Mental Health Thread • Page 436

Hate how my anxiety can fuck me up in so many ways.

currently anxious about my cat. She just had a few teeth pulled due to something called tooth resorption during a dental cleaning. It wiped me out financially but I’m happy to do that for her.

but dealing with her post-surgery has me anxious over every little action by her. She’s on gabapentin for the pain for a few days and it makes me anxious. It makes her sedate and drool slightly which is all expected tho it still bothers me. But saw her tongue sticking out slightly yesterday and today (think a normal cat blep at most) and it makes me anxious. Thankfully she still wants food and uses her box like normal even if she’s sleepier. But the tongue makes me anxious even tho it’s likely nothing.

Im not doing well and this just sort of adds to it. Just wanted to write it out is all

 

My hearing sucks more than usual and I have to wait weeks for an appointment to talk about new hearing aids and I fucking hate it.

 

I can relate to this. Ours came home with gabapentin and was definitely more lethargic, but he's also a bigger cat and it doesn't sound like it knocked him out quite as heavily. But similarly, after an emergency procedure (which we were happy to pay for despite how big of a dent it made in our savings), I keep feeling on edge as if somethings going to go wrong (even though he seems pretty much done healing) or that he'll need the procedure again. It's stressful.

 

Yeah it knocks my fairly reg size kitty out. But she still remains heavily interested in food thankfully. I just have had bad luck with cats and health issues so I tend to get anxious anytime mine doesn’t act 100% the same. Even if she’s on meds that do exactly as advertised. So I bothered my vet about it and she said it was normal so far. (Thankfully I can text my vet through an app and she responds whenever. Lot less annoying I feel on her end).

hope your kitty is healing well!

 

Likewise!

 

Now I’m worried she may have an infection lol. I hate my brain or my luck. Not sure which yet

 

Really fucking depressed and have had unnerving dreams like four nights in a row. I just feel like shit in so many ways.

 

Here to chat if you need.

 

Another self-immolation that is not going to leave my brain for weeks. This is why I've desperately tried to stop paying attention to the news. I know that's not good. My brain sincerely just cannot do it right now.

 

My brain is broken

 

you guys ever feel like everything good that’s going to happen to you has already happened and you’re never going to find your footing and start progressing again

 

Many times. However life still surprises me sometimes. Chin up king

 

After burning it all down and having to start over so many times I’m just fucking tired and spent and afraid if I start making progress it’s just a matter of time til I get in my own way again

 

I'm so tired of feeling like I'm walking on eggshells in my relationship.

 

Had a good week. Best in literally years. Today made me feel like shit and like I'm sliding backwards again. I really fucking hate it when I'm this close to the other side.

I don't want to be this person.

 

Maybe someone can explain to me: what's the purpose of continuing on?

I don't want to die, I'm actually quite fearful of death, but I don't understand what compels someone to go on. What do you get out of it? I don't have any hopes, dreams or aspirations. I don't get it.

 

A student asked me life’s purpose in the beginning of the school year. I told him everyone doesn’t have the same purpose, we make it ourselves. My purpose is to be the best teacher (and soon father) I can be. His is to be an awesome basketball player and a good role model for his little sister. If there is a purpose everyone is given, we would feel powerless and not in control. If you come up with nothing, make it something small but that means something to you.
Idk…just my thoughts.

 

The Myth of Sisyphus - Wikipedia

Best I can do, my friend. I often know how you feel

 

One of my best friends just told me he relapsed after 8 years and is going to rehab today. It was only a month or so and he seems to be doing alright but I never thought he would. Just kinda messing with me right now.

 

Reasons to Keep Living (Official Thread) • Page 99 • forum.chorus.fm

 

One of my favorite threads on the site. It lets me see little things that make life worth living.

 

Work has been really pissing me off lately. They don’t care about you and made it a clear point today. I am so stressed and overwhelmed my brain can’t function. I get close to having a mental breakdown or even outburst at work to where I have to excuse myself. I’m making steps to look for a new job

 

i hope this thread is okay with some positive mental health news. i feel kinda guilty posting this.

i got laid off from the company i'd been working for for my entire adult life the week before christmas. i've spent the last 4 months applying for hundreds of jobs, interviewing for countless positions, and fielding hundreds of rejection notices. today i'm set have a final interview with a company that is offering half of what i was making in my previous role. but i just got off a call with another company who i thought i had no shot with and they offered me the position! i'll be making more than i did in my previous role and i'm in absolute shock. i was completely resigned to having to make some serious life changes to accomodate my new living situation and now it's the complete opposite. holy shit

 

that’s awesome. congratulations!

 

never anything wrong with positive news. and congratulations!