Mental Health Thread • Page 121

Going to try to return to work today. I have so much anxiety about going back I don't want people to ask why I was gone. One of my co workers already knows and my boss knows but idk if they've said anything to others. I hope work turns out okay

 

Idk if I can do it. I had to hold back tears driving to work. I don't know if I can be around people this soon. I'm not focused

 

I know this sounds really simple and corny, but its going to be okay; it is never for the rest of your life. Very few things have helped me cope with dysthymia, but reminding myself that time will eventually wash over the worst of feelings keeps me from diving deeper into despair.

 

Not to sound like a jerk, but this is the worst reason to not go. I didn't want to go either because I was afraid of what I'd found out. I'm glad I did because it wasn't too late to change my lifestyle. It's better to know and have a chance to improve your health rather than not knowing at all.

 

5 months later and my thesis group is still giving me anxiety attacks... And this was a positive conversation! Holy shit I really need to see a doctor

 

We have to have a physical every year for work. I haven't been to the dentist in prob10 yrs.

 

I need to go to the dentist. When I was younger I wasn't properly taught dental hygiene. I knew to brush 2x a day but I wasn't really taught how to brush properly so I had to deal with issues from that and it soured my perception. Last time my experience sorta confirmed my insecurities so I'm nervous to see another dentist. I'm in a cycle of being insecure about my teeth so I neglect to go, but I'm insecure about my teeth because I neglect it. My goal is to make an appt this summer.


I do see the Women's Clinic and my eye doctor yearly tho. So glad my insurance covers yearly exams at the Women's Clinic cause if I had to pay for that experience I would never go

 

Well I haven't posted the details of what I'm going thru right now so... My depression won't be for the rest of my life but the nightmare will. It's affected me more than I thought.

 

this should probably be posted more often, but in light of Chris Cornell's passing
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1‑800‑273‑TALK (8255)

please reach out if you are feeling trapped in your life

 

i'm not ok at all

 

What's going on

 

great gif

i can't go a day without thinking about politics, and i've ended up being really snappy and rude about it. i feel super isolated and anxious lol. i don't know how to take a break from it.

 

That is such a suffocating and lonely feeling, and it's something I haven't figured out for myself yet either so I can't even spread words of wisdom. Srsly I woke up at like 2am the other day stressing about it. Just know that you def have support and ppl who u and will always lend an ear when it's too much to handle on ur own! I haven't been in the politics threads much lately for self care reasons but you always have really insightful things to say that introduce a different perspective and I always respect what ur putting out there!

 

I ended up doing a lot better than I originally thought today. I finally got some food & water in me after 3 days. It definitely made me feel quite a bit better physically. Emotionally I'm still very distraught, but that's to be expected. I also feel like I might be able to get an adequate amount of sleep tonight.

 

It's unfortunate how much time I have to spend actively ignoring social media/the news throughout my days just so I can make it through them without massive frustration and stress. I wish I had something nice and simple and witty to say that would make it feel okay, but all I can say is that we're all right there with you. It's a struggle, but we're all in step.

 

Honestly, I often wonder how you all keep up with the politics thread. It's super important and I commend you for for being so active, but it's okay to be selfish and take the backseat every once in a while. You have one life. Wasting it away while obsessing about politics is damaging and unfair to yourself. I'm only commenting on this because I left chorus from December through March because I literally didn't have the self control to stay out of that thread and it turned me into an anxious and irritable mess. What's happening to other people around the word is important, but YOU are also important. Take care of yourself. I hope you feel better.

 

Good morning everyone!

 

I think I might finally see a doctor about depression & anxiety

Not sure what I'll get out if it, but I've been feeling it lately

 

Best decision I've ever made bud.

 

I think you know my situation so all I can say is go for it. But truthfully, and I mean this in the most helpful way possible, lose the "not sure what I'll get out of it" attitude. It'll only help. I was that way for just about all my life and didn't want help. As soon as I got over that, admitted defeat (for lack of better words) I went in as open minded as I can and its help tremendously. Like more that I could have ever imagined.

 

I mean that I don't really know what to expect. I don't know if I'll meds I can't afford, or if they'll even work. I'm sure I can't afford therapy. I never went to the doctor growing up if I was sick, let alone a psychologist or whatever, so I'm a little skeptical.

I'm also not sure how to find a doctor, like should I see a psychologist or psychiatrist or what? And how do I choose one?

 

from someone who's attempted suicide and spent time a psychotic hell dimension similar to what you see in homeless people muttering to themselves on the street, different therapeutic modalities saved my life. not only that, they let me enter a state of consciousness of joy and well being i didn't know existed.

a lot of mental illness is caused by trauma and repressed emotions that result in psychological wounds. this causes "neurobiological disintegration" and different "coping styles" to deal with the underlying pain.

check out:

(read these three first)
focusing by eugene gendlin or the power of focusing by ann weiser cornell
ifs self therapy by jay early
the revolutionary trauma release process by david berceli

mindsight by dan siegal
the healing code by alex loyd
homecoming by john bradshaw

all are fully practical, and what's great about these modalities is that you can do a lot of the healing work by yourself if you can't afford therapy. but seeing a therapist will help a lot -- but one that attuned, compassionate and empathetic as opposed to cold, aloof and judgmental. psychiatrists tend to be the latter so i'd avoid them.

they'll also tend to prescribe medication as the final solution. to be clear i'm not condemning medication -- it can be useful and even life saving in certain emergency situations, but it's ultimately just another way to cope with your emotional pain instead of facing it.

the best psychologists in my experience ones who are familiar with "interpersonal neurobiology" that dan siegal talks about. those familiar with "brainspotting" are great too. if you decide to go meet with a bunch and see who you vibe with.

like i said you can make crazy progress on your own with the books i mentioned but for some guys in person therapy is essential to develop interpersonal integration + healthy masculinity (i'm assuming you're a guy and if you are i'd recommend getting a male therapist).

let me know if you have any questions (or anyone reading this really). much love and i know you can overcome this.

ps if you're too down low to get the motivation to read here's a good video that explains the essence of healing -- sitting down with yourself and diving into your repressed emotions, feeling them fully, then letting them go:

or check out this blog post:

How To Fully Release Difficult Emotions That Hold You Back

 

Thank you for all this. It does kind of lend to the feeling I have that I just need to live with the fact that a lot of the time I don't have the motivation or discipline to do simple things like go to sleep on time, or clean house, or do my job well. Haha

 

I feel you, I'm not sure how I get anything done, but you can figure out why you procrastinate and it helps somewhat

 

You got this man, you deserve to feel better