Mental Health Thread • Page 307

I know you will. thank you, Mary. it really means a lot

 

Had my first appointment with my new therapist today. It went really well. Complete opposite of the last two i had. She actually seemed to understand my issues pretty well and at no point tried to talk down to me or make me feel stupid.

Like i said in my last post here, small steps in the right direction.

 

I kind of want to try therapy but what’s the point if 99% of my depression is external, objectively bad things that I have no control over?

 

oh no! that's terribly sad! I hope you feel better really soon!

 

i totally get this

 

If you're in a long term state of emotional numbness and struggle accessing your memories (maybe due to benzos) can a dose of MDMA snap you out of this? Asking for a friend.

 

Really feel like I cannot do anything right at all

 

Haven’t felt this totally hopeless in a while. Been crying off and on all morning and just want to give up. It’s all so bad.

 

They will help you learn better ways to deal with those external factors. Also talking through that shit and getting feedback really helps in my honest opinion.

 

If it's cuz of what happened yesterday, please don't give up....this is when he needs us the most! He hasn't given up on us and we can't give up on him. We knew this would be hard and he is no stranger to fighting through the hard shit and coming out the other side!

 

I meant give up in general, not on Bernie specifically. So many things have been going ok for me lately but I’ve felt a really bad slide trying to creep up for a while and I’m afraid it’s here.

 

My depression is kinda dippy again. Like my mood dips unexpectedly. I'm on meds but idk I might need to adjust them? It sucks

 

I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now. Do you talk to a therapist?

 

No, I have a lot in the past but not for years. At the moment everything external is making things much worse and none of the tools I have can help with that part.

 

I think maybe you should try if it has helped in the past. I know there are online ones like BetterHelp which can make it more convenient.

 

I have been getting close with my coworkers lately and thought about confiding with them about my mental illness. The one I have has a pretty big stigma...and it would be worse considering my profession.

 

mushrooms are much more likely to help with this to my knowledge

 

I’ve known I’ve needed therapy for awhile; my father’s death has me so fucked up I finally made an appointment and go this afternoon. I’m so fucking nervous.

 

Let us know how it goes!

 

All the love in the world your way. I cannot fathom what you’re going through. We don’t talk/interact much but inbox is always open.

 

I've never dealt with anything like this before but I've been alot more anxious over the past couple of months since my ER visit and incident at work.

According to my wife I've been dealing with it since we've been together but never done anything about it.

Think I'm gonna call my doctor tomorrow and see about Anxiety meds or something

 

The only thing worse than having anxiety is experiencing it around others

I chose to wait the anxiety out in my car like a normal irrational anxious human being while I wait for guy I'm seeing to get off work cause I beat him to his place. He suggests I go inside with his roommates and I say I don't want to because it's awkward and I'm totally fine looking at my phone for like fifteen minutes. I guess I should've been clearer because by awkward I meant.... Pinged my anxiety. So he told his roommates to come out and get me and I'm like dude no. So I hide in my car like a weirdo loser until his roommates go back inside and then I drive to the other side of the apartment complex to hide. Now he's home and I have to face them and I'm on the verge of tears.

I don't mind telling him that I'm like having an anxiety attack but now I have to be like... Sry for being a weirdo to his roommates uggghh I wanna die

 

I just quit my job yesterday. On Weds I reached the most stress and anxiety I have ever felt. I couldn't even perform simple tasks at my jobs, I've never experinced anything like that before. My whole body felt warm and I couldn't stop obsessing about how many things I hated about my job. It was awful. The second I told my boss I can't do it anymore I felt a weight off my chest.

I also feel vindicated because a girl just quit two weeks ago and another coworker is about to quit leaving only one person in my old department. I feel like I was manipulated into thinking I was inadequate and incompetent when I really was just set up to fail.

I woke up at 3 am with a burst of anxiety, I've been doing that the last 2 months, and then I calmly realized that I no longer had to worry about that job and I felt a warm wave of relief and fell asleep soon after. I can't believe how much that job dominated my mind and mental health the past few months and I tried to live with it and didn't identify it right away.

I may be able to get my old job back from last year which would be great but no matter what I do I need to gain my confidence back. This last job completely zapped me of any confidence of the workplace.

 

Really proud of you for taking such an important step for your health. That decision alone should be huge for starting that confidence again because you can tell yourself that you’re strong enough to do what you need to do and see better things in your future despite that toxic environment draining you.