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Hm

 

Max do your dogs ever sploot? I may have asked you this before

 

I’m glad my mom has, as suspected, already gotten to the point of not only evicting me ‘when this is over’ (which is only bc I said ok have fun trying to evict me during a pandemic...otherwise it’d be now ) but not speaking to me after Hahahaha anyway I’m getting money from my college relief fund and I’m definitely using it to buy a gun and shooting myself

 

What the fuck why does she want to evict you?

Also don't do that we need you

 

Please don’t do that. You’re important.

 

Because I can’t pay my bills lol because I’m about to graduate with no job
And frankly even if I could get a job...I haven’t been able to self motivate from home since this started at all. All I do is lay in a depressive slump in bed or have panic attacks. If I can’t even do homework assignments it’s laughable to think I could work a full time job. Even if I could find one.

 

Leo does it all the time, that’s how he normally lays down but Annabelle hardly ever does it

 

Having a normal one

 

did a raccoon write this

 

But she knew that u would graduate and not have a job right away right? What was the plan of what you were going to do after before you found a job? The advice I can give about how to deal with the depressive slump and anxiety is try to find something you love and do the shit out of it. Focus all passion, anger, sadness into that. It's fulfilling, makes you feel useful, and consumes time, and lessens anxiety because you are focused on something else. It could be anything! (Thats at least what's helping me right now...maybe it can help you too) Are the assignments for school really boring so that adds to the dread of completing them?

 

I have played so much basketball today. Feeling great besides the new blister on the bottom of my foot

 

Are you going to pop it?

 

Yes and now he's embarrassed you called him out on it

 

thinkin’ bout it

 

lowkey thicc

 

Damn it no why

 

I’ll always remember when I was in like fourth grade and I kept my key in my shoe and one day it lodged under my big toe and gave me the biggest blood blister I’ve ever had when they had us run like two miles in gym.

 

gotta eat somethin when yr still waiting to be stimulated

 

How did you make it worse

 

Sharp object in shoe sounds like a great call although one time when I was like 5 my mum crossed the road with me and held my hand too hard...forgetting her keys were in her hand too. I struggled but she thought I was just playing around so she squeezed harder and basically stabbed my palm HARD with sharp af keys. Boy did I get some great apology toys I couldn’t play with for a few days with my fucked up hand

 

It was generally fine, but the way it got under my toe during the run phuxked me up. I wasn’t about to take my shoe off and move the key. Didn’t want anyone knowing I keep a damn key in my shoe.

 

:(

 

you and your pride!

 

I’ve had the biggest blister of my life this week. Right between my big and second toe. It doesn’t hurt but it’s super awkward and I’m ready for it to go.