Mental Health Thread • Page 476

Guys I'm a loser who needs to break up with my therapist but I can't. She's not particularly helpful anymore. I've been seeing her for 5 years but she's become a brainwashed trump supporter and the fact I even know that because she has no boundaries and inserts it into our sessions. It just sucks cause she sees me more frequently than anyone else prob will, and she doesn't charge me a copay. And we have a deal where she doesn't bill me for late cancellations because she knows my job is crazy and sometimes unpredictable. And she's not actively hurtful to my mental health. Just not rly helpful

But this is why I haven't dumped her yet and it's literally so dumb. But if I tell her it's because of the trump stuff (which is the reason) she'll chalk me up as a crazy lib who broke off a long therapeutic relationship just because of my intolerant politics and blah blah like all those conservative ppl on tiktok whining that family members disowned them. And I don't wanna give her the satisfaction. So as I'm typing this out I feel like maybe I should just lie about the reason so I break it off and don't give her that ammo. I know it doesn't even matter. But I'm dumb and petty and stubborn. Hence the need for therapy lol.

 

I don't know what's going on, but I have a lot on my mind lately. I’ve been feeling unmotivated and sleepy all the time.

 

I'm so scared of dying. My anxiety is bad now and I can't stop feeling my heartbeat.

 

I have this a lot. Big ol' periodical panic attacks about death, and then I have no idea how people aren't having the same thing all the time?

 

I see videos on Tiktok being like "I took this new medication and now I can finally write my book and do my laundry and stuff" and I'm just sitting wondering how ANYONE is able to function when we die and the world is completely insane

 

@popdisaster00 sorry you’re dealing with that. My sister is pretty much undiagnosed bi polar and had a severe manic ep 5 years ago that put our family through a lot. I had to help out and be there for them and her when my wife was 7 months pregnant with our first. So I know what’s it’s like. Though your case sounds pretty extreme and a lot more scary. Here for you bud.

 

I’m off to Orange County tomorrow to see my brother, and separately see his ex and her kids. Sounds like my brother is getting bailed out of jail tonight and will be going either to a hospital or a hotel as long as he doesn’t flee and go rogue. Meeting with a lawyer on Thursday. Don’t want to do any of this.

 

I read your other post as well and im sorry you are going through this man, if you ever wanna meet up for coffee or hang or somethin lemme know!

 

Thanks bud! I think I’m fine, just annoyed? Like if my family members could get their shit together it would be nice

 

I'm coming off my lamictal for the first time in years and looking forward to it

I've been kinda questioning my bipolar 2 diagnosis. Medication hasn't made the depression and anxiety go away. It's just more of a numb depressed feeling. IMO, it's just dulled my emotions, made me more awkward and boring, has taken all joy out of my life, and taken away my creativity. Nothing really makes me happy anymore.

Anyways, not feeling a change yet, but since Wednesday I lowered from 300mg to 225mg so that's a start. My dosages have just gotten so high because my doctor is like "oh, still a little depressed? Let's just jack up your doses and maybe add another med to the mix" haha. Good news is I don't feel any worse so far. Crossing my fingers it helps bring my old personality back.

 

I’ve been taking 400 mg of lamictal for years as one of my depression meds. Never felt like it did anything for me, but my psychiatrists were hesitant to take me off any of my meds because I wasn’t doing well. Now that my mood has improved, I convinced my current psychiatrist to at least reduce it from 400mg to 300mg. I suspect it might be the cause of my excessive sweating the last couple years so I’m hoping reducing it will improve that!

 

Feeling really down, sad and lonely.

 

I feel like i've been beaten by life so bad for the last five years that sometimes think I can't handle another major disaster in my life. I deeply appreciate the good and the people that care about me. At the same time I feel like I can barely catch my breath figuratively before another thing happens. I feel beyond spent at this point.

 

I'm tired of anxiety and its symptoms ruining my life, to the point I rarely feel like myself because it's like anxiety itself is dictating what I do and how I act around people. It makes me feel so lonely and helpless as a result. I can look back at any moment (school, work, most social interactions) and pretty much every single time, when a situation doesn't go as intended, anxiety is the big culprit. I'm at the point where I can't think of any other solution than potential medication because the usual tools advised in therapy just don't seem to work for me in the long term.

If anyone has some kind of success story or managed to get their anxiety to a point where life is just... livable and doesn't slip away from them anymore, I'd love to hear it because at this point I'm just defeated.

 

Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) For Generalized Anxiety Disorder - PMC

 

Medication changed my life!

 

I'm getting there, I think?

A few months ago I had to go out on leave at work because of anxiety/depression. Got to the point where I wasn't able to function. Couldn't get out of bed, go to work, take care of myself or my family. I was thankfully able to go out on leave for a bit at work and took the time to adjust to new medication. I'm now on Effexor and I feel like I'm able to breathe again, and things in my head are not nearly as loud. I unfortunately have not had a ton of experience in therapy (and probably should try again) and don't want to say medication is the sole reason I feel like I can live my life again, but it's certainly been helpful.

Things aren't perfect and probably never will be, but I can do the simple things again.

Wishing you the absolute best and here to talk further if needed

 

Thanks for your answers, i feel reassured and I really appreciate it!! I've mostly done CBT and EMDR therapy but after so long, maybe it's time for a change. I'm not sure I've heard of ACT so I'll have to look into it. Oddly, medication still scares me even though I was on citalopram, and xanax to a lesser extent, for quite a while a decade back. I think there was a stigma attached to being on meds I couldn't get over back then so I'd take them inconsistently, regretfully. I was in college at the time and in such a different, worse headspace though so if any medication is needed, I'm willing to try again.

 

Anecdotal, but Cymbalta really helped me with my anxiety and OCD

 

I’ve been having a lot of strange and random dreams lately. Idk if the increase in dosage in my meds or my depression. It sucks because I have no one to talk to. Being lonely sucks.

 

@Carmen SD i'm sorry, I hope life gets better!

 

I'm sick and it's a weird GI thing. It always worries me when I get weird sick. I just want to be healthy. I get scared easily.

 

I have to stop myself from googling symptoms because I'm always worried I'm going to die

 

Yeah I can’t google symptoms. Before I got my blood work a few weeks ago I convinced myself I had liver and or kidney failure. My liver and kidneys are doing great according to my doctor.

 

About to have a mental breakdown cause I got a notice my credit score tanked and I have something in collections and idek what it is or how to pay it. I'm a major control freak about my finances due to some trauma so I'm kind of losing it. I guess the debt collection agency tried texting me a few days ago and I just assumed it was a scam because I pay all my stuff. I have no clue what this could even be. I know it will get sorted out and I can pay whatever it is, but again due to past trauma stuff around finances I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. And obv it's thanksgiving so nobody is answering the phones