Mental Health Thread • Page 373

I don’t mean this in a self-harming kind of way so no need to worry, but sometimes I’m just so tired of life/ready to not exist.

 

In my area there are many dudes posing with fish they caught. I’ve also seen the truck thing and “hunting equipment”. I also don’t have much experience dating. I’ve dated a little, but my lack of experience makes me anxious. Especially at my age. Didn’t help that guys never took much interest in me romantically :/
What’s worse is, as I got older I’ve become more socially awkward, introverted, and shy.

 

I hate dating so much. I just want to wake up and already be in a one year relationship

 

How much would the pizza and fries cost you?

 

Update: so yeah I got the item for $4. The cashier didn’t read my new total after my target circle and the way the receipt listed the coupons was confusing. Original price 8.99 and I paid $4.02 for the item

 

Yeah guys aren’t usually interested much in me either. And the few who have been didn’t want to date me bc I didn’t have any “experience.” That’s great for my confidence lol but I definitely feel like I’ve gotten more shy as I’ve aged too. Probably bc I’m like never around anyone that isn’t family which doesn’t help. I’ve been trying to do things out of my comfort zone but idk if it’s helping a lot. But small steps are better than nothing I guess!

 

Also, for me it doesn’t help that I have the body of a middle schooler. No boobs, no ass, no hips, chicken legs... I don’t feel my age. Part of it I think has to do with the trauma I endured when I was younger and always getting treated like a child and incapable of doing anything. So I never really “learned” some stuff if that makes sense. Sometimes I feel like my dad still treats me like a child. It’s traumatizing and fucks me mentally

 

Haha just saw this now. Not really sure. Depends on where I order from.
But I ended up just having ramen.

 

Hypothetically, if you can put a price on it, someone may send you that amount so you can get some.

 

I put my brand new AirPods through the wash and now I want to die. I am not suicidal. But I don’t want to be on this earth anymore. I’m the fucking worst. They were such a nice gift. Fuck me.

 

People constantly think I'm a teenager (I'm 31) so I know the feeling. And it doesn't really matter how I dress, if I wear makeup, whatever, I just always look very young. And so many people (especially men) treat me like I'm stupid bc they think I'm a young girl and it's beyond frustrating. And I definitely get having to learn stuff kind of on your own. If I ever needed help with things growing up, instead of being shown how to do it, my mom would just do it herself instead. Which didn't help me in the long run. I know why she did it (my dad was awful and she was constantly walking on eggshells trying to make sure everything was just right so he wouldn't fly into a rage so it was just easier for her to get it done herself instead of taking the time to show me) but it definitely made things harder for me when I was off on my own. I was really hard on myself when I didn't know stuff it seemed like was so basic for everyone else but I'm trying to turn it around and tell myself I'm doing the best I can with the resources I was given. Not always easy to look at it like that but I'm trying!

 

I dress very simple. Like yoga pants and a tshirt (from the men’s section haha). I’m not comfortable in the style of clothing that you typically see girls wear, for several reasons. One of them being some of the clothing I feel I’m too ugly to wear. Like it doesn’t look good on me. Like I don’t have the features. I can be completely covered up and still feel this way. But yeah I basically feel like a loser who hasn’t gotten far in life no matter how hard I try to do better. And I don’t think guys want that either

 

I find girls dressing super basic to be attractive. Like, not exclusively, but sometimes the simplest of outfits just works.

 

I also absolutely empathize with not feeling far in life. I don't drive. I finally got.over my fears and got my license at 24 just to get T-boned after a year of driving. It terrifies me, and now I'm a burden by catching rides with everyone I know. My partner makes more than me and that doesn't bother me at all, but with all of the wedding spending we've been doing, she has over twice as much money saved as I do. I constantly feel in the red and irresponsible compared to others my age.

 

I’m 36 and live with my mom due to debt. I’m a massive failure.

 

I don't drive either, @Aaron Mook

I have before quite a few times but it always scared me in much the same way it does you. I am sure I could've been driving for years but with my disease, I really don't feel comfortable behind the wheel. I could have a relapse at any given moment and I just don't want to risk harming someone else. I too feel like a burden because of it but everyone (well, most everyone) in my life understands by now. you are far from alone, my friend

 

I made a super hard decision this week that until I get my mental health taken care of, I’m not going to shows anymore. Last two I went to made me realize that long standing issues with anxiety and paranoia have become too unmanageable to deal with, I had to be loaded to sit through the last one. People freak me the fuck out and being in a crowd of people, many intoxicated, is just not something I can deal with without help. I had tickets to see The National in STL last night and I gave them to a friend because I wrestled all week about going and I didn’t want to let him down because of my hangups.

 

I’m also coming to terms with how much I catastrophize many things in my life, I over-analyze and overthink about decisions and conversations and it’s robbing me of my life. I’ve pushed so many people away because I thought they didn’t want me in their life anymore and now I’m just lonely.

 

No you’re not. There’s countless others in your situation and it’s a result of a rigged/broken economic system.

 

I haven't had my phone turned off in like 2 years and now I can't even do instacart till I get paid Wednesday morning.

I feel like I just can't win lately and I'm trying so hard to work my ass off and not ask anyone for help because I hate owing people money.

 

I'm sorry. I'm the same way, but fwiw, I'm sure someone wouldn't mine throwing you at least enough to get your phone back on so you can Instacart. Hell, you could probably get them back in a day or two. I'd straight-up give you the money myself if I wasn't absolutely wrecked from wedding costs right now.

 

I get paid Wednesday morning so I'll survive. I just hate that I'm in this rut and just brings me back to 2 years ago when shit wasn't good and I was drunk a lot. but I guess these next 2 days will help me to rest and recharge after work. Plus I have chores to get done around the house which will make me feel productive.

 

that's a very good perspective to have

 

I learned not to totally freak out and make it everyone's problem when things like this happen. I just have to roll with it and tell myself "it could be a lot worse, Julie" and then I get over it.

 

Lotta people are struggling right now in your same position, there is no shame in living with your mom because of the harsh financial world we currently live in. The embarrassment is understandable but if people wanna judge you for trying to make the best out of your situation, than fuck them and their snobby attitude because they’re not helping you out so their opinions don’t mean shit.