Lyric-a-Day.fm • Page 22

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
And I'll be taken over by the fear

 

And I walked off you
And I walked off an old me

 

I'm on top of the world
I know nothing at all

 

I don't need nobody trying to make me over
I just wanna live simple and free
I just wanna get away
Save it, all your bullshit, for another day

Feeling confined, like I'm being forced in
My vision's blurry and I'm lost in regrets
It's overload, and I'm out of control

So sick and tired of feeling so misused
Taking me down with all your mental abuse
I must say, gotta get you out of my head

 

And I'm the kind of love it hurts to look at
But once I was enough to make you try
Now I'm underneath the rubble
Trying not to feel the trouble
And you don't care for me enough to cry

So here's hoping I can change tomorrow
You wanted hard as nails cut and dry
But I beg, steal, and borrow
I'm so damn good at sorrow
And you don't care for me enough to cry

 

In vibrant hues in subtle brush strokes of memory
The life I’ve painted I have sold for a quick twenty

 

Blood on the carpet. Mud on the mattress
Waking up with that American Sadness
Dead receptors. Body limitations
Weak handshakes and great expectations
Bountiful chemicals. Beautiful kitchens
So many choices. Decisions, decisions
I said a couple things that probably weren't technically true

 

Don't say we're healing when it's just not what we do

 

Oh, I'm about to break
I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure
And I'm feindin' for a cure
Every step I take
Leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need, oh
I can't mend, this torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return
What did I do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from


Every time I try to grasp for air
I am smothered in despair it's never over, over
It seems I'll never wake from this nightmare
I let out a silent prayer let it be over, over
Inside I'm screaming, begging, pleading no more


I don't know what to do
My heart has been bruised
So sad but it's true
Each beat reminds me of you

 

I wanna be solid as the earth and cool like the night air
I wanna believe even though I know life don't play fair
I wanna wear my heart on my sleeve but be tough when I have to
I wanna dust off the stars and hang them on the wall for you

I wanna ask all the questions with answers we'll never know
I wanna find my faith in records from long ago
I wanna set fear on fire and give dreaming a fair shot
And never give up whether anybody cares or not

 

It’s on a whim; it’s on a dare
To shrug away what we can’t bear

 

I don't wanna die today
I wanna live and love and write it down

 

every shining time you arrive

 

There's a club if you'd like to go
you could meet somebody who really loves you
so you go, and you stand on your own
and you leave on your own
and you go home, and you cry
and you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now"
well, when exactly do you mean?
see I've already waited too long
and all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

 

Something down on the ground
Won't let her out, it holds her in
And he's afraid if she flies
She'll never come home again
Something about the bird
And her spreading those wings
Always brings the rifle out in him

But the rifle loves the bird when she's singing
And he knows every word to every song
And the bird, she loves the rifle
Cause he's dangerous, stubborn and strong

 

When I look back upon my life
it’s always with a sense of shame
I’ve always been the one to blame
For everything I long to do
no matter when or where or who
has one thing in common too

It’s a, it’s a, it’s a, it’s a sin
It’s a sin
Everything I’ve ever done
Everything I ever do
Every place I’ve ever been
Everywhere I’m going to
It’s a sin

 

all the stars are still shining
but you're the only one i see
i can feel when your heart beats, yeah
and you can't keep your eyes off me

 

On a ship full of things that float
You would go down with the hull

 

Stay 'till the darkness leaves
Stay here with me
I know you're busy, I know I'm just one
But you might be the only one who sees me
The only one to save me

Why is it so hard?
Why can't you just take me?
I don't have much to go
Before I fade completely

Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life

 

There isn't a proper word
For that snapping sound
From stretching your problems so thin
They eventually collapse
No accidental word
For disguising friends
You can't find time for
Appearing less, growing thin
Too afraid of losing touch
Too afraid of falling behind
And I can't slow

 

I hate myself but that's okay

 

I wouldn't have blamed you
For leaving me there on the porch while you drank gasoline
'cause it's what you needed

And it's true
It's nothing that we could do

 

I watched them leave me behind like living debris
Fortunately, I know that I'm not worth it
In my purest form, I was never good enough for anyone
Why did I think that this time it'd be different?

 

I’ve just tried to move past
But lately it seems like my insecurities have got the best of me
And I’m no longer in control
No one should ever have to feel like this
To feel like me
And even though the good I have outweighs the bad,
The bad is what’s leaving me with sleepless nights

 

Passed another pointless year
Foaming at the mouth
I with my hands have a rope
And you're stretching out
I know I've run out of luck
This fear is a terrible drug
If I only had sense enough
To let it give way to love