Mental Health Thread • Page 64

So I've been in group therapy at school via the recommendation by my therapist (also from school). The group is basically for social anxiety/loneliness. It's pretty much just me and two other people at this point and honestly I'm just not sure what I'm getting out of it. My "goal" was to be able to better initiate conversation with strangers because I feel like any friends I've ever had have been like introduced to me by other friends. But I've been several times and I just don't think it's really helping me. It's kind of a nice support system I guess?

I feel like the counselors and members kind of guilt me/force me into making a comment in the conversation that I don't really feel like I have any feelings in/have anything to add to... I'm just already kind of pressed for time this semester and I'd feel bad leaving just those two in the group but......... why am I still going if i'm not "making progress toward my goal," which is what we start every week out with talking about. I'm super frustrated. Every week I dread going more and more and it's been giving me anxiety all day thinking about going/not going

 

Thank you.

Also, having ample time to sleep really does wonders. Less time for my brain to overthink, and less chance to be grumpy during the waking hours.

 

My lovely attempt at standing up for myself lol. idk. talking to her is pointless. she is incapable of having a convo without yelling and screaming. I use "i" statements and everything lol but she won't even let u finish talking without interrupting with her screaming so I settled for being kinda rude cause I'm over it. normally I would pretend I'm not upset and go with her so that's nice

 

I can't stop focusing on J.C. Penney being spelled wrong, I would be basic enough to know this haha

 

Hit her with the OK. That really seems to piss a lot of people off haha Good for you.

 

I noticed that too. I also have no idea why she wanted to go there lmao she has never asked me to take her there before but it's one of like two clothing stores in town.

 

yeah you'd think she'd be too cool to shop there

 

I've had a really strange year mentally. I weened myself off of Lexapro late last year and I thought it was going fine. The start of 2016 had me really stressed out due to work and my relationship/living situation. Then as time progressed I got to a really really bad place in my head. Started having extreme anxiety/obsessive thoughts that were really awful. Then in late spring I smoked some weed, had a major panic attack that landed me in the hospital. So now I'm back on medicine and slowly trying to rebuild, but so far it's been a long and slow process and my life is constantly in flux so it's hard to get into a routine.

I'm thinking of either going off the medicine again or changing it, because I feel kind of emotionless/slow right now. I just want to get to a place of normalcy.

 

Any tips for dealing with insomnia

Slept about 3 hours in two days and I'm fucking exhausted and fragile

 

Wish there was a way to help. I was diagnosed at 7 with insomnia and I still go days without sleeping. Tried every medicine you can think of.

 

We're understaffed, underpaid, and overworked at my job. Today I woke up with my body aching more than normal. I was asked to come in early, again. Nope. No more of this last minute "can you come in early" only for me to work a miserable 12 hour shift. I don't know what to do. I'm looking for a different job, but there's nothing available :(

 

Doctors appointment tomorrow. Going back on them meds.

 

Is it normal to feel like you're going to get sick every 5 minutes for 7 days in a row after a breakup? I've never felt this way before after a breakup. I feel like I'm going through a fucking divorce.

 

I don't know the accuracy of this quote, or who the fuck Charles is, but I enjoyed this. Surely someone else will, too.

 

The ever improving understanding between me and my girl of truly understanding one another is really making me realize how much that helps me realize myself and all my mental baggage. (Things I really sort of knew but never understood to how to sort really cus whats the use when I'm the only one who seems to grasp the situation? Wheres the support/tutorial?) It's really humbling and makes me happy cus I can feel almost a sense of clarity. A deep breathe of air cus as dramatic as it will sound that lack of true understanding for years was very strangling and only till I had that understanding did I realize how bad it was really holding me back.

 

I have a few coworkers a lil older than my mom and they're very maternal. yesterday I was talking to one of them and she was like "you need a mom." I've never mentioned my mom really or our relationship so Im like dang are my mommy issues that blatant??

 

I wish I could respond and contribute more to this thread but I feel like what I would post would not be helpful at all seeing as I have not been through half of what you guys have been through. I do read every post & don't want anyone to feel like they've been passed over or ignored

 

Lol I been here before, more than a few of my ex's and friends Mom's always would go out of their way to be motherly to me even when I wasn't out here looking for it. My one ex's Mom even offered to let me move in before we were even together a year because she could tell I didn't have much in the way of a relationship with my family and especially my Mother back than. Use to make me wonder the same exact thing lol.

 

When I went through the end of my marriage (like when she moved out, the divorce was a formality), I lost a ton of weight. I'd be so hungry and then eat 2 bites of food and feel sick. Rinse and repeat. I think it's normal.

This might sound really weird, but at that time I found the comic Hyperbole and a Half, and I have never laughed harder while feeling like utter shit. Give her a try.

 

Seconding the Hyperbole and a Half recommendation - what a great comic, especially for bad times. I've also been physically sick as a result of a breakup once before. It sucks, and I hope things ease up for you soon.

 

Hyperbole and a Half rules. And so does everyone in this thread.

 

does anyone ever think they're not meant for this world? i mean this in a sense beyond "people don't understand me; i'm so alone" but in a "everything is shit so what's the point?" kind of way? i went to college ten years after high school with the intent to contribute something worthwhile to society but i'm at the point where i can barely make it to class and just think that its all bullshit anyways. thats where i've been today, and the only thing that has kept me from going completely off the deep end is substances, which is not how i want to live.

 

That feeling is fairly normal and the more i deal with the same the more I wonder (admittedly) how much "figuring it all out" is truly meant for everyone. However the rain is always harder than it seems I found. Doesn't make anything easier, perspective is subjective but I dealt with those feelings hardcore from 2006-2015 myself. Even now I fight but luckily I have SOMEONE for some sense of a reason; but I get where people are lost.

I can't and won't condone for the feeling for both other's and my own stance of that sense of hopelessness, but I'd be lying if I didn't say from the handful of people I have spoke to in similar veins it's common. Overcoming that seems to be what separates people - and I'm right there myself atm lol.

 

I feel this almost every damn day.

 

Talking to my mom about depression can be so frustrating. "Why can't you be open with me?" "I just wanna know how you feel." "Are you sure you want to go back on medication?"

it's the same conversation every time. I'm not open with people because i'm depressed. Talking about how shitty my life feels doesn't make me feel better, it makes me feel worse. Subtly guilting me about medication is dumb.