Mental Health Thread • Page 195

My good friend is back from Seattle this week for his friends wedding and we're supposed to hang out tomorrow and it could not come at a better time. Really hoping this is the catalyst to get back to where I was.

 

Welp, I'm officially heading to the Bay Area. Gave notice today. Scared and stressed, but excited. Next month will be a thing...

 

I hate that every time I am finally starting to feel better, a bad day happens and all of the shitty thoughts and feelings come flooding back.

 

I’ll look into it

 

Unemployment people called and it's frustrating. I wanna be done with this situation and my old job but then I have to get dragged back into it all and unemployment is basically just the middleman to my old job and me arguing back and forth. It's very unpleasant and mentally draining.

Like people keep applauding me for having great coping mechanisms but I don't think they realize how depleted I feel. Like every time I have to struggle with myself and end up choosing a good coping strategy like yeah that's a positive thing I suppose, but inwardly that battle gets more and more difficult and demanding on me and it takes a toll.

 

sunday evening my dad texted me asking for my email address, so i gave it to him. then he texted something like "i have something i want to talk to you about" and with my dad it could be literally anything. something super offensive, something victim-y like "why don't you come to visit us?"etc...but so far...no email. and just now he texted again talking about today's yankees/sox game so idk if he forgot or what. he was probably a little drunk when he texted sunday, yankees went into extra innings. i hate this crap

 

I've been terribly anxious about getting into a car crash every single time I'm in a car for a few weeks now, and it's debilitating

 

Is this as a passenger or driving or both, this only really happens to me while driving because people are so reckless

 

Passenger, driving frightens me and I don't have my licence

 

Did something trigger these feelings, or have you always been scared of that happening?

 

I understand, I unfortunately have to drive where I live, wish I could help

 

I'm not sure. My dad takes me into uni and home most days. I get anxious when he's frustrated and swearing at other drivers, and we're almost in accidents every day due to reckless drivers or people who don't know where they're going. I used to be relaxed in cars and daydream a lot and come up with song lyrics. I don't do that anymore. It's like I'm suddenly very aware of how dangerous the road is and very conscious of my mortality

My mum was in two accidents within weeks a few years ago, thankfully she was totally fine but the car wasn't. I'm always scared if I'm close to where the accidents happened but it's normal to feel that and I'm not in that area often

thank you, I'm relieved you understand but sad that you relate

 

I used to have rly bad driving anxiety and it's still not my favorite thing to do but I live in a town where you pretty much have to drive. I try to pawn it off on others when I can. Nobody ever understood how nerve wracking it was for me. I was in a fatal car crash as a kid but even that aside, people do not take driving srsly and that freaks me out. Espesh in rural areas like this where ppl have been driving since they were kids and all swear up and down that they're good drivers as they're being completely reckless. Like everyone is so cocky they dgaf. I wish our driving culture was different and seen more seriously.

 

About to start Propranolol and Cymbalta. Anyone here ever tried them? I'm really worried that my sweating will increase, which is already a huge problem as I sweat too much as is.

 

Social anxiety is so dehumanizing for me. Fine at home, left to go to the grocery store and have been sitting in my car panicking for 5 minutes. It's such a regular thing that I've done so many times and yet today I can't pull myself out of the car .

 

I can relate to the sitting in a car outside the grocery store, it’s awful. I’m driving without car insurance because I cannot afford it for at least another week but I have to drive...had such a great day yesterday and now I feel like yesterday didn’t even happen, sick of the constant ups and downs.

 

just woke up from one and feel like i could legit just go to sleep and call it a day at 6pm. yesterday i took two naps. the day before i took three. wishing i could just sleep for the next couple weeks.

 

I had an interview today and I don't think i crashed and burned but I didn't leave feeling great either. My last interview I felt so good and confident (erroneously apparently cause I didn't get that job lol) but now with all the sucky things going in my life I just don't feel confident and qualified. The questions were super intimidating. I couldn't think of good examples for everything and felt like I was rambling about nothing. Idk. It's hard when the interviewers don't react much. One did and was easy to work off of, but the others were more stoic and harder to read and idk how I did.

 

honeymoon period is over, hate my job and wanna quit every day, fantasize about walking out all the time and I'm reaching a breaking point. overworked, underpaid, treated like garbage every day. not sure how much longer I can do this

 

I was so close to doing this yesterday and called out today and my manager was pissed and will probably write me up or fire me tomorrow since I don't have a doctors note. Whatever these kinds of jobs are a dime a dozen

 

they're a touch overrated

sorry, both for your situation and the TBS ref, hope you find something good

 

it's whatever I get paid way less than I'm actually worth doing work that I hate, I've been doing jobs like this for 10 years I need to break the cycle and fully push myself to find work I want to be doing. I just always settle on these shit jobs because I need money and it's better than nothing. Time to say fuck that before I drive myself crazy and hurt myself

 

I've pretty much quit every job I've ever had because I just don't fit and can't deal with the stress. Every workplace has given me intense anxiety no matter how great my coworkers or managers were. I'm currently working the easiest job I've ever had but almost 4 months in I'm feeling the same. I just feel like every place has a higher standard of work than I'm even capable of.

And they've all been entry level customer service bullshit.

 

I just started a job with Admissions where I went to undergrad after being unemployed for 7 months. At first I was so worried it was gonna be like working retail with the big focus on "your numbers = your job" but it's been really fun and fulfilling so far.