Mental Health Thread • Page 53

I don't know if I wanna go back on meds. They're so expensive.

 

I can relate to that a lot

 

Do you use coupons and prescription cards for like Walgreens? Do they have those in Canada? GOODRX is your friend and makes them waaaaaaay cheaper. @mad

 

I'd be getting them through my school and a discounted price. Told my therapist that I didn't want to go down that route but I'm not sure. Even when I make progress I'm still just bleh.

 

feeling a lot better today than i was yesterday. my apologies to anyone i may have snapped at and again thanks to anyone who showed me love

 

You're cool, dude. I'm glad you're feeling better today :)

 

I made this thread to support people and I think even negative feelings you can't help are good to discuss. I swear most of us have been there and I don't want anyone to feel judged or stigmatized (I think I might have made that word up). This is directed to the whole thread.

 

No it's real haha

 

Tough to reach out to friends because it makes me feel like a burden

 

feel this v v much

 

I feel this way

 

When I first went on anti-depressants I also had a prescription for klonopin for anxiety, and eventually I asked my doc to not write me anymore scripts for it, because I liked it too much. Other than that, no, but I would definitely recommend not drinking booze on them either.

 

unfortunately meds didn't help my anxiety, except for Xanax which made me hella drowsy

 

if a doctor ever tried prescribing me benzos id immediately have to say no. and i can never accept painkillers again unless i have someone like heavily heavily monitor my use. and for the next few months if i get in an accident or something painkillers wont do shit to me because of the vivitrol shot i have to get. yayyyyyyyy being an addict fucking sucks. like i worry about that a lot even though im probably not gonna get into an accident, its just if i do its going to be legitimate torture.

 

Bundle up like are a character in final destination.

 

or bubble boy

 

idk if this is the place to talk about it but theres not really an addiction thread and addiction is pretty much a mental health issue in a lot of ways (but in some ways its not, but still related) but yeah its nice to be able to vent about this kind of stuff. my dad hinted at me that he might not make me get the shot for as long as originally planned. i think he gets how much of an inconvenience it is at this point, like during my initial recovery and immediately following my completion of rehab it was and has been necessary but in another month or two it's just going to be nothing but a hassle having to go take care of that every three weeks and being sore for three days after every time. its a good safety net knowing i cant get high even if i do relapse, and for a while i do think i would've relapsed without it, but now i think im good. i have a great support system and people to keep me in check if i do start slipping. my girlfriend will know immediately if i relapse. and i cant be on this shot for the rest of my life, i need to learn how to live with my cravings and stop them on my own without a crutch.

 

I've been reading a lot of literature in relation to mental health. I personally don't have any issues (as of now), but I'm fascinated by the subject. Since August, I've read: Darkness Visible by William Styron, The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath, and I read Good Old Neon (from Oblivion) by David Foster Wallace. I've learned a lot from these readings. I haven't really read through this thread yet, but my eyes have been opened to a lot of truths as well as stigmas with mental health.

 

The other day I confessed to my friend that her bf reminds me of my ex. She said "don't tell me that!" and kinda laughed it off but I was serious. I've posted about her bf on here before but the other day he called her and I overheard and it was SO sketch. He was so suspicious and untrusting. We only went grocery shopping and then we talked for a few as she dropped me off at home. But he called to see where she was and what she was doing and was like "I just think it's weird that you went shopping for trash bags without saying anything to me." super accusatory like she needed his permission to run mundane errands. I usually dislike her bfs but I HATE this one. So textbook abusive. She knows it's sketch but thinks he'll get better the more she proves she's here for him and once he trusts her all the other stuff will fall away, but ugh I've so been there and that's not gonna cut it.

 

My anxiety is unbearable. Went to a concert at an amphitheater last night, had an anxiety attack when the lawn crowd got especially loud and rushed to support people trying to jump the fence (I mean at least that's the basic breakdown of my trigger). Tonight cried for hours because I started talking about my grandma who is currently in hospice care.

I hate crying, I hate being tense, I just want time to myself to breathe and feel comfortable.

 

My anxiety has been pretty bad too lately :/

 

not a good morning

 

I know I joke about the rando living in my house but I talked to my rm and basically told her that it's impacting my mental health now. I do self-care by being a hermit and decompressing in an environment I feel comfortable in. Having someone I barely know in my house means I can't do that and I'm just stressed and anxious all the time. She said she completely understands but didn't give me a definite move out date for this person. My name isn't on anything so I don't really have rights and I don't think it needs to come to that, I guess I'm just upset by the situation. I get it on my rm's side cause this person is her friend and she's having a hard time telling her to leave, but idk how much more I can take mental health-wise

 

so my dope cravings havent been so bad recently and my dreams have been minimal but last night i had the most intense dream about the drug ive had in a very long time and im shook

 

Today was super scary...

Also, I feel like I'm talking to a wall and nothing will change. I don't know why I put myself through this but someone has to try.

I'm tired and depressed now. I can't do any of my work.

Also, thanks @Dominick for his posts making me feel better.