Mental Health Thread • Page 36

IR and man did I have a hell of a time with it at first.

 

Starting to feel like no one really knows or cares about me

 

I do

But I feel that way too sometimes, I am human and I need to be loved just like everybody else does

 

@mad that's (partly) what this thread is for. You can always talk about your day here!

 

I really really like this song. Reminds me way back in college, when I started drinking frequently. Just sitting in a long table of people and just laughing socializing and pushing all my fears away. And then I get home and it's morning and there's just silence and nothing else, and I realize that I miss being alone with my thoughts. That I sometimes forget how much of an introvert I am.

i remember feeling happy and lonely at the same time. Looking back, I've probably felt more lonely than happy but it's such a special memory for me.

 

I think it's implied but I just wanted to verbalize that I care for each and every person in here. Never feel bad about venting or expressing your feelings. It's what we're all here for. ❤️

 

❤️

 

Not feeling great at all today. Feel like everything has been building up to this moment where I am about to explode. Left work early and called my mom to meet me

 

Im just genuinely worried about doing something stupid and ruining my job>_>. Since stopping Seroquel, I'm getting maybe 1-3 hours of sleep a night, max. I can't think at all today, and would gladly take a sick day, but I'm off on vacation all next week.

Think it's time to call my doc for a new Seroquel prescription. I had some bad side effects mentally on the XR version, but the IR didn't have such problems- I just hate the IR because it constipates me sooo bad.

Tired of feeling so hopeless and like everything that can ever go wrong does go wrong. I had some bad depression in bad situations before and social anxiety, but I feel like since diagnosing and treating for bipolar 2, I've been worse than I ever was prior. I wish a doc was willing to listen and reevaluate me, but apparently a 20 minute question sheet brands me as BP2 for life. Sometimes I really wonder if it's just my ADHD because my cyclical thoughts, anxiety, and extremely shaky legs all seem to cease on Adderall. Problem is, can't take a stimulant to slow my thoughts down for sleep.

 

You were diagnosed by a questionnaire?! That's insane. I lucked out and found a psychiatrist who is always available to me by phone, email, etc. If you sleep better with Seroquel you should be taking it. I sometimes take melatonin with it and it helps. Man, those are a lot of things to experince. I get a 100% stopped up nose when I take Seroquel but it helps me sleep so I just deal with that part of it.

 

Heh yep. Partly the reason I went to another doc for a second opinion, but she just took the other doc's word for it that I have the BP2, and thinks I need med adjustments and disagrees with a lot of the med choices made for me in the past.. primarily, she never ever prescribes Seroquel XR. I mean, I've tried all sorts of SSRIs and SNRI (Effexor) so I think that made the doc determine it was something other than anxiety and depression. I've tried everything for sleep since I was a kid- melatonin, benadryl, trazadone, ambien, lunesta, NyQuil, and I'm sure many more. The only thing that has ever helped me is Marijuana but it doesn't help me stay asleep, and I'll end up up at 4 AM with my mind running at a million miles an hour. It's not even always anxiety- just a ton of randomass thoughts swarming around.

 

Just left the new doc a message on her personal cell, really hoping I can get that Seroquel in tonight! I've asked for a smaller dose than I had in the past to see if even that'll help - even 25mg knocks me on my ass, which is incredible in all honesty.

 

Daaaang, I'm on 200 haha

 

It's so weird to be vaguely familiar with all the medications y'all are throwin out, cause my ex was bipolar and went thru many many meds/ every single one listed

 

It took me so long to get the proper medication since bipolar is so tricky. I still have setbacks but the combo seems to be working.

 

I used to be on a massive dose of Abilify, but my memory was shot on it and I felt like a total zombie.
Stopped it cold turkey, had a wild Manic episode, and since that passed I haven't felt better.

Constantly have to be on my toes and look out for any signs of a manic episode, but it's actually nice to be able to feel again.

 

I have Prozac brain big time.

 

Two days in a row I've made my carpool late leaving work cause of an experiment and I'm embarrassed how anxious it makes me

 

This is relevant to my interests.

What is Prozac brain?

 

Awful memory, not remembering what you were talking about in a conversation and not finishing sentences, etc. I have a hard time spelling sometimes too bc the words seem weird to me.

Like just now, I forgot to put the food in the oven when I started the timer. So I have to wait another 30 minutes. It sucks.

 

Oh lord. That explains some things. I've noticed in the past week or so I've been a little more spacy than usual. I guess since I'm at the point where I should be getting the full effect of it, that makes sense.

Good times.

 

It's another one of those shitty things you have to put up with in order to stay healthy mentally. Some people get brain zaps so I'm glad I only have forgetfulness. What do you suffer from if you don't mind me asking?

 

After spending a lot of time on and off a massive assortment of medication, I definitely feel I'm better off of it.
I can't say that I don't have the occasional scary moment, where I kinda loose control a bit, and I've definitely been in some terrible situations due to that, but after spending some serious time off of meds, I'm so happy to feel like myself again.

And please don't take that as me belittling the effects of meds, because I know that for some people they work perfectly, but they just don't seem to work for me.

 

"I don't do refills or new prescriptions between appointments. If you have any left over from your previous provider, you can take that."

Awesome. Then why the Hell does your office machine say to contact your personal phone for side effects?! God, I'm about ready to give up on doctors/health providers and stop taking everything. Im just so tired of being screwed around like this.

Maybe I should find a good psychiatrist instead of a nurse practitioner but I have a very long history with doctors telling me I'm crazy only for an NP to finally figure things out (different disease.. had lyme disease for 7+ years untreated) and I just don't trust docs anymore. I just dunno who to go to, my own therapist recommended this one through a colleague of hers.