Mental Health Thread • Page 222

i called my dad and told him i relapsed and have been using for a little over a week. it was extremely difficult and i cried really hard the entire time but im glad i did it. im confronting this relapse head on unlike my last one. im ready to fight it and get back to living my life sober before it gets harder and harder. only a week and a half in i should be able to detox without much assistance, it's going to suck still since ive had to detox several times before already so my body starts withdrawing after less and less uses. when i first started using heroin, it took me about a month of every day use to feel withdrawals. now it takes about three days max.

 

I have consistently been paying my student loans since college and I did pay off the big private one but the Stafford one never seems to make a dent even tho I know it is. I'm just stressed out. I always pay my credit cards in full every month. But now I get paid once a month instead of bi-weekly and I haven't caught up on finances since I quit my previous job, so I paid a portion of the cc bills and I was gonna pay the rest off later in the month but I just wanted to make sure I was ok to do so. Anyway I forgot to do that and kept putting charges on the cards like I'd paid them off, which I thought I had cause I always do. So fast forward to now and i have to pay off a LOT more than usual. And now for the first time I have a car payment so that added expense is stressing me out.

I get paid next week but I'm dreading the check. I thought I'd be getting paid a lil more at this job but so much money gets taken out that I make what I did before. And now it is gonna be smaller cause I signed up for insurance. I also have lots of things that are financial commitments but they'll be done in October and I'm determined to take a break and save up. I just need things to chill but there's always something. Like my commitments will be done and then before I know it the expensive holidays.

 

Thinking about dental assisting. My dental office has a very accelerated program which sounds good that I can do that and get a higher paying job faster than sitting around waiting to hear back from somewhere

 

Dope sick :(((

 

push through, you got this shit

 

I'm in a time crunch to find a new job. Planning on moving in with the bf in a few months which is pretty much after our vacation. I feel like I have to take a job I can get and just be miserable at it until something different comes along. I can't stay at my current job and making the commute for the scrap pay I'm making. There was a place/company but you have to have a CNA license in some communities, and I'm not licensed, otherwise I have all other experience. It's misleading because the title doesn't say "CNA" but asks for a license in the job description, yet other posting title says CNA. It's really confusing and the company and good employee reviews average 4+ star rating. The med assistant description doesn't say you have to have a CNA license, also confusing. May apply. So stressful

 

God, I'm so fucking fed up with whatever I'm having symptoms of. I don't know when they'll be able to tell me what it is, and I swear I get a new symptom every day. And I don't feel like anyone in my family is as supportive as I want them to be but I also feel like maybe I do have unreasonable expectations of what support should look like when it comes to health issues. I just hate this all so much.

 

I feel like I'm losing a friend and it's breaking my heart. I've been keeping my distance for a while and talking to him casually because I didn't want to pressure him into anything, but it's been getting worse so I tried talking to him but I don't think any good came out of it. I just thanked him for listening, and hoped that he considers my offer to hang out.

Up until now, I had been joking around and walking on egg shells because I thought that's what he needed. He wasn't getting better when I was doing that, but now I'm not sure if this thing I just did made it worse.

 

I hate dv trainings so much.

 

I already couldn't travel because my lack of cash but my bank caught onto my PayPal scheme and took more of my money. Finally broke down and just started a gofundme cuz 1) things are only getting worse more quickly and 2) I have a lot of friends and family who don't understand how bad poverty/homelessness is and hope this is jarring enough for them to change their perspective.

Anyways, I'm at around 3 naps a day and its kind of refreshing

 

Just when I think things might start to get better, it goes right back to being worrisome. Manager still hasn't sent my pto to HR, it been almost 3 months. Also found out manager is transferring location so idk who is going to manager my location. It stresses me out because they'd have to send it. At the same time I'm trying to find a new job hoping they'd be ok with my vacation coming up. I need a new job to move in with the bf. Applied some places. Hoping to hear back. Theres one I applied to that looks like it pays decent, so I hope I get an interview. I'm just really stressed out right now

 

Well, I'm getting an MRI to see if I have Multiple Sclerosis or other brain lesions causing my symptoms. The doctor seemed really concerned about my symptoms. This is all so fucking awful. If I feel well enough I want to go to a support group for mental health since it's really affecting mine, but I'm not positive I will feel well enough. I'm hoping the symptoms get better soon. One good thing is that my grandmother who has MS is doing fine even in her old age, she responded well to treatment. That gives me hope if it is MS.

 

yall ever sit back like mmmmm one of my best and closest friends wasnt abusive and i shouldnt have seen it coming and done more to stop it


fuck

 

Tonight’s gonna be really bad, I might lose my job (and therefore my apartment) today

 

I just want to fall asleep without suicidal thoughts

 

Doctor upped my Wellbutrin dosage this week so I'm hoping that goes well. Also trying my hand at using CBD oil for the first time and I think it's going okay so far.

 

I’ve had a few bad breakdowns today. For several different reasons. But I’ve been talking to a girl for a few weeks who lives really far away, and I think.... the uncertainty of that has my anxiety and depression at their peak right now.

 

Applied for a job that was just posted and immediately got a rejection email. I feel like I’m worthless and not good enough for better jobs and I’ll be stuck at shit jobs for the rest of my life. I hate my current job so much I’m in tears daily. I don’t know what to do anymore

 

I’ve been clean a week and my track marks are healed up almost so I’m feeling a little better about everything. Relapses are so traumatic I really have to stop doing this

 

Everything since I went homeless, a lot of my friends have gone MIA. Its fucked up. Like they straight up don't even talk to me. I feel so isolated and worthless the past couple days.

 

What's your gofundme link?

 

Click here to support Saving Homeless Xristos & Momo organized by Xristos Katsaros

Feel free to share. I don't want anyone here to stress their finances for me. We all go thru a lot in this thread.

 

It just dawned on me that I could be kicked out of my current living situation really at any moment. Someone here just got evicted and I'm only here on a verbal agreement. No clue what is going on right now.

 

I feel extremely physically ill after having to tell this girl I couldn’t talk to her anymore since she doesn’t want a relationship.

I know the feeling will pass. But I feel so unwanted. I feel so certain that no woman will ever want me the way I want her.

And the worst part is, tomorrow I have to go to work and pretend to be fine. I can barely take a nap today. How will I even sleep tonight? How will I be able to get up and go to work tomorrow? And then my doctor appointment on Tuesday? I’m just so upset.

 

Pulling this from a different thread, but if you need more recs for those videogames let me know what kind you're looking for. At the very least I can help in that department.