Mental Health Thread • Page 262

I hope you know you are like, THE most universally liked person on this site.

 

I'm 30 days away from my phalloplasty date and I still don't have insurance approval and this has been nearly 18 months of my life leading up to it and if it falls thru I'm probably going to walk into the ocean so that's cool

 

Will gladly back this 100% and it was true in the ap days as well.

 

Yup yup!

 

I’ve been pretty okay at distracting myself the last month or two but sometimes you’re just heavily reminded how alone you are

 

I can't really trust this work friend of mine. She has a loud blabber mouth, gossips, talks shit, constant complainer, and exaggerates/fabricates situations. Everyone knows she's loud and complains all the time. I try to help her out as a friend, but she doesn't listen. Whats kinda funny is the things she complains about other people doing, are things she does all the time. Anything that she tells me is hard to believe. Plus I feel like she's hiding stuff from me for whatever reason because Ive heard some things from other people (things she told them) and she has yet to tell me? Idk. It just gets stressful

 

Feeling really low tonight and super anxious for no reasons I can discern.

This work week is also going to be miserable. Sigh.

 

My dad was doing so well and then today he texted me to ask me if I thought my sexual assault made me a better person and and and then said "no knee jerk answers" and I am cringing now for him as I type this jesus christ dad you outdid yourself on this one

 

Omg does anyone get heartburn after taking meds? It doesn't happen every time, but a good chunk of the time after I take my Prozac lately I've been getting what I assume is massive heartburn and it's hard to focus cause I feel like I need to throw up but I never do. The heartburn causes my body to tense which makes my sucky shoulders/back even more tense and suckier and then I just want to die.

 

So hollow. I can distract myself from the anxiety and the misery for a while, even convince myself that it's possible that things will get better eventually. But the emptiness is always humming away in the background. I Just have no energy or will to do anything when it comes down to it.

 

Looking forward to being insured again for the main purpose of seeing my psych again haha

 

Not heartburn but nausea if I take them on a very empty stomach/coffee only


Still no word on the insurance approval, but I set up my pre/post op appointments today. All I can do is keep moving forward but the lack of control is very very hard

 

Holy shit it's gonna happen

24 days

 

congratulations! that's such great news

 

I absolutely hate myself and wish I could ever feel like I matter to anyone

 

You’re one of my favorite posters and I’d love to get to know you better. You matter a lot.

 

you matter a lot to me so don’t ever think that. we all have that voice in our head that tells us things like that. don’t listen to it tho, it’s wrong about you

 

Joe, you’re one of the cooler people I know. I don’t we don’t talk much but you’re a great guy and hopefully we can hang and shoot the shit one day. Stay strong, man.

 

@Joe4th you are cool as hell and nice as hell
depression is a motherfucker

 

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate it. I just had a really bad night stuck in my own head.

 

Love u joe. We were all talking abt how much we miss you at the show last night.

 

Joey Chorus, you absolutely matter, as many have pointed out. Hit me up if you need anything! Also: you going to NFG or TBS this summer? We should hanggggg

 

I might end up at one of those, I’m not sure yet but if I do end up going I’ll let you know! And even if I don’t go we definitely need to get together soon

 

Dope. Yeah we gotta make a plan.

 

Ugh, was up real late last night worrying because I couldn't remember if I took my lamictal. Now I am feeling anxious and kind of weird but I'm unsure if I'm just still worrying or if I really did miss my dose.

I've never really missed a dose before, so I'm not really sure how to gauge myself. Currently wondering how bad an idea it would be to just take a half my regular dose since my prescription is only half the max dose recommended for people and I've been taking it for a few years now, but maybe not the greatest idea.