Mental Health Thread • Page 313

I was stressed out because I thought my work would get shutdown but according to California we are considered an essential even if we are a warehouse to a clothing company.

the problem is no work is coming in because of course people are not spending their money so now I am like what is going to happen next

 

True, I’m in California as well and my company is considered essential because we manufacture equipment for first responders. I’m working remotely since Tuesday. Might get my hours cut if sales continue to decline.

 

I’m also lucky to be able to work fully remote but I work in a college admissions office and it’s been very slow since people are understandably not thinking about going to school right now. Really anxious about having my hours cut if it continues to be slow despite the university saying that’s not something they’re considering.

 

I was also able to get through to my roommate so that’s been a huge relief today

 

they laid out their policy which was 2 weeks paid off if shutdown and I barely have like 35 hours of pto so now I’m like oh god what will happen.

they also said they’ll allow negative pto but nah that’s just wrong.

 

I really need to stop reading the politics thread. Today was going fairly well all things considered and now I’m on the verge of an anxiety attack.

 

Took a mental health day to try and level out my anxiety. It helped a little but I'm going to officially put in for self quarantine. They said my job won't be in jeopardy and I can take as long as I need. But I'm going to rethink about going back completely if higher ups insist profiting from books is more essential than the health and safety of actual humans.

 

@mad I got your card. Was great timing even if it's not xmas

 

More triggering my anxiety. Because my main job is "shut down", I picked up shifts at my on call job because they need people and I feel like I'll make a little more than unemployment benefits. Plus I'm not sure how it works, I didn't want to apply and get denied because I technically have a job that I can get hours at. Anyway, my fear is that the government will order "shelter in place" and I can't leave my workplace. They made everyone sign something stating that could happen and to keep a bag with a change of clothes for few days and toiletries in case. I asked one of the workers about it and they said they're talking about getting a room prepared (I also said the company better pay us over or double time for 24 hours+)... and let me tell you-no offense to my work, but the building is very dated, gives the appearance of things looking dirty despite housekeeping cleaning, and I am most definitely uncomfortable sleeping there, and showering (I'll refuse to shower and will stink, and give myself a sponge bath- I'll bring my own towels). I also refuse to wash my clothes in the industrial washer because I've seen what goes thru there, plus I have to use "special" laundry soap or I get skin irritation. Also the food they serve isn't the best of quality (looks dirt cheap) and I will refuse to eat it.

 

I feel numb inside.

 

I’m trying to get there

 

I feel so hopeless.

 

I’m starting to think that my personal mental health risk in this crisis won’t be from handling cabin fever but being afraid to go back out once it’s over.

 

This is where I’m at right now

 

I've been on the verge of having a panic attack for like the last couple of days and i'm trying my absolute hardest to stay calm but it's hard and i really don't want to be hospitalized for having one when a panic attack is comparatively minor compared to the crisis we're dealing with, like i don't want to screw someone out of a hospital bed when they need it more than i do

Sorry if that was a bit rambly, i'm having trouble keeping my thoughts organized

 

I'm half way having an anxiety attack. I got an email saying my rental app was denied due to "insufficient income to support rent", yet they called me and said I was approved? and I have a cosigner because I wouldn't qualify on my own (my cosigner makes enough to qualify as a cosigner). It appears its a third party company that sent it because on the apt web site it was application approved. I'm just freaking out. There has to be a supervisor that approves it once they sent everything in. Tomorrow only temps are working so I can't call and ask if I should be worried.

 

I submitted for self quarantine today. My mother did as well, money will be the big issue. We're hoping this will just go to 2-3 weeks but I'm not getting my hopes up. Would love to play Animal Crossing right now to unwind but I'm sure that's money I'll be needing down the line.

 

Yes this is 100 % what I'm feeling too. I fear this will undo some of my progress regarding my social phobia, and the paranoia isn't helping.

 

My friend had her baby. Nice to get good news during all this

 

This genuinely made me chuckle. I hope it brings a smile to your faces, too

 

Wish I could just pass out for a month. I can barely sleep, if at all. Just want all this to be over so I can go back to my regular dose of depression lol

 

some good and bad news.

work wise I found out we are getting all the work due to the retail side of our clothing store shutting down so it is only online now. It now means two weeks of ot so I guess yay for money and also not having to stay home and be depressed?

the bad news is this self isolation is bad for my health just because I’m talking to people I shouldn’t talk to when I am bored and also I hate spending so much time alone since my roommates are gone.

 

definitely spiraling today

 

Feels weird that I almost killed myself on May 1st last year and now almost a year later everything is way worse

 

Can't remember the last time a felt this hopeless lol