Mental Health Thread • Page 133

I'm sorry, I know how hard reoccurring obsessive thoughts can be even if the subject matter is different, I believe in you

 

weird how depression has some serious depths to plunge and then just very shallow nothingness. i hate it

 

I think I've mentioned on here how I've been feeling very empty and hollow.

I dunno.... I just watched The Big Sick and there's this scene where the two say they're "overwhelmed" by each other which sounds great cause I just feel the opposite, very.... underwhelmed. Not even whelmed. Yes this this is in part a Young Justice joke.

 

Anyone have any experience with people you know, but just feel more like acquaintances with constantly bugging you to hang out with them and stuff? It's super weird, because I often feel like people will not give me space to live my life which leaves me unable to accomplish anything, and at the end of the day, I don't really understand why I'm giving my time to these people at all. It leaves me feeling sad, unenergized, and like I have wasted a lot of my time

 

you can be simultaneously overwhelmed and an empty shell of a person trust me I know from experience

 

yes, and I understand that feeling, but keep in mind it's most likely because they enjoy your company and want to get to know you better and perhaps build a friendship. just be upfront about the amount of energy/effort you're able to give them, and keep your own need for space in mind when agreeing to make plans

 

Worried about my brother. He works out of state now and he just called me crying that he's lonely and wants to come home. He was just home last weekend for 4 days but he misses this girl he used to date even though they broke up over a year ago. I feel so helpless being this far away and even if he was here I wouldn't know how to help.

 

how do you deal with the (mutually agreed upon) death of a seven year old friendship just wondering i wanna fling myself into a void

also like i'm nineteen, this person has been in my life since i was twelve, i don't even have words for this feeling but they don't care anymore and we don't have anything in common anymore so probably should suck it up and get over it

 

I get that, but when I have politely declined multiple times just based on not really knowing people that well, I don't think it's on me

Edit: sorry this sounds really defensive, it's weird when I'm the only one with context. Just had to vent a little

 

I am never allowed to be upset or angry. If I'm not in just the most perfect mood ever I get yelled at and told so and so has it worse so I need to suck it up. So tired of having to pretend to be happy all the time when I'm clearly not. It's exhausting.

 

Not who I'd expect this extremely relatable content from

 

Been feeling fundamentally broken as a human being lately. And damn does it hurt

 

Feeling good this morning. Hoping y'all are too.

 

recent weeks ive found myself going back to things I thought I left behind and things I missed like... big parts of who I am/was etc and really just starting to sort through the fronts I kept up to survive the years of toxicity both in my head in my regular life and the truth about me, my feelings, my personality etc and in general just becoming more and more comfortable in my own skin, even with the things I'm sure would lead to people joking or not really understand - and not caring cus I at least know that's who I truly am. its really a trippy experience for me. I never did comfort well for long. I like it though.

 

Really rough night. Started watching some stand up comedy but the topics hit way too close to home... Lots of stuff that I've tried to push down is coming up and I'm all alone so I'm having a hard time knowing what to do. god dammit shit

Edit: and like hearing the audience laugh along is so much harder -- I know people react different but I feel like I'm shutting down and I have no idea what to do

 

rn I'm in a phase where I beat myself up about every flaw in my appearance until I hate myself and I'm watching this show about ppl with rare medical diseases aka actual problems and now I feel even worse because my issues are stupid and insignificant but I still fixate on them. And then I'm like great I'm also super self centered because I take people's problems and make them about me. Awesome.

 

I do this too, like I'll be like c'mon being bullied isn't that traumatic in comparison to what other people go through why did it incapacitate you and they have better attitudes and now I have multiple reasons to hate myself

 

Its silly because when I hear people undermine other people's problems by saying someone else has it worse, I get all indignant. But then I don't practice what I preach and say it about myself.

 

Same

 

Getting that letter that my doc was leaving on Christmas Eve was such a brutal, crushing event for me.

Had a med check with new doc, Dr. S, yesterday and told him I was having trouble sleeping again. We've come to the conclusion that the new medicines don't work for me as well as the old ones so he put me on some old medicine call doxepin hcl and last night is that first night in years that I slept and woke up feeling good and not like shit. I think Dr. D leaving really was a blessing in disguise. He makes me feel like I have a say so in my treatment. He is like just tell me all the way through how you feel, your worries, fears whatever and I'll raise a finger if I want to ask you a question. He asks then jots it down. Really cool.

 

I've been getting the weirdest nightmares recently. What bothers me is that I come to the realization that it's a dream, and rather than wake up, I go "this is a dream, I'm in control here, let's see where this goes," as if things could get better. Like, I dreamt I just rear ended someone, realized I was dreaming, and sped off! Apparently in my dreams I'm the kind of person who hit and runs. I've dreamt up multiple similar scenarios of like why did I take it this far, when I'm just too sleepy to wake up from it, then afterward I'm just like, hey me, am I okay?

 

I feel like I've been in a depressive episode for ages, but I haven't been able to keep track of time so I don't know how long it's been. I just know that I am so tired of it. I want to be productive, I really do. I have 3 different blog posts sitting on wordpress with a single sentence and that's it. I miss being motivated. Over sleeping all the time is also a huge pain, I panic about waking up late during the week and feel guilty for sleeping in too late on the weekends. I'm trying to pick myself up and use every single coping mechanism I learned in therapy, but it's so hard when I'm so exhausted. Ugh

 

Been getting really weird feelings in public. Palms get sweaty, I start to shake, I feel like my legs are gonna collapse, and I overall just feel like my body is shutting down and I legit feel scared in the moment and have no idea why. Has become frequent enough for me to notice. I take deep breaths and tell myself it’ll pass and it does but idk where this came from. People notice me shaking too, it’s embarrassing. Any tips or advice ? Wtf is this. Low key starting to think I’m like an agoraphobic or something

 

Oversleeping has legit ruined multiple facets of my life. It’s almost comical cuz it should be such a non issue but my issues with sleep are so pervasive it’s kind of absurd. I’ve never functioned on a normal sleep schedule and even when I’ve been forced into one it just makes me so fucking miserable cuz I’ll be constantly tired for the rest of the day and cant operate at 100%. All my physics finals were at 8am and i Would literally just stay up all night, take the final, then crash. Taking a physics final completely exhausted is hell since they basically revolve around “being clever”. Not easy to do with no sleep

 

This is just me being salty but if there was ever a final that shouldn’t be at 8am it’s physics or math. Advanced symbolic reasoning does not belong in the morning ffs. Memory recall is best in the morning, give the history majors that time slot damn...