Mental Health Thread • Page 49

Last night I had a girl that I'm like ~casual~ friends with tell me that I don't believe in myself enough. It kinda came out of nowhere though we were pretty fucked up at the time but she was like "man you really don't believe in yourself, but you're way smarter than you think and like if anyone should believe in themselves it's you"
It really frickin made my night, I don't know why compliments from people I'm not super close with sometimes feel more sincere

 

I'm in a really bad place again.

 

I feel that way too. I think it's like you know your friends love you and whatnot but it feels better for a stranger to notice those qualities in you.

 

Had a stressful few weeks and my anxiety has been off the charts (not helped by last night finding out ants were starting to invade my apartment, but I think I got that fixed super quick though and my longest known friend moving across the country just a few days ago). As I began prepping for the work week and going to bed, it hit that I'm feeling lonely. I'm largely on my own and barely notice, but sometimes when I'm overwhelmed I'm suddenly not OK with it. Or maybe I'm just super tired.

 

I recently (fall semester) moved out of my parents house into an apartment, and even though I have roommates I feel the most lonely I've ever been.

 

I felt super stressed about my job situation and other things going on in my life so when my GF offered to pick me up and take me down here to Springfield for a couple days, I jumped at it. It's been a big help, I feel much better being down here away from the STL area and it's problems. That and it's helped me stay clean which is also nice.

 

I'm having anxiety over a text I sent so that's cool. Who needs sleep?

 

I don't know if I've never felt more alone or more unable to share my happiness with anyone else. Not a great day to be in my head.

 

I'm really depressed, and annoyed with myself. Why do I always put so much time and effort into things that don't work? Oh well, who cares right? ;(

 

I've already missed four days of my elective class. I'm kind of terrified of going back even though the teacher doesn't even know who I am and probably hasn't even noticed I'm gone. I just want to stay home again but idk. I should be responsible but I'm too much in my head and struggling so hard to get up and go. I wish my anxiety would give me a break for just one week so I can be a good student.

 

Damn, I'm sorry, I can definitely sympathize and it sucks :/. I get anxiety with virtually every text and email I send and a lot of the times I just can't stop obsessing over it >_>.

Definitely sucks, and makes me take forever to formulate a message haha.

 

Struggled with chronic depression (dysthymia) for at least 20 years. I was able to hold my own until I reached rock bottom in 2011-2012 and tried to kill myself. Thought I overcame it for the most part, but been feeling that "rock bottom" vibe creeping up on me again for the past few months. Now I've been in psychotherapy the past four weeks, and although it has given me some hope, I'm realizing that I have way more shit to unpack than I originally thought.

I can't emphasize enough how important it is to seek professional help. Honestly, I feel like everyone should get mental health check-ups as often as they do with physical health.

 

I've gained weight from meds and I ran into my 3rd grade teacher earlier. We were talking and she said, "You've gained a good bit of weight, huh?" I was shocked and still am. I'm very insecure with my body.

 

God that's the worst

 

What a super shitty thing to tell someone.

 

What a douche.

Of course you gained weight. You're not fucking 9 years old anymore.

 

I guess it's related to all of my recent (past year) stress and anxiety shit, but my room has become an absolute mess (ie. it looks like that of a hoarder). Cleaned off my desk (aka put everything on it in the drawers) and sitting at my desk doing HW for the first time in forever. I guess it's a step in the right direction.


I justify the mess in my room because it's not really a gross mess (aside from closed, empty bottles of various drinks) and mroeso a disorganized/clutterred mess.

 

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I feel like I've reached a strange zen with my depression

Like I'll be depressed and think "Yes, this is okay that this feeling is happening"

 

I can be the same way, like hey I might need that piece of paper from years ago, I wish everything can be online, have no clue what to do with my payslips and how long to keep them and how to make sure my identity isn't stolen

 

Dude. I've hit that recently too. It's so weird. Doesn't make working through that feeling any easier, but existing in general seems to be.

 

Yeah it's just like your brain goes "Yeah but that's life, I'll be okay" even though it still feels like garbage

 

For real. Honestly, I'm starting to handle that like I handle the rest of my medical issues. "Oh, I have to get my gallbladder out? Okay. That's life. whatever." "Oh, I need to go to the hospital once a week for four weeks in a row to have iron pushed into my system? Fuck, that sucks. Let's do it." "Oh, I want to do nothing and kind of want to curl up in a ball all day today? Welp. That sucks too. Suck it up."

 

Exactly hahaha. It's all just kinda become a part of the routine, and it feels manageable in a strange way.

 

Anyone try gabapentin for anxiety before? Good/bad experiences?

My doc said it tends to have less side effects and less of a chance to put you in a fog or super depressed- says she prescribes it to her military patients for that reason. I've tried 100-300mg before and didn't really feel anything, but I guess that's really small so I'll see how things go.