Mental Health Thread • Page 80

Tonight one of my roommates was complaining that so many people on her facebook had statuses talking some shit about "how we all need to be more positive" and "I miss when facebook was mostly photos of cats" and "can't we all just talk about happy things instead" as if ignoring stuff will make it better. I absolutely understand giving yourself breaks but to just decide you're not going to pay attention at all is not something I'll ever be able to relate to.

 

i understand younger people like under 18 feeling like that but if youre an adult this shit affects you, it affects the people around you, you should be tuned in

 

It still doesn't feel real and I'm worry I'm too detached, maybe because irony maybe because facing things is hard and I try to avoid hard things

 

I think I'm searching for that line between being informed and being too depressed. I guess it never bothered me as much before cause I felt like I had a network of ppl to vent and connect with irl who were fighting for things, but now I don't. Now I'm caught in like a vortex of apathetic people who stress complacency over doing anything, and it's hard to be around. I also need to stop whining about my location tho cause I blame it for everything lmao

 

Sending love to all of you I'm on the other side of the world and it's still tough reading everything

 

Didn't get to yesterday cus of the craziness of the day, but just wanted to say thanks for the words. I was driving with a friend one time and a GPS took us (in his truck) through a bike trail! I know how GPS' can screw ya over sometimes haha.
I too have had terrible first & second days before haha (had heat stroke/got sick all over a public place at my first job - a waterpark). I been keeping in touch and they keep seeming to be understanding and telling me "Just call me when everything is sorted" SO that's a good sign. My girl had a similar issue with her new job this week - she caught the "Knock you on your ass" Flu bug when she was supposed to start Monday.
Both jobs seem very understanding, tryna let my nerves appreciate that fact lol.

 

l hate that whenever I get anxious my entire face goes bright red. Every single time. And I am the palest person so it is extremely noticeable. Then everyone asks why I'm "blushing" and then I get redder because it makes me more anxious and self conscious and ugh. So I'm basically walking around everywhere with a bright red face because I'm a ball of anxiety at all times. Make it stop!!

 

Reminds me of "WHY ARE YOU SO QUIET? Is something wrong??"

 

Does anyone really believe in the benefits of hallucinogens for anxiety and depression?
Maybe have experience and wanted to know what others thought.

 

Doesn't work for me. It made me unbelievably anxious. I don't have that much experience with it though but everyone's makeup is complex and I tend to be the odd ball out when it comes to the majority of how stuff affects people.

 

When I used to trip every few months not really because I was doing it too often. However around 2012 I adopted a once, twice a year tops tripping policy and every trip since then has yielded excellent results of self reflection and the like. And just plain much needed fun and relaxation. I fully believe in hallucinogens when used sparingly and for the specific purpose of self help

 

Well all is well in my lil work world bubble. Got my starter fixed thursday afternoon, friday I tapped out a few lil issues that could become bigger with my buddy who fixed the starter. Called the job today and the guy said come in Monday at 9 to start your training. Nerves alleviated lol.

 

In light of recent world events, does anyone feel bad/guilty about enjoying like anything at all? It's bad and I need to stop but it's so hard

 

@atlas definitely been feeling that

 

I always feel guilty about my privilege, knowing that I probably won't be directly affected, I also know I'm no help to anyone if I feel shitty all the time so that helps justify doing something I enjoy

 

"Cause lately I've had to come to grips with scope and figure.
How my problems stack up in a world two steps from ruin,
or maybe it's rapture.
Well either way I realize that my shit's about as small as it could be,
but that makes me feel worse for even feeling this bad in the first place."

Kevin Devine summed it up best for me. I feel guilty about it a lot, especially as a straight white male where a lot of what is going on doesn't directly impact me, though it does impact a lot of my friends. I spend a lot of nights feeling like I'm not doing enough. My girlfriend is going to protest at the Detroit airport tomorrow and I feel like shit and that I don't care because I'm prioritizing going to work instead, like I'm valuing money over making my voice heard.

 

I'm with you there. It would be easy for people like us to turn our heads and say "hey, it's not affecting me personally, so fuck it." and ignore everything thats happening in the world and focus on ourselves. It's up to us to be socially aware and hopefully use our privilege to help others in need. That's the way I look at it.

 

Gonna be a long post.

Have a friend with bipolar disorder who keeps getting in trouble and we don't know what to do about it. He first arrived in our class about a year ago, we had a bit of time to get to know him, then he started making suicidal statements. That's when we knew he had mental health issues. One day he told someone he wanted to attempt suicide, that day passed and we never heard from him again until last month. He went back to us, tried to go out with us as often as he could. That way, we learned he had been checked into a psychiatric hospital for a few months after his suicidal episode.

So, for the last few weeks, It seemed like he had gotten better but then everytime we went out together, be it in a bar or anything, he'd seem... idk somewhere else ? Like, he'd start talking with people he didn't know and just ignore us for the rest of the night. Then he'd say to one of our friend, who is not only a girl (sorry to say it like that but it seems important in this case as it isn't the first time he's done that) and especially someone who didn't know him before, that we weren't happy to be with him and stuff like that. Obviously, said friend got progressively annoyed and creeped out and just wanted him to leave her out of his problems.

The thing is, it is getting worse really quickly. Yesterday, another girl friend had a birthday party, which I couldn't get to, and he basically ruined it. He brought up a taser and a knife, he panicked and got angry at everyone, and nearly tased someone. Thankfully, nobody got hurt. A few people at the party tried to calm him down and it worked, but needless to say it was pretty scary.

We feel hopeless, we love him but at the same time he's becoming more and more dangerous to us and to him.

 

Since being diagnosed, I honestly think that the people around me sometimes have it worse than I do. It seems out of his control and Bipolar makes you erratic. Do you know any of his family members well enough to bring up your concerns? I can only speak for myself but part of my acting out was a scream for someone to help me. I couldn't verbalize or defend my actions. I hit rock bottom and sadly that's what has to happen to get through to some people, like me. Most people with mental illness are more likely to hurt themselves and no one else but he is probably one of the cases where he can be harmful ESPECIALLY if he is bring "weapons" into the mix. I'm sorry you're going through this. Mental illness is a bitch to figure out.

 

Thanks so much for your response. I don't know anyone from his family. If I remember well he was / still is (?) living with his sister at the moment. I got in touch with her best friend (had to search her on facebook) back when he wanted to attempt suicide, and she did everything she could to help him, like contact his sister and his parents. I said to my friends that I wanted to contact her again but they weren't into that idea... Moreover, she apparently distanced herself from him in the past year.

He and I are the only ones among our group of University friends to suffer from mental health issues, so idk, I just want to trust my instincts. It is getting really serious, and I dont't want to stay apathetic about it you know ? Another friend wanted to call the police but that seems... extreme maybe ? Especially as he stopped the University after his suicidal episode, and is now trying to become an officer. It could be detrimental to his future career, but then he really needs help asap... I'm trying my best not to let his problems become too much for me to handle, as I have my personal stuff (depression, anxiety and social phobia) to get through but I'm determined to do what I can for him. It's such a complicated situation.

 

He's lucky to have you. Good luck. ❤

 

You are an amazing person and the fact that you're doing so much to try and help and support him says a lot about you as a person

 

Feeling more and more depressed lately. Have this overwhelming feeling of anxiety or something today. It like woke me up an hour early this morning.

 

Drowning is the only way I can describe how I've felt these past couple weeks.

 

So first day of being involved with my new job today, no real work just some training but I'm basically slated to be one of 3 managers of the store. First two weeks might drag since I got mornings but my regular shift is the exact one I wanted.
After the stress of the car shit the other day and just everything going on with life and trying to get that back on course I'm glad today went as smooth as it did. Takes a bit of strain off my nerves lol.
Rest of the day will be dedicated to spending time with my girl, getting high, and music. So overall not a bad Monday lol.