore, it’s just soul crushing and keeps me inside and at home all the time