Mental Health Thread • Page 182

in other news, i think i briefly frightened my therapist yesterday, and after more than a year and a half of hearing me rant, that's hard to do. she's making me do a bunch of visualizations as my homework (punishment? lol) this week, which i hate doing, but they work, so whatever.

 

Yup, it's that one. And yeah, haha, that's something I know I'll need to do this weekend.

 

I just got a full time job

 

Congrats Jacob

 

i feel like it's gonna come down to housing/cost of living - heh, i guess a poll just came out saying CA has the worst quality of life or some shit like that but i can almost guarantee it's due to how much stuff costs here. everything else about this state is great though, imo

 

Oh, it's honestly housing that is my main hiccup. I'm fairly inexpensive overall, but like to feel safe, live in a comfortable place. I've been looking at prices and my options generally seem to be either I live further away and maybe luck out with a 1-bedroom place (there are a few within my limited range) and have a fairly long commute or I could get a nice studio at the upper limit of my budget, but be like a few blocks from the Financial District where the office is (one place even has a private shuttle to that area, lol).

 

That's mr Jacob the salad boy to you

 

honestly if i was single i would find a sweet studio somewhere and save the cash. and yes that'd be me and my three cat friends because crazy cat man can also be a thing

 

Yeah, that is definitely a possibility. The cat thing not so much. So few places in the city accept pets, except for like the luxury complexes. :( And here that would be one of the first things I'd do, get a cat to help keep me company as I adjust.

 

Had my first session with a new counselor yesterday and it went really well. I feel like we're on the same page and she can help me unravel the mess that is my head.

 

I hate school

 

Things aren't going super well. It makes it hard to talk about cause a lot is up in the air and unknown. The next week or two is gonna be stressful and a whirlwind so idk.

 

Sending you desserts and tea

 

Thanx bb. I had an appointment with a new therapist this week and I'm gonna be seeing her weekly so I hope it helps me thru this weird transition period in my life. I know things will be okay but the not knowing what's gonna happen part sucks.

 

I've been talking a lot with my mom lately, trying to express my headspace and why things are so difficult for me.

Idk, I just really want to get away. I'm hoping I can maybe stay with my best friend in Baltimore for a few weeks. She's already offered to fly me out. Even,my mom agrees that it could be a nice change of pace. Just not sure if it's a solution or just a temporary distraction...

(Ps my old cat is still hanging in there. I'm making sure to spend lots of time with her, making sure she's warm and comfy)

 

I'm in pain and crying a lot

 

just when i think life is settling down and im getting my shit together i get a huge curveball thrown at me that hits me in the fucking face lol

 

wooo dysphoria you were gone for a day so that was nice, you really didn't need to ever come back
but you did

you always do

how will i ever be able to find the time and money to get rid of you forever? with up to 5 more surgeries to go, no job and no health insurance...bad day today

 

I am supposed to have a job interview today but people keep calling in sick today so I think I'm likely going to have to cancel it and I'm so upset. I'm gonna call to see if I can reschedule but idk how likely that is cause today is the only day they're doing them and I'm like devestated. It's the one thing that has been giving me hope for weeks. The one time I need people to come through for me and just show up for their job I can't even get that.

 

Is there any chance you can slip out and do the interview and return (I know nothing of how your place functions, so apologies if this is offbase)? Call it like a lunch (or a late lunch, depending when it is) or something?

But the job, if they're professional, should understand if you have to reschedule because you simply cannot leave, if no one else is around.

 

So I haven't been in this thread for about 2 months (crazy busy with work, therapy, getting my relationship back on track, etc.), but I hope everyone is doing okay in here.

 

I'm sad to say that my depression is back on its bullshit

 

I'm sorry to hear that, that sounds rough :( we've got your back here.

 

It's probably from a combination of stress, lack of sleep, fighting off a cold for three weeks, but I've been oscillating between feeling super shitty and feeling nothing at all. I can't believe today is only Monday.

 

my new job has super early hours (gotta be in at 7:30 my first day) and im really really horrible in the morning and cant function without at least 7-8 hours of sleep but i go to bed at like 2 or 3. i have to change my sleep schedule and get used to getting up