Mental Health Thread • Page 50

Wtf? ..that's super innappropriate.

 

I found my mental health improved greatly after giving up drinking, it's like night and day for me.

 

I'm really happy for you guys that you've been able to reach a point like that! Obviously, as lish has said, it doesn't take away that feeling (and I'd never say otherwise), but being able to stop and say "well this f*cking sucks, but it is what it is, and I'll get through it" is something my therapist and I have been working really hard on.

Still not even close to there yet, but that's my main goal at this point- acceptance. And maybe that's different from your feelings and experiences with it? Apologies if I misinterpreted anything there, and I hope that, ultimately, it makes those moments of depression shorter-lasting.

 

Makes me wonder where she learned she can say things like that? I call it "no home training" lol I'm healthy so whatevs but she's still a jerk.

 

I mean..a teacher nonetheless..

 

I really don't know what the goal was in my experience. I think I've just reached a point of apathy and I really cannot tell how I feel about it at all. Maybe this is just growing up? Hahaha I'm really not sure. I'm at the point where I deal with things and my hopes and dreams aren't really important anymore and I know I'm not well liked a lot of the time and the world is moving without me and I'm just...there, but getting by.

 

You could of retorted and said that she'd aged quite a bit but that's just swooping down to her level.

 

Yeah, mine is fairly centered on apathy and knowing that there's no way I'm going to get what I want any time soon, so I have to just deal with it.

 

That is essentially what I did for probably twelve years. I know its different for everyone, but what ended up happening to me was I became so accustomed to pushing back emotions--being okay or indifferent towards with feeling depressed--I kind of forgot what it was like to feel anything else. I've tried to push out my emotions through creating music, but even that became a vague or clouded expression (and also noticeable in my composition). It is a livable path to go down for a short amount of time; the longer you stay on it, the harder it is to get out of it.

 

This is very good to know and I appreciate you sharing your experience with it. I feel okay right now...but you're right, that's not a path I want to go down haha

 

This is gonna sound entirely contradictory to my earlier statements but I've honestly never smiled more than I have this week so far

 

I'm always happy when a celeb is transparent enough to explain dealing with mental illness. They're who the kids look up to. I hope Cudi does find peace.

 

I really need to make friends here, and I now have the chance to hang out with new people maybe, and oh my god I'd rather not. Staying at home on the couch sounds much better than actually socializing with other humans.

 

Staying home is the best!

 

I don't have an overwhelming desire to have lots of friends and be social, but I'd like a nice medium. I think I've finally just given in and realized that coworkers are easiest to befriend. I'm very weird about my worlds colliding and i like to keep a hard line between coworkers, friends, family, etc but it's just sorta the reality of being an adult I guess and there not being a built in place to make friends. I still only have one bff that I feel totally comfortable around all the time. I think people think I'm good friends with them, but I don't feel nearly as close to them as they do to me.


Well this novel went unexpected places.

 

I don't find the desire to have a ton of friends, but I would like more people I could just like text occasionally or when the loneliness does hit me, which it does from time to time. I always come home tired of being around people after work.

 

Always enjoyed his A Kid Named Cudi mixtape, but I never kept up with him after that. I hope he gets the help he needs, wants and truly deserves. Everyone should feel loved and fulfilled and happy.

I've always loved this track:

 

GREAT track.

 

Feel bad for giving Cudi so much shit in recent years

 

I'm really glad to be home. I spent the trip home holding back tears and finally let it out when I got home. I'm just overwhelmed, I guess. Sad and tired. Worried that I'm having frequent hot flashes when I'm not even feeling anxious (I'm only 20 so obviously not menopause lol) and I probably need to see a doctor but too scared to do that too!! Ugh, so many emotions and I can't control them lately either

 

God..these lyrics are like coming straight from my brain.

 

Met a great girl a few months ago, had a couple of really good dates, and started to feel properly happy again.
Now I've got the feeling it's all fallen apart, and I'm worried that I'm going to start spiraling downwards again.

Although on the plus side, the girl was a solid 10/10, had a masters degree, and I think the fact that she liked me has done wonders for my confidence. I just have to try and hold onto the self worth I've been building over the last few months.

 

Hahahaha this is almost spot on me

It begins with the thought of "Well she doesn't like me" and when I find out from her that she likes me I think "Well she'll change her mind"

 

I read that Cudi post last night and, though I don't listen to his stuff, I have massive respect for anyone who is open and honest about their struggles. Especially artists with impressionable fan bases. Hugely impactful. I hope he feels more like himself soon.