Mental Health Thread • Page 233

right there with you girl
just remember that better days are ahead, even though it feels impossible right now

 

Whenever I have even two sips of an alcoholic drink, i get drunk. I have a bad reaction to alcohol. Sometimes I think that i need to build tolerance, but it’s not worth it.
I went to the show with my brother today and his friend was the bartender and I felt obligated to get a drink. I only had a little bit, but I can really feel it. I don’t even like feeling buzzed. I’m too relaxed, but I need my anxiety. I need to worry about everything or I feel I’m forgetting something and that makes me even more anxious. I can drink to relieve my anxiety, but it makes me feel guilty I’m not feeling anxious about something. I can’t enjoy myself. Anxiety has been ruining my life for years to the point that it’s my norm and I’d be lost without it.

 

I've been getting hit with these bouts of like, physical energy? Just like ah I need to shake my leg or do something with my hands. Which seems fine, but then my stomach starts to turn and I end up in the bathroom dry heaving, and I just have to sit on the floor, close my eyes, and do breathing exercises to bring me back down. idk folks, I used to get this when I was drinking a lot but I've barely been drinking these days so it's weird.

 

you may have some kind of allergy to it. idk much about it but I met a girl once who told me about it and she was very similar. Only just a few drinks and she'd pass out and it even resulted in seizures.

 

I never thought of that. I’ll look it up.

 

Tbh I hate the pressure to drink. ive never been a big drinker and people are always making it weird. Drunk people are always the worst about when someone isn't drinking. One of my best friends drinks a lot and the insecure part of me always feels like she's disappointed I'm not joining her. Even if I do get a drink I'm not going at her pace and I feel like she wants a funner night and im dragging it down or something idk. I'm sure she'd be horrified if she knew I felt that way but it's my insecurities. One time she kept buying me drinks without asking and it's probably the closest I've been to drunk and I went home and felt absolutely miserable like luckily I didn't puke and wasn't hungover the next day but it actually wasn't fun at all. It's also hard cause I have so many negative associations with alcohol from my mom, so I have a lot of lil triggers. Like my friend rly wanted me to go to this specific bar and I dreaded it cause I had v negative associations of it from my mom, and I feel like some people just don't get that stuff. Sometimes the smell of alcohol on people's breath can be triggering or upsetting too. I wish I could have more normal feelings on alcohol but I also wish a lot of stuff with alcohol wasn't normalized like it is.

 

I don't usually post in there threads. I read them and try to help others but I feel I need to vent; I'm 29, I have NEVER taken drugs (not even a small attempt) and have up on drinking because I got into some states. I haven't been well all week (sickness, stomach, eyes look red) and my parents seem to think I've been doing something yet I have NOT, All I've done is not be well. It's not helping me sleep either. Past 2 nights I've had around 3-4 hours sleep and that's probably why I look like shit.

I used to be about 12/13 stone (around 76/78 kg?) and inexplicably lost around 3-4 stone (around 50kg?) and this is being looked into, bloods have been taken and will get the results in a few weeks. I get that my parents and partner are worried but I don't feel like the should be pushing me around. It's embarrassing and when I mention it to them, all they do is tell me run down and shit I look.

Thanks for reading, hopefully I get my results quickly and this is all over; there's only so much you can around the housr r=e

 

I Can't imagine the stress of not knowing what's going on and then being made to feel bad or weird about how you look while you're dealing with these issues. I hope everything is okay!

 

Thanks very much. The longer i wait the more stressful it is. Some bloods came back fine so here's hoping!!

 

I hate this goddamn world so much

 

Wife is leaving me. 33 and been married 5 years, together 9. Who's got some good advice?

 

Anyone who makes someone feel pressured or awkward about not drinking is not a person that should be in your life, IMO. Do you, be you.

 

found this thread did a good job of articulating a lot of my feelings re: anxiety related to age/aging:

 

Idk what's wrong with me. I feel so lazy all the time. This morning I actually woke up at a decent hour and got groceries and did laundry and while I'm waiting for my clothes to dry I'm looking forward to going to the gym and then making lunch and folding my laundry and watching a movie and practicing my guitar but I just crash and lose all motivation. None of those things are even stressful or hard like I want to do all of that minus folding laundry lol. But now my laundry finished drying and I don't wanna do anything. Now I will most likely spend the day laying on my couch when I actually want to do my original plan like I don't want to waste my day on the couch but it's always like there's this invisible weight on my chest keeping me down. I know I need to work through it and all I have to do is get up, so why is it always so hard? I know that's how depression works but I'm tired of wasting my life on it.

 

has anyone had luck with an anti-anxiety med that hasn't made them feel so gd tired all the time?

 

Love to live in the land of free health care but still have to pay $200/hr for therapy unless I wanna wait until 2026 to see someone! Turns out waiting things out for 15 years isn't a very good thing to do for your mental health

 

Ugh I just paid off my therapy bill and was all proud and then came home to a doctor bill I didn't know about but they are claiming my payment is late and it's pending collections. So I have to pay that off and then schedule another appt with them so I can owe even more yay life is fun

 

I have like no friends nearby me and my friends who I do have that live out of state never talk to me and when I reach out to them they just seem inceedincr disinterested. I feel like such an unwanted and useless person.

 

So my sister passed away a few weeks ago and I came back to NYC only to find out that one of my main gigs had folded. I've been doing okay but I've been trying to stay positive with having to job hunt and also bearing the weight of such a loss at the same time. I need to find full-time work but I often feel really stuck when I sit down to think about the kind of job I want and this has been an issue for a while. I wish it wasn't so hard for me to decide on where I wanted to work/what I want to do. In general I live my life in this sort of fear that I could lose it all tomorrow and I don't want to regret anything. Even in high school, I'd remember waking up and thinking that everything was sort of pointless/that it's just all a big dream. I really enjoyed college and did well and think that had a lot to do with the fact that it felt a lot less pointless to me and I'm struggling to deal with the same hesitance I'm having in my job hunt--it's like 14-year old me is still raging inside and has this staunch opposition to getting a job just to pay the bills. I know there's a lot of different orgs and companies out there doing great work but I get so overwhelmed when I think about how to start applying to jobs. I'm trying to be better about reaching out for informational interviews to get a better sense of where I want to go but I just feel frozen a lot of the time. When I was back home visiting my parents, my mom thought I should get tested for ADD since she thought I had trouble focusing but I think it may be some form of anxiety that causes me to freeze up and overthink things. I also worry about this in my job hunt--that I have such poor multi-tasking skills and feel unfit for a lot of the things I come across.

 

The best advice I can give you is the advice I didn't want to hear when I got divorced. You will move past this and come out stronger from it, even though it doesn't feel like it now.

My mom added on "Someone out there is going to be the luckiest girl in the world and they don't even know it"

Don't lose yourself, I almost did. Now I'm happier in my relationship than I've ever been and found someone even more special.

 

I woke up at 12:30am with intense back pain. And I get back pain a lot cause I'm tense but this was like not that pain like just intense pain so bad I couldn't move and wanted to scream. Then my whole body got hot and sweaty and clammy. I was panicking cause I live alone and thought I was gonna have to call an ambulance or my dad but like I couldn't walk. Felt like I was dying so I thought maybe it was a panic attack?? Idk but my back felt better so I got up but then I got super dizzy and started seeing spots and I thought I was gonna pass out. Went back in bed and felt fine but my back started to hurt again wtf. Like super intense upper back pain. Fml. It's fine now though?? Like what even. Only thing I can think of is if I took too much cold medicine before bed and my body was like Nope. Idek. But I'm gonna stress that I am dying like all day today.

 

I don’t know about the back pain (hopefully you will be okay today!), but hot flushes, clammy skin, dizziness and seeing spots sounds like really low blood sugar, can you somehow check your sugar levels? Maybe the back pain was like a warning that something else was wrong? Idk. Feel better! You’re not gonna die!

 

Oh no! Hope you’re feeling better!!

 

Thanks! My back kinda hurt today but not nearly as bad as the demonic pain last night lol. It is hard to tell the cause because I have a cold, I'm on my period, and I've just been having issues cause of stress/anxiety in general. So idk if one of those is the cause or all of them! It was the first time I was rly scared of living alone tho cause I was like legit helpless and couldn't move so now I may have an irrational fear of living alone lol

 

How do I tell my parents I’m ditching a career as a psychologist and instead pursuing music journalism? I can’t help feeling like they will be disappointed. They’ll say they support me then take subtle jabs at my decision just like they have since my sister dropped out of college. I don’t want to disappoint anyone just by following what I’ve always wanted

Edit: I kinda need to tell them asap, it’s just finding the right time and the courage... I’ve been offered a place at an amazing arts college and I already said yes. I need to give them my paperwork within the next fortnight if I want to keep my place there