Mental Health Thread • Page 435

At least I'm not alone in it. I think part of my anxiety recently has been that I came into some adderall and it historically really helps me focus while working, but my wife doesn't want me taking it because it's not prescribed. It's not a lot so it's a pretty limited thing anyways, but even something like that, I feel like I shouldn't have to hide anything because I'm not a speed freak, she knows that my therapist thinks I'm ADHD and is working with my psych on a diagnosis, she just gets really hung up on the legality of things (like weed). So it's like, lie about this thing that is not an addiction or even a high for me, or deny myself this little thing that is helping me get through work this week.

 

In addition to that, I had a 40 minute interview with HR today about a co-worker who called another co-worker something he shouldn't have. The thing is, the guilty party is extremely kind and knowledgable and helpful to students and faculty 95% of the time. He got frustrated with this person who historically creates more work for himself and everyone around him, including me, so while I recognize that this person shouldn't have said what he did (and so does he), I also feel like what happened was not being portrayed completely accurately. So then I'm stuck in my first-ever HR situation trying to figure out what the right thing to do is morally and how to tell the truth while trying to protect someone you feel made a mistake. Just completely sent me spiraling, I haven't eaten today and don't think I can do much of anything for the rest of the night. I feel paralyzed that I'm going to get in trouble for having a different experience/opinion than someone else, or that I may have said something that got this person fired, or maybe that I wasn't truthful enough. It's exhausting.

 

After my wife and I being sick back to back, stressing about work during the eclipse, that interview with HR, and a band interview I have set up being postponed three times this week, I am feeling very numb/tired/disheartened

 

I have also been taking up way too much real estate in this thread as of late so I apologize.

 

never apologize

 

We want to know how you’re doing King. All good

 

Your feelings and experiences are valid and it doesn't matter if it takes 1 post or 30 posts to get everything out there. What matters is that you're doing what you can to deal with it. Don't apologize for being human.

 

My vibes have just been fucked for like a whole month for a variety of circumstances and I appreciate having a place to vent about that. Thanks, everyone. Really.

 

neither my mental nor my physical health is doing well right now

 

I got broken up with a couple of weeks ago just short of my five-month anniversary with a long-time friend we'd developed mutual feelings for and it hurts so much. I'm 31 and I feel like I just watched a shot at true love go up in flames. I'm incredibly depressed and have thought about hurting or killing myself frequently. Nothing in my life seems to have value anymore and I'm going absolutely nowhere, I really feel like giving up. I'm genuinely so scared for my future.

 

Im sorry you’re going through that. Breakups can be crippling and really cloud your judgment about yourself and your future but your worth was not tied to your relationship. I hope you’re able to see a professional during this time.

 

I'm doing fucking awful. as simple as that

 

Sorry man

 

I'm really sorry to here that. You know we're here if there's anything we can do.

 

I don’t mean to bring anyone down with this post, but I think we should share wins when we can. I’ve probably felt happier this week than I have in months. I’m tapering off meds (may regret that later), eating better, and the weather is improving. All of these are doing great for boosting my energy and happiness. I’m sure I’ll regress eventually but right now I’m feeling *happy*

 

I understand and can truly appreciate this post today. I don’t feel like I’ve been depressed or really even in a funk, but today truly felt like a great day where some type of “veil” or “cover” or whatever you want to call it, was finally removed after some time. Was just a really great feeling that made me realize I haven’t been doing great for a few months. Hoping the feeling stays, even if it’s not always as strong as it was / is today.

 

I’ve been on a downswing. Work is super stressful right now and my mom’s cancer battle is a roller coaster. I’ve been so busy I haven’t been able to get up to see her and it’s making me hate my job. Coparenting has been rough lately too. Just seems like everything is getting harder at once.

 

I've had a few weeks of nonstop Ls, but it feels like they have gradually lifted throughout a week. Still a few things that are difficult, but having my cat back home happy and healthy definitely put a lot of things in perspective for me. Very glad it's Friday, hoping for a smoother weekend (and for everyone else in here as well).

 

My wife wanted to go to IKEA and I’ve never been there before. It was an hour trip and started fine, but I ended up having a panic attack. It was a huge sensory overload and I was overwhelmed with everything. I wanted to leave and made my wife unhappy since she was looking forward to going. We ended up staying and I calmed down a bit, but my head is killing me.

 

My wife and I have alternated being sick for like three weeks at this point and have been sleeping separately because of it and we just feel so, so out of sync with each other. Haven't been able to hang out or be close to each other or anything. Insanely depressing.

 

I’m not supposed to tell anyone yet, but idk any of you irl and this is always a good outlet for me.
My wife is pregnant.
She got her IUD taken out about a month ago and we’ve been talking about children for a while now. We just never expected it to happen so soon. I always said I didn’t want to bring a child into this cruel world, but the positives far outweigh my pessimism.
I want to be the father I never had.

 

Telling your wife

 

lol

 

congrats!

 

Huge congrats! My wife and I are also currently talking about kids, so that's hugely exciting. I hope the pregnancy treats you both well, friend :)