Mental Health Thread • Page 139

Words of the day: Personal responsibility.

Say what people will about me, I have issues here or there and I own them but I always sacrifice and eat things for others. Still waiting on people to do the same. Tired of being warped to believe I don't need to expect that cus I never got that from everyone, family on down. All relationships to some degree end up 50/50, no one sided relationship lasts; friends, family, love or otherwise.

I wish it was woe is me but even my girl pointed things out today I try and just handle interpersonally and I'm like ugh.... okay.... this clearly cant pass as is anymore...

 

With all of the terrible stuff happening in the world, here's two things: 1) you're all wonderful, beautiful humans. 2) Self-care is of great importance. Please take care of yourselves.

 

I forgot to take my medication yesterday(prozac) Is it ok to miss a day?

 

How'd it go?

 

I'm a big fan of this post

 

I went to see TBS/ETID last night and had a pretty bad experience. It was more directed at my friend but it was upsetting to see her be treated badly. And I was sexually assaulted at a TBS show before so the whole thing was just triggering for me and I've been on the verge of a panic attack all day. I had to leave work early bc I can't even focus. I think I might need to find a doctor and go on something for my anxiety/depression. I just can't deal with this anymore.

 

You absolutely should. I regret not reaching out to my doctor sooner!

 

It'll be a good conversation starter

 

I am so sorry that happened. You should definitely get a hold of your doctor. It is a hard step to take, but you won't regret it.

 

look for ones that are familiar with interpersonal neurobiology, internal family systems (ifs self-therapy), or brainspotting. those tend to be the best in my experience. just straight talk therapists/psychiatrists tend to be more what you describe, which i found very ineffective since good therapy is based communication OF feelings and not about feelings.

you can also learn ifs and do it on your own with this bad boy: self-therapy by jay early. probably the most important inner work i've done

 

I was having such a nice day until someone on Whisper felt the need to harass me for half an hour via private message for no real reason. And now my blood is boiling and will probably remain that way for the rest of the day.

I just have such a huge issue with negative fixations and hyperfocus because of my ADHD to the point where I usually have internal fiery temper tantrums on a daily basis and any day where I don't have one is such a fucking reprieve - but no, I guess I don't get to have one today because people are assholes.

 

I hate people sometimes. Especially keyboard warriors

 

Fuck keyboard warriors. I know they shouldn't get under my skin as much as they do seeing as they're just random wangrods I'll never meet. But holy fuck. I can never keep the thought of "that is an actual person saying these actual thoughts and actually thinking and saying those things" out of my head.

 

Who lives in their parents basement at 45 years old, and probably has no teeth

 

I'm circling the drain. It's been two years and I can't get past losing my fiancee. I'm drinking too much and making dangerous decisions. And I'm using the internet to vent because those in my life don't understand why I can't move on... He died. I'm sorry that I'm still not "over it". I don't think I ever will be. They don’t tell you in movies, and you don’t read about it in books. But when you lose someone you're in love with, you die as well. Everything changes. They don’t tell you how you to deal with everything in your apartment reminding you of him, when his toothbrush is still in the holder waiting for it’s next use. Or his favorite coffee cup that we got together on our road trip to Maine, waiting to have it’s next coffee.Or the unfolded clothes of his in the dryer. Everywhere I was surrounded by his things. These things of his that would never be touched by him again. Just left in standstill. Now I am one of those things as well. I am a memory of something that was alive once. So I moved far away to get away from all the memories. But I've failed.

 

I feel like I'm constantly on the edge of breaking down lately.

 

Does anyone have any advice on finding a counselor?

 

Your doctor should have a list of people they'd recommend.

 

I don't have a doctor anymore, my last doctor is no longer in the area

 

does the county you live in have a medical office/something like that? if they do, they likely could give recommendations

 

I have literally no idea how to deal with my SO mental illness anymore and it puts me at risk and makes me miserable. I feel completely trapped.

This has been a post.
sorry for venting.

 

I'm feeling really meh. Waiting on a job offer, doing a phone interview today, waiting on another.

I just want this to be over.

I want to be happy again. >.>

 

man it's weird and threatening as fuck to recognize when i'm being paranoid and clingy about two of my good friends hooking up and feeling like this is the cue they've been waiting for not to have to worry about maintaining our friendship anymore because they never wanted to, but like every time they hang out now that's immediately where my mind goes. which is like super unfair and also part of why it's so damn intimidating, because i am constantly presented with a perceived threat i think i know is not real, but no way to express that to them without being like really selfish and invasive to their presumably happy sex life

 

obsessive thoughts are fun, my latest is that everyone I know and love can die at any moment and there's nothing I can do to predict or control it

 

Such a terrifying thought that I have a lot. The worst is nights that I don't have my son. I have those thoughts a lot when he's not here because losing him is my worst nightmare