Mental Health Thread • Page 179

This is something I really struggle with, so I totally understand. I hope to one day figure out a reason for sticking around for myself, rather than others.

 

Today has been weird and just sucked overall. Cried for the third? fourth? time this week and like all my recent meltdowns, I felt suicidal. And my memory is fucking terrible. I forgot to feed my dog for hours! I'm just tired and upset and so easily irritated

 

I don’t even know how to explain the horrible fight my dad picked with me last night without wasting all of your time, but it left me in a full on shaking, sobbing panic attack, which I haven’t had in a long time. I just do not understand.

 

Made it to the fourth round of interviews only to not be hired again. Had two shifts at my retail job cut this week. Starting to think there must be something really wrong with me since I can’t just get a normal, stable career type job. Even at the entry level. Makes every job application and interview and cover letter seem that much heavier. Which I know ruins any sort of chance I have in presenting myself.

 

I'm struggling today

 

Wow! Four rounds of interviews. Looks like you came pretty close! I know it sucks (going through it myself), but each interview is a chance to improve your answers and practice. That's what I keep getting told, by those much more experienced than myself at it. It may take a while, but clearly you do offer something people want and eventually you'll be able to convince a company your better than any other applicants.

It's what I went through just landing my current position and what I'm experiencing now. I did pretty much stop bothering with cover letters when possible.

You'll get there, even if it's a shitty slog. :) I believe in you!

 

Sorry to hear that. :(

 

I’m over 600 applications since graduating college in ‘12. I’ve got some pretty shitty luck with either landing a horrible job or getting far in the interview process and then not getting the job.

 

Oh, damn - didn't fully understand the situation, sorry. What type of work are you looking for?

 

Desperately want out of retail. I was interviewing for flight attendant and it honestly sounded worse than retail, but I love traveling the the travel perks are unmatched.

I’ve homestly applied for the gamut of jobs. I think part of the problem is I don’t know what I want. And my mental health is really good at convincing me every job in the world sounds horrible.

 

I haven't even gotten any interviews after sending out god knows how many applications, dozens at least, it's so frustrating, I'm in no specific rush to get a new job, just want something more fulfilling and less stressful, and I know that my low self esteem shows up on my cover letter

 

I hate applying for jobs. So demoralizing. Haven't heard back from the job I applied to recently. Wish I had put more thought in the application.

 

What do you do?

 

reception/administrative assistant, looking to move towards more data entry type work so I don't have to deal with people as much

 

That's the dream

Actually I deal with people by phone and that's ok

 

It’s depressing being someone no one wants to be friends with.

 

Today is gonna be fun haha

 

applying for jobs will probably be the reason i die

 

Today is actually turning out to be okay.

 

I'd just like to take time out of my day to say fuck the fact that you need insurance in this country

I've got 30 days of cobra from my last job, but basically when that runs out i'm going to have to pay for whichever plan my shrink takes...which doesn't really work with the other stuff i need to take care of, transition-wise. it's so frustrating, but if my brain chemistry gets fucked up and i become unstable again, i won't be able to have surgery anyway.

 

The woooorst. And my phone tried to autocorrect this to 'simplest' and nope!! The most soul crushing, mentally exhausting, and demoralizing thing ever to me is job applications and interviewing. I wanna be cool and qualified enough that I have confidence it's a lock, but I dont!!

 

I'm going to spend the entire night thinking of things I should have said.

They never come to me until later.

 

can't go a day without some kind of pain lol. cool

 

i can't stand it anymore. also i'm limited in what i can do which doesn't help.

 

i cant believe it, i landed an interview