Mental Health Thread • Page 387

we actually saw something on tiktok about that. I’m picking some up this weekend.

and thank you! Means a lot to me!

 

i know almost literally NOTHING about fentanyl or Narcan but one thing I happen to have been made aware of is that I guess Narcan will bring the person back but they will still need emergency medical treatment because after a short while after giving the Narcan the person can crash - or something like that. I’m sure (hoping) the packaging probably says what you should do and whatnot but just an fyi

(as I say this I feel like maybe most people would be like “duh, that makes total sense” but I guess I could see someone giving Narcan and then they just… start watching tv or something lol I think too many people think it’s like a magic elixir cure all and then that’s that)

 

I wouldn't have known really what to do afterwards, but my boyfriend used to be an EMT so he gave me the whole run down on what to do after giving someone Narcan. I think everyone should be educated in it, like CPR or other life saving techniques.

 

yeah you absolutely have to get to the ER after giving someone Narcan.

 

my girlfriend is moving in thursday. i cant believe its finally happening. i put in so much work to get to a point where she felt comfortable being with me again. i never thought i would see her again and i know she felt the same way about me. i took off work for a four day weekend to help get her settled in. i just cant believe this is going to happen.

 

always have narcan i have 4 in my house alone and ive been narcaned and tbh never went to the hospital and just went back to using again but i was also the most fucked up drug addict you can imagine when i was using like nothing phased me whatsoever and i nearly died a number of times without batting an eye.

 

Oh shit! That’s great! Did I miss a post about her coming back around? Or is this all sudden need? Either way, that’s awesome to hear!

 

we decided a couple months ago she would come after the new year but I’ve been pretty hush about it just in case anything happened or she changed her mind again but it’s all going forward 100% now

 

My mom has an eating disorder and my whole life has commented on my food and weight. It's taken me a long time to unlearn and also give her grace. When I was a teen my form of rebelling was eating a ton of junk food and then I learned to reward myself with food and emotionally eat and developed an unhealthy relationship with it myself. Now that I'm older and understand a little more and learn to be kind to someone who was unwell and projecting, im not as harsh on her about it but it's still hard to hear. A while back my sisters and I visited her and she made a recipe my sister had mentioned enjoying a few weeks before. She kept commenting and "joking" about all the fat in it and I get why she does it, but it put a damper on the whole meal. It can be triggering watching her scrape everything off her pizza so she doesn't eat crust. And yesterday she commented on my "mega" sized drink. It bothers me becuase it sucks to hear that stuff but also that she taught me to think that way. Sometimes I have to try really hard to not say those same types of things aloud when I'm with others. The older I get the more i see traits in myself that I resented so badly in my mom, and I hate that I didn't rise above or come out unscathed.

 

My mom does the exact same thing. Lost a lot of weight at some point in her adult life and now constantly comments on it w/r/t my dad, brother, and myself. She doesn't do it to hurt us, but it's damaging and absolutely triggering to deal with sometimes. I empathize with you.

 

My wife did some new kinda test at her psychiatrist. You spit in a tube and some company does an analysis and gives you detailed info about your genes and DNA or something. It told my wife she’s low on a certain acid or something that can affect the ability to get pregnant, how well anti depressants work, her extremely high substance tolerance, and other things. She takes supplements now to counter it. She brought me with her last appointment for me to do it and I go later today for the results. I’m curious what it says about me and how my body really works or if a part of me is defective or whatever.

 

I don’t think people realize how hard it is to be lonely sometimes. Not having anyone to vent or rent to about the bs at work really sucks. I’ve gone through most of my life like this. People don’t know. It’s hard mentally. To be going through everything alone. There is so much bs going on rn that i wish i had someone to rant to. But I don’t. I know I’m better off getting a different job, and I’m working towards that, but I’m in a situation where thats a little easier said than done.

 

I picked some up this weekend so I have it on me at all times.

 

I've always been an overthinker and replay a negative event or interaction over and over in my head and rehearse future conversations about it or what I should've done or said differently. But today is the first time I suddenly realized I do it to punish myself. I have such a need to please people and do the right thing that when I don't, I think I deserve to be punished by like mentally torturing myself. I don't know what to do with that info rn but it's helpful to realize I guess.

 

Having a really tough day and I just need to vent because I don't really have anyone to talk to right now.

I'm anxious about work on Monday. I got an email invite to a meeting with my three bosses asking to discuss my role and "wanting to make modifications to more directly support" my program. I'm sure I'm just overthinking, but my last job scheduled a meeting with me for one thing and then used it to ambush me about my work quality and I'm just paranoid. This employer doesn't seem anything like that one, but my brain just keeps telling me I'm going to get fired, even though I haven't had issues with anyone. If anything, I've mostly been receiving praise. I hate not knowing what to expect.

To make matters worse, I am allergic to our baby rabbit, which we were fostering because of my wife. I convinced her we should keep it because it seemed really attached to us. If I take a Claritan, I can be with him for an hour before I have to get outta there. But the vet today said he needs more socialization and my wife just won't help. I know she works late, but I can't believe she's essentially giving me the non-option of having to give him up because she can't spend an extra half hour or so with him each night. If I ever did that to her with one of her other pets, she would be devastated.

Sorry if anyone read all that, but yeah. Just feeling really lonely and upset right now.

 

That sucks. Random meetings like that are the worst. I was told that I was carrying the department for months. Then I got pulled in with 3 management people and they just crapped all over me and acted like I was some awful inept employee. Totally out of nowhere. There were six things that, rather than just asked or talked to me about, they compiled and just dumped on me again and again. 2 of the 6 were valid feedback. But like, just inform me when it happened, why wait and compile a list? The other four were complete and total bullshit. They had trained me as a back up in another role and that month I had trained a lot for it and then done it a few times. These would be 2-4 hours of time away from my primary role. They told me that I was not productive because my numbers were down in my primary role. Like, no fucking shit, you literally had me leave the office to train. Then some other just detailed stupid shit. One wasn’t even on me, it was on my lead. I asked her for direction on something and she gave me options. So, I chose an option. It was over as far as I knew. But they brought that up and said I refused to do that task. Like, what the hell? I came to you and you presented a trap for me? What in the world? The most fucked thing about that is that I got recognized last week for being the person in the company who did that task the most last year. But I refuse to do it? Like dear god. It became super clear that they had no clue on how to manage people and didn’t know anything about me. The turnover rate is super high. Those first few months I figured the job just wasn’t for everyone. There is a part of the job where you have talk to people about dead loved ones or about the worst day of their life or in severe pain. Not everyone can handle that. And maybe that’s still partly true, but I know that people don’t leave jobs, they leave management.

Sorry for the long rant. I hope your meeting goes well. Those kind of meetings are the worst when you have no idea what’s gonna happen.

Why does your wife want to keep it if she doesn’t or can’t help?

 

That sounds similar to what happened at my last job. I just gotta remember that not every job is like that and try not to let my brain get away from me.

She's indifferent about keeping it, which I also don't understand because she's such an animal person. But it's like because of the extra work, she doesn't want anything to do with it, despite the fact that we had two rabbits and two cats on our wedding topper, got a stocking for him at Christmas, etc. And of course she feels this way about the one that's bonded with me. I just don't understand why she's doing this and it's compounding some other issues we're dealing with, so overall just feeling frustrated and on my own at the moment.

 

For me, I basically debated them in my head for 30 hours. I didn’t really sleep that first night. Ultimately, by the next night I accepted that my value does not come from them. I know my work ethic and productivity. One number without context doesn’t mean shit. They didn’t know, trust, or respect me. Fuck them. I’m there to work, not make friends. I slept 10 hours that second night. I was exhausted from my inner monologue going non stop for 30 hours. I just kept doing the same thing at work, basically. Took ownership of the couple valid things. That’s it. Haven’t heard a single word since.

Have you told her any of this?

 

so my gf got Covid so she’s coming sometime next week now lol, it’s always something

 

I was proud of myself in therapy yesterday for being more direct about what I wanted from my therapist. I think she sees me as a mentee sometimes and really wants me to get my masters and pursue bigger things, so when I complain about work stress she is always trying to convince me to quit or change positions. Yesterday I told her a similar version of "look, appreciate the support but I need strategies to cope with how I'm responding to this stress because I've been this way my whole life and I know myself and I'm gonna get stressed and unhinged this way no matter what job I have so I need coping skills." And then she worked with me on that which was nice. It's been bothering me for a while.

 

This has been really bothering me for awhile but I never talk to anyone about it bc I feel like I’m being whiny and ungrateful so I’m just venting here. Ever since I was a kid I always felt like I was treated different than my brother/cousins. It was small things then like noticing they always got more presents at Christmas than me. But as I’ve gotten older it’s just way clearer and it bothers me. Like if any of them ever need help everyone drops everything but they won’t do that for me. My grandmas health isn’t great so I did all her Christmas shopping for her and she spent 4x more on my brother and cousins than on me. And I feel bad about being upset about it bc she still gets me gifts and I love her dearly but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t hurt. When my brother bought a house, he was given around $10,000 from all my family. I’m buying my first house right now and I am being given $0. I had to ask my brother if he would ask my dad if we could use his truck so I don’t have to pay movers bc last time I moved he told me no. My brother asked him and he said yes. And my brother has moved like 5 times and my dad has helped him every time. Idk I just feel like they don’t love me as much and constantly feel like the outcast. And then I feel guilty about feeling that way but it’s just how I feel. Just wish I had an actual support system bc as someone who has never had a partner and always struggled with making friends, my family is literally all I have and I always feel like I’m a nuisance if I ask them for help.

 

I’ve gone through similar things. I can relate to how you feel.

 

My wife apologized to me, which is really nice and pretty big for her to admit fault. We're going to work together to make sure the rabbit gets what he needs and work on our current issues as well. Just growing pains, these things happen. I'm thankful and appreciate folks being kind here last night.

 

I'm so anxious about a work thing tomorrow I've been trying to be positive and tell myself positive affirmations all weekend but it's exhausting and my brain will start thinking about it again before I even realize. If I'm not constantly distracted it immediately comes back up in my mind. I know I'll be okay. Even if the work thing is unpleasant and I feel stupid or embarrassed, it'll be a few minutes of taking it and then it's over. I'm not going to be fired or in trouble. Nobody got hurt. I'm just being criticized by a third party but I'm so stressed about it. I laid down for a few hours and when I got up to exercise I was so dizzy and nauseous I could barely stand and had to sit down. I feel like it has to be a physical manifestation of my anxiety and I'm still feeling off and I'm so frustrated. Exercising is the one thing I know always makes me feel better and I couldn't because I was lightheaded. I feel like my body is betraying and sabotaging me when I'm trying really hard not to give into the anxiety and depression. Overall the weekend feels like a bust.

 

Ditto to all of that! Big worrisome meeting in one hour and I just want it to be over with. My anxiety absolutely tanked my weekend. Really upsetting.