Mental Health Thread • Page 132

It does, thanks so much ! I'll follow these advices.

 

So I was drinking a lil and just randomly posted this on Facebook in my 'buzzed-ness'... figured people here would appreciate... just gonna copy/paste

I rarely bleed or speak from the soul here but I wanted to say:
Anyone dealing with depression of any level, for any reason. FIGHT YALL, its cliché as shit, and rarely easy but the only option. Sometimes it really is just a matter of taking that risk, severing those ties, putting yourself out there, and even if you fail, the attempt in and of itself is empowering with perspective.
Of course failed attempts hurt; can even feel like setbacks but the key is to always be moving ...forward - or at least doing all you can to keep doing so.
Point is the trying is key to everything, you have to try, you have to fight, you have to try something other than being painfully complacent in your hurt and belief there isn't something better for you.
THAT IS A LIE YOURE TELLING YOURSELF, or those feelings are at least. Fight as youre looking to find that light, cus in turn with that light comes your shine.
Never give in, even to yourself.

 

four months clean hot damn

 

A coworker of mine got into an argument with his GF and shot himself over the weekend. I work at a place where a critical incident can occur at any time but not like this. He was just a 20 year old kid. I'm having a lot of trouble believing it actually happened and that he's gone. I've known him for years and I never picked up that he had those kind of tendencies and now I feel guilty as hell for not spotting any signs or talking to him more to see how he was doing. Going forward , i want to make sure this doesn't happen to anyone else I know to the best of my abilities. For anyone whose been through something like this or has felt this way, what helps? How can this be prevented? How can someone help you when you have suicidal thoughts? And what , if anything, helps the family move on? His father also works with us.

 

I'm talking to fucking walls, not people with hearts or empathy.

 

I just realized why I might be so exhausted this month. With all the family outings, I haven't had two consecutive days to myself since the month started. I like that I've gotten to see my cousins so much, and I like that I've been more social with the other interns around the office, but holy crap. Can't an introvert get a break to fully recharge? Is this what it'll be like when I'm actually working five days a week and, ideally(?), hanging out on weekends? Why did I decide to go to Anime Expo where I'll be surrounded by a shit ton of people??? I just want to STAY IN.

 

my doc upped my adderall rx yesterday and i could absolutely feel a difference this morning, and later CVS managed to correctly fill my testosterone rx without any problems

what a day, what a day

 

Don't have any advice for you, but just wanted to say sorry you're going through that.

 

I missed this post originally. Sometimes suicidal people are really, reeeeally good at hiding that fact. In my case? I don't think it was a secret. Best suggestions I can give based on my experience? Talk to that person, but if/when they start talking back, shut up and listen. When my brain is telling me everything is bad and not existing would be the best thing for me, I don't want to hear stuff like "snap out of it" "just try to be happier" "other people have it worse" - better to say "I hear you" "I care about you" "would you like to get coffee (now, tomorrow, specific exact time)" and if I refuse, keep asking me to do stuff as the days pass. I'd probably like to do the stuff, but my depression might not let me. Basically: engagement (not platitudes), an open ear, and patience.

And for what it's worth, I do not and will not own a gun, because it'd be putting myself in a dangerous situation. I know me. I know my dumb brain. I know what it could tell me to do with a gun on a really bad day.


As for his family...my cousin killed himself in 2003, and it has shaped my entire life path to this point. I am very serious. I do not want to end up like him. I have seen countless therapists and tried several different meds to properly deal with my own mental health issues. What I'm trying to say here is that they will NEVER fully get over this loss. There will be a hole there forever. But you don't have to avoid his dad, you don't have to avoid talking to him or about his son - this might sound odd but Sheryl Sandberg (Facebook COO) said something on NPR that really stuck with me: people were avoiding her and clearly worried about upsetting her, but thing is, nothing anyone said to her could remind her that her husband had died...because she wasn't forgetting it in the first place, she was living it all the time. Actually I suggest looking up that interview (I'll see if I can find it), because she gave some really good advice.
EDIT: this isn't the exact interview I was looking for, but it has most of what I was talking about in it:

I hope you are having a better day today, and my inbox is open indefinitely. Maybe seems like I'm more of a wall when I'm posting in genpol, but I swear there's a decent heart beating in this chest, that truly cares about you and the daily stress you live with.

That goes for all of y'all reading this.

This sounds like my nightmare. I am so sorry. I try to carve out at least an hour or two of JUST ME time every weekday when I get home from work. Doesn't matter what it is, as long as I'm not interacting with anyone in person. I luck out a bit in that my girlfriend works weekends a lot so I get the apartment to myself, also.

 

So after finally learning to deal (do we ever fully learn? Haha) with all your anxiety and depression did you ever want to go on like "an apology tour" so to speak? I want to reach out to some old friends/girlfriends and tell them a lot of actions were caused by things I didn't even know were wrong with me, like anxiety and depression, but I'm not sure if it's worth it or not.

 

Finally went to the doctor (after cancelling appointments multiple times) for the first time in five years. Got some blood drawn and have another appointment in two weeks. He also prescribed Xanax that I can use until I get in to a legit psychiatrist because he believes I'm self-medicating too much (I agree heavily). Let's see how this goes...

 

Been neglecting this thread. Hey y'all. Hope everyone is doing really great. I'm always around to talk so just PM me no matter what the reason or time. Lots of ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️.

 

I had that idea multiples times but it's hard to actually follow it. One close friend did that publicly through a Facebook post and he got a lot of support, more than he and I expected. Seems quite risky to do it that way tho.

 

I've recently done this in the last 6 months and am glad I did! It sucks to think of situations and how you could've possibly made someone feel even if you didn't really realize you were doing it at the time

 

Lately I've been meeting up with old friends and whenever we go to say bye I have a moment of panic where idk if they're gonna hug me or not. I get so anxious and weird about it. Not even totally the prospect of the hug, but just dreading not knowing if they're gonna go in for the hug. My brain is like "omg omg what are they gonna do"

 

It brings me weird (?) a question : is it common in the US to hug when you meet up with friends, whether you've known them for a long time or not ? Movies and TV shows led me to believe that over the years.

 

For the most part yes. In SoCal lots of people do the hand slide into fist bump or the arm wrestle pat on on the back (don’t know what else to call it lol).

 

My friends and I don't usually hug when we meet up. Maybe if I haven't seen someone in a month or so, but normally it doesn't happen

 

I hug friends I haven't seen in a long while. Also depends on the friend, since some of my friends I've known for almost 15 years and never seen them hug anyone, so I don't make the attempt there. But I've become kind of a hugger in the last few years.

 

I love to hug. I always need to ask first though, and I only regularly see two friends so I hug them every time I see them lol

 

I hug my best friends every chance I get, which isn't much these days

 

every day is a constant, insanely trying struggle to not think about using again. every day I fail. I think about it constantly, I fantasize about it constantly, I get flashbacks constantly. And some of the people around me very clearly do not have my best interests at heart all the time and make things a million times harder than they should be. Lately I find myself trapped in extremely triggering situations with nothing to do about it. If this keeps up...I fear the worst. I'm only so strong, I can only fight these thoughtsfor so long. I'm doing everything else right, I'm doing all I can, but they just won't go away. Most days I wake up with it on my mind, most days I go to bed with it on my mind. I just want it to end.

 

just know that everyone in here has your best interests in mind. please stay away from anyone who doesn't