Mental Health Thread • Page 189

Been holding in a lot stuff over the past few months and today everything just came crashing down. Was on my way to see my new psychiatrist for the first time this morning and ended up getting lost/could not find the place. Driving around for about 25 min, and then just had a meltdown in my car, gave up and started going home. Called my mom and told her about what happened and then told her I’ve been feeling suicidal (I’ve never told anyone that in my life , even when I have felt that way previously). It’s a weird feeling for me to experience, because now that I’ve said it out loud to someone, there’s no minimizing those emotions, no burying it away for another time. Im currently feeling a bit relieved, but at the same time disappointed because the last way I wanted to bring that up, especially to my mom, was in the middle of a meltdown after ditching my appointment. Going to have lunch with her after class to talk and see what the next steps are.

 

I've been going to counseling but more and more I think I need meds. My coping mechanisms actually are pretty decent. My brain is just a flop.

 

even if it didn't happen the way you wanted it to, it's good that you told your mom. I've found the more open I am with my mom about my mental health, the better she is at supporting me through it. hope it does the same for you.

 

Kinda losing my shit today... If it wasn't for therapy and alanon this morning I probably would have had a full blown panic attack.

 

Also interested in the answer to this question. I've been on 20mg of Lexapro for forever and have been thinking about switching over to Wellbutrin.

 

There goes my anxiety again. I got a call from a place I applied to but it ended up being an overnight shift which I cannot do. The hiring manger wanted to interview me. Hope to hear back from others. I was surprised I got a call so quickly

Edit:my stress and anxiety from trying to find a new job ASAP is messing with my sleep. I went to bed at a decent hour for me took NyQuil and still had trouble waking up at a decent hour

 

I do. The Lexapro didn't work as well for me with my anxiety, so we switched me to Zoloft + Wellbutrin and that seems to do the trick. Whatever chemicals are messed up in my head, Wellbutrin alone didn't do enough to for my depression/anxiety. The one thing I will say for sure is this - don't drink alcohol on this stuff. Defeats the purpose of anti-depressants and my hangovers lasted all day

edit: I know there are people out there who don't like the idea of having to take pills and things like that, but I am a full believer in "better living through chemistry" - diabetics need insulin, i need at least one SSRI for my brain.

 

I just don't have any energy to do anything. Just want to lay in bed all day and sleep. Feels like I'm a waste of space now.

 

hey cool in the span of an hour i went from fine to super dysphoric and sad, awesomeeeee

 

do any of you get night sweats? I thought it was the rexulti that was doing it, because that's when the sweats started, but i quit that months ago and i'm still drenched every morning. i assume it's the zoloft but good lord

 

This is turning into carmen sd complains about jobs tread. woo hoo. idk if it belongs here or vent frustrations. anyhoo..it's really discouraging how most jobs these days REQUIRE certain experience, but you never never seem to obtain that experience because every job that offers it wants several years of experience. They're just too lazy to train people these days. Or jobs that I may qualify for are only part time, per diem, on call, or temp

 

^^^that's why i opted to join my current company as an intern, because i knew i didn't have enough experience for like "digital marketing manager" but right now i'm still not quite learning what i wanted to. my portfolio is growing though

 

i need to yell about this:
i need information about VERY INTENSIVE SURGERY in order to make the right choice in procedures and surgeons
XYZ people have this information but they are in closed facebook groups and won't link me to those groups because "privacy"
how the fuck am i supposed to get any info if you, fellow trans guy, are gatekeeping the fuck out of me

 

I called out of work two days in a row for no reason because I am mentally ill and full of self sabotage. Sigh. Hopefully none of the managers care much and don't give me a hard time about it

 

mental health days are legit though

 

I just go on auto-pilot and somehow make it through days. Or I'd take a ton of mental health days.

 

Yeah but in my experience employers don't think so

 

same, well also I feel like every feels like it should be a mental health day, like if I didn't go to work when I was feeling anxious I guess I'm never going to work
my anxiety also wouldn't let me take a mental health day, it doesn't even let me take vacations

 

I've been out of school for about 3 years so idk if I can still intern, plus most positions aren't paid.

 

heyyyy i emailed a surgeon and he already got back to me. nice.

i hear you. i'm 34 and graduated in 2005. this pays $16/hour. it's not ideal that's for damn sure. and it's definitely not sustainable...my plan is to ask for access to some of the programs i want to learn, on my own time, so i'm not just writing blog posts for the next 3 months. and hope my savings covers things until then.

 

This. Taking time off, even just 1 day really makes me incredibly anxious. My anxiety fucking controls me.

 

I hope I don't have to constantly post. This little dilemma was sudden and had no control over really. I feel like I lost my job (which has happened in the past and lead to a really low point and I feel I'm at a low again), but I'm relocating and a pay decrease. If I was guaranteed a different job I would have declined the relocate and resign from the company (which I think everyone else did).

 

People say money doesn’t buy happiness, but I’m fucking depressed because I have no income. I need this internship to graduate. I tried a night job and I was so mentally exhausted. I had to quit after one shift. I felt so bad, but I was about to pass out and I had to leave asap

 

I agree with you! I'm back to making min wage which has gotten me at a low (I've also been there with no income). I was doing good saving and now I'm not going to have anything to save- hence why I'm at a low. I got call for interview at a place I didn't think would contact me, but night job and I don't know how people do nights. I feel like money can buy happiness because if you have money you usually don't have to worry about expenses (if you can pay for it without stress). For me, no/not enough money turns into worry/anxiety, which turns into depression and me complaining.

Anyway I wish you the best. Sending positive vibes your way.

 

yeah it might not buy happiness but it buys a fuck ton of other things that can make you happy, like not stressing about bills. shiiiiit

i used to love night shifts when i was younger. so nice and quiet. dunno now though ha