Mental Health Thread • Page 310

It’s probably a bad idea to post these but I think I should at least give a proper reason for leaving this time instead of just disappearing like last time. I’m clearly not well. Something is intrinsically wrong with me. Self isolation is probably not the best way to cope but it’s the only option I’m afforded. I want to make it clear I’m not even mad anymore. I don’t want this to come across as spiteful as it probably will but I need to get away from all of this and all of you and not look back. Please don’t try to contact me. Just let me be. All this will probably lead to is “haha funny discord name haha” like it always does.

 

This post makes me very concerned for you and I have no idea how to help. I hate seeing you feel so down on yourself, and I recognize so many of the patterns of depressed thinking that I’ve had over the years of assuming everyone hates me and devalues me and anything I try to do to get help will just result in me being laughed at because that’s what I deserve.

And I’m really struggling because you just said not to contact you and I always want to respect when people need space, but I can’t just stay silent when this sounds so dire. I really hope you are safe at the moment and have people around who can help you in the immediate future. And I’m sorry if I’ve ever not taken you seriously, I know I said when you left before that I would always rather have you be yourself and open and say whatever is on your mind for real and not feel obligated to make jokes, but maybe I’ve contributed to that recently and haven’t even realized it.

I really value you and want you to be well, and if that means taking more time away I totally understand. But I am here or I’m sure you can find me on Facebook or somewhere else if you do need to talk at any point.

 

It sucks to see you suffering and I hope you can find someway to get better. If you ever log in again and see this, know I’m always around to talk buddy.

I will say that it was difficult at times to know when you were being serious or doing a bit and that made it harder for me, personally, to engage sometimes. I did know the furry jokes were long ago to be abandoned tho.

either way, I wish you the best.

 

I’m so overwhelmed

 

All of this is really starting to weigh on me. I bought a pack of cigarettes.

 

Trying to keep on the up and up but my anxiety has been on the unruly side as well with all this happening. I live with and take care of both my Mother(60 asthma) and Grandmother(80 asthma/diabetic) and the dread of what ifs has been hitting so hard. I've cut out the gym and workout at home but work is another story. Where I work has contemplated to shorten the hours of operation, temporarily. I work retail so that's why the dread is so high but I'm still hoping for the best and using common sense with all that's going on.

 

I recommend everyone finds a way to do some type of in home workout, be it body weight, yoga, etc.

It’s all a a balancing act between meds, lifestyle, etc but be sure to give yourself a chance with everything you can.

 

Stressed out about many things, not being able to graduate (I don't care about the ceremony) being the chief

 

We are all in this together. Even if you’re self isolating you are not alone.

 

How are you

 

Much better. Drove my care for the first time in 9 days, left the apartment for the first time in 7 days. My lungs hurt still and I can’t take a deep breath and moving around makes warm/start coughing but I’ve not get the need for cough medicine for the first time in 10 days. Had to get a check from work that was missing from my paycheck and I have to get groceries when my girlfriend gets out of work but I’m like 110% better than I was.

real question is how are you doing?

 

Was it pneumonia??

 

How am I doing?

Hahhahahahhahaa yeah

 

This is gonna sound like a meme but I really need Animal Crossing to come out so I can relax

 

That was my guess. I was treated for a bronchial infection. But today was my “go back to the doctor” cut off but with such a dramatic improvement, I’m just going to ride it out with any cough medicine if I need it. But the dude at the walk in clinic I went to is a prick. He was a prick to Steph when we saw him in the fall for her foot pain and he legit spent 90 seconds in the room with me before he (likely) misdiagnosed me. So who knows.

 

Fuck. I’m thinking about you, bud. Take care of yourself mentally as best you can. Reach out if there is anything I can do.

 

I appreciate it so much. :) feel better my dude

 

you and me both.

 

I am an absolute disaster right now and don’t know what to do

 

How can I help

 

There is so much power in just acknowledging your struggling. I used to never tell my wife I was anxious. But now I do every time and it’s a party of my therapy. It reminds me that I’ve been here before and it will pass.

I know not everyone has wives/husbands/someone they can speak to immediately, but everyone here has a caring internet community, which is hard to find.

 

I am struggling.

A week and a half ago we were unable to find my brother in-law. I drove up to his apartment and got the police to do a wellness check, and he was dead in the kitchen. It was an apparent heroin overdose, and we had zero idea he was using. It was on the anniversary of my mother in-law passing too.

Since then my father in-law has been staying with us, which has been a lot. Between grieving and now the coronavirus stuff, he is sufficiently stressed out. He’s stressed on a good day anyways, so right now it’s next level. He’s 72 and diabetic so he’s paranoid about getting sick and doesn’t want to leave, and we’re also paranoid about getting him sick.

We also had planned to go clean out my brother in-laws apartment, but now that there’s a risk of exposure to fentanyl we don’t feel comfortable doing it. We got a quote to clean it and it was 17,000 dollars, which just isn’t doable at all. I am hoping we can just have the apartment complex deal with it.

On top of that we have a 3 month old baby whose schedule has been completely thrown off by another guest, my wife is overwhelmed, and I feel like I’m starting to crack a bit. I’m just taking care of a lot, while also recovering from a concussion, and I just want to relax for a moment.

 

Man, that's a lot. I'm sorry to hear about your BIL.

There's no advice that can help but just remind yourself this isn't forever and you will get through it.

 

Also, not being able to drink right now is probably good but also so bad

 

I had another breakdown. I was in the car with my brother and I snapped. It’s been happening a lot and I don’t know any triggers. It’s sudden and it’s scaring me.