Mental Health Thread • Page 454

Finally talked to my doctor about treating my somewhat general, all the time and travel-induced anxiety and they put me on lexapro. Hope it helps.

 

We have very similar experiences with our sexual orientation lol I wouldnt say my household was taboo about sex but it def wasn’t addressed all that much. But yeah I’ve bounced between asexual, bi, and queer and the reality is I just don’t know if any word fits how I feel lol. It also largely doesn’t matter because I’ve had the same partner for 8 years and genuinely do not find myself attracted to anybody but her anymore lol

 

I’ve only been at it for three weeks and I’m exhausted. I’ve sent our 50 applications and heard back from maybe five places. I’ve had three interviews, one of which ghosted me after offering a stage shift to test it out, and one of which I advanced to the second interview but am now anxiously waiting to be invited to the third (I feel like the second went extremely well) and refreshing my email constantly to see if they’ve contacted me yet. It took them a week to interview me the first time and another week to do the second so if it’s another week before this third and another week to start training I’m gonna lose it. Or if I go through all this to ultimately not get the job. I haven’t had a job since February and my parents are taking care of my basic necessities but I need to start making money again for my own sake.

 

Relate to this so much. I also hate feeling like I’m appropriating some term (feel/felt this way about being on the spectrum as well) and like I’m not deserving or worthy of another label — especially if I’m not publicly declaring or acting on it. Like I want and love one person and it’s not my “queer side.”

 

Very much identify with this as well. I probably would have felt more comfortable with my identity if I had more time to explore it/figured it out before meeting my wife in high school as opposed to after. Now I'm afraid she or other family members wouldn't get it.

 

lol I missed a call earlier, I get random calls all the time from debt collectors and such so I rarely answer unknown numbers. I let it go through they didn’t leave a message. Plug into google and it’s the business I’m waiting to hear back from for a third interview. But no voicemail, no email, no text, and was never told who it is that was calling me and it’s a very large business with a front desk that wouldn’t be able to help me without a name anyway. So wtf do I do????? Fuck. I did just get a call for another interview tomorrow, I already have one at 3 and this one is at 4 so hopefully I have time to make it over there. The place I’m waiting to hear from for interview number 3 is my top place I want to work of everywhere I’ve applied but the two places I’m interviewing at tomorrow would be pretty great too. Hell, I’ve got ANOTHER back up interview Tuesday as well that seems like a decent place to work. Although again last week I had three interviews lined up and two fizzled and one is taking forever to nail the job down. I just wanna start working and be done with this. Going through training and meeting a bunch of new people is going to be a whole other problem but I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.



edit: Okay thank god he called again, I’m doing a phone interview with the guy tomorrow. Basically I’m interviewing for a serving position at a restaurant inside of a hotel, a very luxurious upscale hotel and a restaurant owned by a very famous chef but anyway I had my first phone interview with the hotels food and bev coordinator than I had my second in person interview with the restaurant GM now I have a third interview which will be another phone interview with the hotel manager. like I said I want this job so bad because it’ll be the best money I’ll ever make waiting tables

 

Realized I have no confidence in myself regarding work rn. Between the interview rejections and some work feedback I got (not necessarily negative but it feels like it), I'm just a shell of myself.

 

I thought I’d never bounce back from some of the shit I endured in the last few months at my last job in addition to my personal life falling apart throughout it all. I had a manager lying to my face about my future and how my relapse didn’t impact my trajectory and later learned from the district manager I was 100% being held back over my absences (directly related to my disability but ok) and was seen as inconsistent and unreliable. Heavily contributed to my complete emotional breakdown I just felt worthless and under appreciated especially when the stress of constantly going above and beyond for my job was what caused me to burn out and relapse. I wanted to leave the industry altogether this time but with my only real work experience being in food service and restaurants it’s pretty much impossible to switch lanes without going back to school or withstanding months and months of rejections until I maybe get lucky. I tried to apply to a few dispensaries and all of them did not select my application, you’d think it would be self evident that working front of house at a restaurant transfers to customer service and a myriad of other skills but I guess nobody else realizes that. I have so many great transferable skills I could use in a wide variety of fields but without experience in a specific category you’re fucked.

 

I don’t have too much to add but I’m in the same boat of looking for a new job and therapist and want to wish you all the best. Both processes are so fucking hard when you’re already feeling like shit about yourself.

 

Truly amazing how fast I’m able to torpedo my life

 

I routinely shock myself how good I am at it

 

Well my first ever date was bad and very uncomfortable and I don’t know if I want to date anymore lol He kept trying to touch me and I was really uncomfortable and we were at a public place but like no one was there so I was really scared that he was gonna get mad when I kept rejecting him. He tried to kiss me multiple times when I said I was not interested at all. It was not good and now I gotta figure out how to tell him I’m not interested and don’t want to see him again. Being a woman is truly terrifying sometimes!!

 

Wtfffff that is SO off I'm sorry that happened to you. Situations like that are why I'm not mad when women ghost men sometimes tbh because it doesn't always feel safe to have that confrontation with someone who has shown that they either can't sense boundaries or deliberately ignores them

 

Yeah honestly ghost him. Fuck that guy.

 

This is 100% not normal! He’s a creep and you should just ghost him.

 

Got a job offer from the four seasons hotel where one Gordon Ramsay has a new restaurant

 

SICK. Are you working in the restaurant itself?

 

Yep as a server

 

So cool! Congrats

 

five months ago I was laying in a hospital bed pretty convinced my life was over I honestly can’t believe what I’ve already been able to achieve since then but this is massive

 

Say hi to Gordon for me

 

I have a plan to get my nephew on master chef junior, he was born in March so plenty of time to groom him for it

 

Tell him we need a new season of Hotel Hell