Mental Health Thread • Page 24

Yeah there no public transportation here and driving gives me awful anxiety. I can walk to work though so that's good.

 

I got my license late cause I've been in car crashes and have driving anxiety. It took me a long time and I failed the test twice cause people kept pressuring me before I was ready cause they were tired of driving me around lol. I still hate it. People said I'd like it as I got used to it but I dont. If I can pawn driving off on someone else I will. I have to do home visits and it stresses me out on the first round cause I don't know where the houses are or where to park. I've had someone yell at me for parking in front of their house for about 30 seconds and I almost cried lol

 

I was raised here in LA and I still don't have my license... Driving is absolutely terrifying for me. A lot of the time even being a passenger sends my anxiety through the roof. People are so dangerous (and rude!) and it all just freaks me out. Thankfully I live in an area of town that's pretty centralized for public transportation but it still leaves a lot of be desired.

I'm going to have to get my license before graduation this December which is incredibly daunting. I don't even have the option to get a car but in my career field I'm going to at least need a license for a lot of the lower end jobs, at least to start.

tl;dr the world needs to be more friendly to those who choose not to or cannot drive. Thank god for Lyft/Uber

 

just the idea of Uber makes me nervous, I don't trust anyone let alone a stranger available at a moment's notice to drive me around and have my life in their hands

 

When I graduate and get a job, I'll probably have like a 45 minute commute. Oh well. :3

 

Uber makes me nervous because I'm always afraid the driver is going to be some creep and like kidnap me or something.

 

I only use it when we have a group. Never alone.

 

It's strange that I've actually felt comfortable using it? I still live at home so I always text my mom the info of the driver (their name, car, etc) and I try to be dropped off down the street so they don't see exactly where I live.

I'll still take public transportation if it's at all possible. Sometimes I just don't have the time or it's too late at night and the buses aren't running. I do wish I could drive for that sense of safety and freedom tbh

 

I always think of those movies where the driver locks the victim in the backseat of the car and the door won't open. Gives me chills.

 

I feel like I'm not allowed to have negative reactions to anything my partner does. It's getting suffocating and I don't know what to do. I know she's anxious. I know she's sick. I know I do some shitty things. It doesn't mean that she can't hurt me too.

 

My anxiety is getting on my nerves. Nobody is really stepping up in the way they should to help organize this 5k for my brother in law and I want to help, but ugh my anxiety. When I confess I'm anxious to ask businesses to put up fliers people say "You just go down there and ask them. Just do it" Like ok I know how to do it. That's not the problem lol. And if it's so easy why don't y'all do it since you don't have the anxiety?? Just frustrating. Gonna try to do it tomorrow. Everyone likes the recognition they receive if they put on an event or share it on fb but nobody wants to actually help do the dirty work to put one together.

 

So I presume I would put what I'm about to say here in this thread since I would consider it a mental health issue, though not in a bad way at all or anything just something I've been grappling with.

I'm not comfortable with my gender or any gender really. It's been a long struggle to come to terms with, something I've been putting in the back of my mind but I'm now realizing that I'm among friends, especially here on this forum, and it's ok for me to express this. I'm hoping this doesn't offend or upset anyone due to my poor wording or something like that, I'm just to the point now where I'm over gender and don't identify with any of them. I've always felt uncomfortable with masculinity and instead of striving for it like I have for so long I'm instead going to try to be comfortable with my self without the weight of gender on my shoulders. Idk, I'm just ranting and kind of confused but also a bit relieved.

My bipolar disorder is also getting me down too, not sure why just one of those days where I'm bummed and feel kind of....messy I guess. Just needed to vent

 

Hi going here might help
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I'm v v worried that me fucking up my arm and not being able to work is gonna trigger a super bad depressive episode I could feel it starting in the hospital even

 

My part-time retail job is fucking killing me.

 

I am not straight, but I've pretended to be masculine normal bro for so long and am filled with so much self hatred that has resulted in inadvertently hurting so many people around me that I can't think of any reasons to love myself now.

 

Androgyny is totally a thing and is becoming more accepted, you shouldn't be too hard on yourself. Congrats on becoming your colorful self, and if you have people in your life who truly care for you, they will be supportive of your change. If not, they have growing to do or were not meant to be in your life /opinion

 

I somehow missed this post! I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to reach out to us. I'm still learning about the different sexualities and gender. It isn't fair that you have to carry this heavy load when all you want is to find happiness. You deserve to be happy and I hope every step you take brings you closer to the peace you're searching for. Remember you always have someone to talk to whenever you need to vent. BIPOLAR high five! Hehe I hate the bummed feeling. It's hard enough to be a functioning human without dealing with the ups and downs that you have no control over. I hope this was semi encouraging. ❤️

 

Hiding parts of yourself can be so tough, try to not be so hard on youtself for it. Do you have anyone you're really close with that you feel comfortable talking to about this stuff? If not I know there are plenty of us here you can turn to.

 

I have court tomorrow and I'm terrified of what will happen if it doesn't go in my favor

 

What is she wanting? Full custody or something?

 

I'm not sure, I filed the original suit and I'm wanting at least 50/50 with the right to determine primary residence. She seems to want to make every decision without my input, and my daughter also mentioned that she was talking about moving to CA next year, which I'm confident the court will not let happen.

If I can't get split custody I'm sure the judge will order me to pay child support, which I can't afford. Plus of course my daughter would be stuck in a shitty situation with an irresponsible and selfish parent

 

I'll be sending you good luck vibes, hope everything goes well

 

Thank you. I know I should get my way, but I'm not at all confident that I will. There's a tendency for judges to enforce status quo, and also traditional vows favour the mother in custody disputes. So hopefully he listens to our arguments