Mental Health Thread • Page 191

Job I interviewed for called to say I didn't get it but that I was a "top candidate" and she wants me to apply for a new position opening up next week. I'm just relieved they finally told me the outcome I guess. And it counts as an employer contact for my unemployment

 

can you handle being just friends with her? that stuff always sounded good in practice for me but has worked out exactly once, and it's probably because we only dated for 4 months, heh.

 

It's going to be very hard either way, but I think I can handle it more than I can handle not being friends

I think my psychologist told me if you wouldn't want to be friends with someone if you weren't dating, it's not a good relationship. That's the case here. I know there will be rough times but she's important to me

 

yeah i agree with the psychologist. i got the same advice back in the day when it was "i have to drink to enjoy hanging out with these people" which, HINT: bad sign

i hope it all works out, my man

 

Ugh, still getting yanked around by this company in the bay area. Claim I'll have definitive info on whether I've got it by week's end. Problem is this is like the 3rd straight week of this. :/

 

New location isn’t what I thought it was and I want to find a new job even faster but then I feel a little bad because the people on shift have been working 6 days bc they’re so short. It’s a worse location on many levels. It’s like there is no body enforcing cleanliness and everything is unorganized. Because they didn’t have enough people at first they had a set schedule and the manager wants to go back on rotation since I’m here. Now if they don’t, it’s highly likely I have to work weekends all the time which isn’t going to happen. One girl can work one of the weekend days for a legit reason that she can’t get out of. She’s doesn’t really do anything except sit on her phone while the other person does most of the work

 

Today I walked past the exact place where I was sexually harassed by two men last year. I've felt the urge to run when I've passed it before, or avoided it altogether (but walking along that street is the quickest way to dad's office and go home). I felt nothing today! Maybe I was immersed by the album I was listening to, or maybe I'm less afraid now. It's nice knowing that I was okay today, and fear doesn't rule me

 

I woke up in the early hours again thinking about things. I feel like something must be wrong with me and I wish I were someone else.

 

Anyone here have experience with Adderall?

 

I would give pretty much anything to go back in time 13 years and start this over. I hate myself, truly.

 

I've started thinking about where I would be if i had turned and run at the first red flag

 

today's small victory: a coworker that I haven't worked with in a couple months said "you lost weight" as soon as she saw me today
which made me realize that I haven't been eating my feelings as much as last year
go me

 

Some heartbreaking posts on this page from some of my favorite users. You all know my social media outlets, and that I'm active on here most days. Please reach out if you need someone to talk to.

 

I do the same thing bb. Good thing is that now you know for the future and can interact with people who deserve ur awesomeness

 

Well, I formally got offered the SF job. Now it's time to decide if I want it.

I may well go insane given my inability to make even the simplest of decisions without going back and forth a million times.

 

yeah but I guess on some level I feel like I would just still make the same decisions over and over again. I don't learn. I still always choose love and giving people the benefit of the doubt and forgiveness

I feel this on a deep level. You got this.

 

I'm similar in a way. I think I have an enabler personality type sometimes, where I feel for someone's past and what they've gone thru and can get suckered in sometimes. My ex used that to his advantage a lot and I had to come to terms with how much stuff he lied about to gain my sympathy and sort of emotionally rope me in. But just know that it is possible to break out of that cycle and come out stronger. It's a sucky experience to have to go thru and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, and you're strong for coming this far. Unfortunately it just takes time. From your past posts it sounded like a toxic situation and that makes it extra confusing and difficult to process and untangle everything but you will be so much better off, even if it doesn't feel that way now.

 

My bff always knows how to make me feel small. She's constantly "forgetting" we have plans and cancelling so I have stopped initiating plans with her and I told her as much. So today she initiates and asks if I wanna go to lunch and i get excited cause i haven't seen her in months and she initiated, but I called my sister first cause I'm watching my nephew later and wanted to confirm I had enough time to grab lunch. So I responded 15 minutes later saying sure, and she was like oop never mind u took so long that I already went somewhere and ordered and got my food. So she basically invited me out and then immediately drove somewhere to get food anyway. Just another instance where I feel like I don't fit in her schedule and time.

 

not personally but my girlfriend has been prescribed some type of amphetamine since high school and could ask her for you what are you curious about?

 

Just how well it worked. I'm going to a psychiatrist in a couple weeks and wanted to ask for it. I have real trouble concentrating for me for than 5 minutes when I'm studying and when I'm in class. Things have always been like this.

 

it changed her life, she's brilliant but always had problems in school growing up and once she got diagnosed with adhd and got medicated for it, she started to excel and now goes to an ivy league college. it definitely has the potential to change your life for the better.

 

In the last 3-4 weeks I've been in the deepest hole I've been in years. I left my apartment for two hours saturday through monday. Just flat out didn't even go to work. I'm forcing myself to get my health insurance figured out and asked my friend who is a therapist about going to her clinic to see whatever colleague she recommends when ever i get insurance straightened out. I don't want to see or talk to anyone or leave my bedroom.

 

Yeah I'm currently taking a piano course and I have a really hard time staying focused in the classroom and learning everything in general. And when it comes to practicing the piano, I'll stop after 5-10 minutes. I've always thought I might have adhd, but I didn't want to self diagnose.