Mental Health Thread • Page 439

Growing up there were a lot of bands I loved that fizzled out and eventually broke up. Every now and then, I was able to connect with quite a few of their members through AIM, Facebook, Instagram, etc. Just found out that one of the guys I used to speak to on Facebook died a year ago. And from the looks of it, he committed suicide. We never met and I hadn't spoken to him in some years, but we used to talk a lot about music and how he was working on some new projects. He left behind a wife, a son, and a step daughter. Even though we never met, for some reason it hit home.

I've reached the point of my life where people I know or once knew are starting to die more frequently, and it's just difficult wondering where they are now? What happens when you die? Stuff like that. Sorry for the rant but just needed a place to express this.

 

I can’t stand being at work anymore without wanting to cry. Everything is a disorganized mess. I have far too much on my plate, I work with the laziest people who expect me to do everything. People who don’t want to learn. I don’t like the mood it has put me in. My work expects you to put work before yourself. I’m hoping I can actually speak with a psych, np, pa. Someone. I hope my phone appt tomorrow doesn’t turn out like last year and get me no where.

 

wishing you the best

 

We had the first ultrasound today and they noticed some complications. They scheduled another ultrasound for next Friday to check on it. The anxiety during that week is going to be terrible.

 

Been there, the word “complications” whenever it comes to first child is nerve wracking as hell. Hoping the best for y’all!

 

I didn’t get anywhere much except for the “intake” saying my pcp can rx me anxiety and depression meds. I told my pcp I had asked to speak with a psychiatric dr and all they told me was that he can rx me something and recommended therapy

 

Has anyone been on Straterra before? Thoughts? Ritalin and Adderall just raise my BP and HR through the fucking roof

 

I tried Straterra and stopped. This might sound weird, but it affected my bladder. Whenever I peed, not all of it came out and it would dribble out later and I felt like a fuckin toddler. I just googled it to see if it was just me and this comes up:
“Urinary Tract Problems: Atomoxetine can cause problems with bladder emptying and urinary tract function. If you experience difficulty starting to urinate or increased frequency of needing to urinate, contact your doctor.”

I started Adderall last month though and it is 100% a game changer.

 

Fuck. Dude. This blows. My doctor highly suggested Strattera for me because both Adderall and Vyvanse don't work for me. I have that exact bladder problem now from other health issues and I'm not even on Strattera yet.

 

I’m not a medical professional or anything. That’s just my personal testimonial.

 

Yeah I know, but these are common side effects for a reason. Did they go away for you? That's great news about the Adderall by the way, I know people who that literally just completely overhauled their lives for the better so I hope that's what's going on with you

 

It didn’t go away, I just stopped taking it. I didn’t notice an effect to make the side effect worth it.

 

Damn, man. I hope it goes away. I know how annoying it can be. I've had it since last year. Sucks

 

Got new hearing aids, can hear so much better now and it’s been a relief. It’s not perfect mind you, it definitely feels like something is not whole with my hearing now but it’s a process I guess.

 

I can't relax my brain and stop overanalyzing whether my cat is ok. It's maddening and causing panic attacks.

Like it began in late December after she got sick while staying at a vet for boarding and then after she recovered just fine I noticed her breath being a little smelly and realizing she needed to get dental care. I tried just brushing her teeth and unfortunately wasn't quite enough as she had a non-cavity issue. then early April came and she got the cleaning and some teeth extraction. then she got an infection after several days of me being convinced something was up but not being sure. she was given the all clear that shes healed last week. but since i cant stop just observing everything she does as a potential sign that something is wrong. Like her suddenly not finishing her food in one go this week. she'll return quickly but still that freaked me out a ton. contacted vet who said it might be nothing or a slightly upset stomach and to monitor her for vomting, diarrhea, or lethargy. thankfully none of that has materialized.

but i. can't. stop. watching. her. oh, is she not bugging me right at 5am for food despite her knowing she doesnt get fed until 7am? clearly not ok even tho she shows up half an hour later ready to eat. she spending the day sleeping under my bed? clearly not well.

just cant turn my brain and thought process off and i fucking hate it. i can't stop. it just adds to the other stress and anxiety i'm struggling with right now. ugh.

 

really sorry to hear that and I hope your cat is in fact ok

 

Thanks.

She probably is. i know it can't be anything super serious since she was given a clean bill of health via blood tests before the teeth removal, but i worry maybe she still has some lingering pain from the infected site or something since there was a worry her upper tooth would impact the healed site but vet insisted it wouldn't after checking her out twice. so who knows.

the likely answer is i am an idiot and insane.

 

you’re just a caring person from my perspective. about a month ago I was losing my shit over my cat as well. I had convinced myself she was dying because she was hiding from me and she never does that. that went on for about two weeks and as of today it’s like it never even happened. she’s back to normal and happy as ever. I say that to say as a pet owner, I get it. we often go through the worst scenarios in our heads to process how it might affect us if our fears were actually realized or at least in my case. I wish you all the best with her tho. don’t beat yourself up over it anymore than you have to. you’re doing everything you can for her

 

I'm glad she's doing OK! it's not great when a cat suddenly changes their habits and you're like "are you just being a weird gremlin or is this a sign?!"

I'll admit I might be overbearing and overanalyzing with my current cat because my last two ended really poorly and it's kind of fucked me up. The last one I adopted was a senior and FIV+, but took a shot because they deserve love too. I spent our four super short months together just stressed and at the vet. Out of my control sure, but it's left me a bit of a worrier when it comes to my current kitty who is only just about to turn two.

 

sucks to realize you’re just not a very likable person and not a lot of people really fuck with you

 

So a day where my brain decides to chill about being obsessed about the cat, it ends with it instead going “hey remember depression and feeling alone?”

lmao. Not the worst thing. But feeling lonely sucks nonetheless

 

I feel this a lot - most frustrating thing for me is that I cannot actually pinpoint what it is about me that people dislike so much, so I cannot take many steps to change it. You just end up overanalysing things and fucking yourself up even more

 

I’m pretty sure I’m just really annoying

 

I can't thank everyone enough who donated to this or shared or simply sent kind words, it has been four days of nonstop emotion and driving and exhaustion but my mom and cat are home and healing and that is all that matters. I feel like I need to. take a month off from life, though. Do not want to go back to work tomorrow, don't want to push my luck asking for another day off. Might ask about working from home for a few days this week so I can keep an eye on my boy.

I can very much identify with this right now. My cat just had PU surgery and has a large stitched incision on his bottom. He has to wear the cone and be restricted from activity for three weeks. We tried a playpen and then a dog crate yesterday, but he's a big tomcat and was going INSANE trying to get out and we were worried he was going to hurt himself. We wound up moving one of our rabbits out of its room in the middle of the night, relocating him to the bathroom, and my cat to the rabbit's room after we vacuumed and covered some surfaces. He seems much happier, but he still manages to squeeze himself under the bed and hop up and down and it makes me so nervous he's gonna mess up his incision. He also has new litter that is healthier for his healing and we're worried he's not going to use it. He's supposed to pee within 24 hours of coming home, and he did once yesterday, but nothing so far today and he did drink a lot yesterday. Doesn't seem uncomfortable or straining like he was before the urinary instruction, just hoping he realizes and comes around to the new litter box.

 

Fingers crossed for him. Shit is scary and emotionally draining. ❤️