Mental Health Thread • Page 388

I fucking hate Mondays

 

It has hardly snowed here in MA and I just want a fucking adult snow day damn it.

 

same

 

My wife tried to overdose this past weekend. She was in the hospital and just got out today. This on top of her 2 weeks ago telling me she wants to be polyamorous - I am trying to be open to it but it is really hard she already has a new girlfriend. I really don't want my marriage to end. This also on top of me trying to figure out myself and looking into top surgery as my gender dysphoria has been out of control lately. Plus we have 2 kids and I am trying to stay strong for them. I haven't been eating (which is weird for me bc food is my comfort always) or sleeping in days. I feel so alone and sad and scared. Just had to put it out there in the universe somewhere. So thanks for reading/listening.

 

This is...a lot. I'm so, so sorry. I don't know if it's an option between time and money, but are you seeing a therapist? Is she? Try to be strong for her while taking care of yourself. You sound like a great parent and partner; you're just navigating a lot right now. It will all shake out, and some of it might not in the way you want it to, but you will make it to the other side of this. Thinking of you my inbox is open if you ever need to vent.

 

I really appreciate this. I do have a therapist I have been seeing regularly for a few years and she is honestly keeping me afloat right now. I see her again on Wednesday. My wife is now basically mandated to go back to therapy with her safety plan when she got out of the hospital. So hopefully that will help. I want to eventually try to go to counseling together too about the polyamorous stuff to try to navigate it or at least help me understand it more (its easy to beat myself up with what am I doing wrong that she needs to find someone else to fill a void even though she tells me thats not it at all). Again, I don't want to lose my marriage and I am open to trying it but I have a lot of fear around it and know in my gut I have to ultimately just take care of my self if I can't handle it or it is making my anxiety/depression worse. Thank you so much for the response though and offer for the open inbox. I have loved this community since the early absolutepunk days and even though I don't post a alot I feel lucky to have a safe place to put it out into the universe and get immediate support.

 

I never check the off topic side of the forum, so never really knew this thread was here.

Definitely take care of yourself. As someone who was polybombed over the summer, I took it very hard. Everything felt like it happened in the blink of an eye. One night she drunkenly texted me about her thinking of it and the next she followed up saying she had a crush. She acted on it that same night. I was heartbroken and incredibly hurt. Like I new she was going to experience new emotions and want to explore her life as she transitioned, but I was not expecting it. My anxiety and depression ramped up the last six five months of 2022.

If you ever need to talk about it, just let me know! It can feel like a lonely experience. Still thankful @Aaron Mook was there for support during it.

 

Always here for you, bud I hope things have gotten better for you!

 

Also, some good news: I got approval to start taking classes for my master's in Mental Health Counseling as early as the fall semester

 

i wil

Congrats!!

 

I survived this. It felt like a bittersweet moment. My job is weird sometimes. People let their concerns be known but were not rude or adversarial to me which I appreciated. Ugh. But now I'm bummed for a different reason. Just a weird day

 

Really happy for you, bud

 

Not a significant / serious post and not to make me sound like I’m just a dumb monkey hitting a keyboard all day at work but goddamn I have not had so much shit happening at once that I had to stop and think through a plan of action for so many unique and ridiculous problems at work before. Had a headache by 9 and by 3 I legit asked myself what day it was and upon remembering it was only Monday afternoon kind of took a deep breath and surprised I didn’t just lay my head down on my desk and do nothing the rest of the day lol

 

Having one of those days where you just really want everyone around you to shut the fuck up for like, even a minute.

 

Feel anxious this week

 

Yeah, I am unwell. Time to schedule something with my therapist.

 

just here for your monthly reminder about how much Menopause fucking suuucckssssssss

 

I feel this. I fucking hate everything and everyone this week and its only wednesday.

 

Hey y’all, been super slammed with work and family this week but I’ve been seeing quite a few of us really struggling and I just wanted to let everyone know I’m sending out positive vibes in whatever form you prefer and hope it gets easier soon

 

Thanks bud I hope you're well!

 

Well, just busy! I started meds a few months ago and am finally feeling a little more stable despite still having jacked up sleep (babies am I right?) I’m going to be out of town for work most of the week next week so I’m sure everyone will be seeing more of me in the evenings when I’m lonely lol

 

I really dislike when I feel shame for not speaking with my mother since 2015. I feel it was and still is a necessary choice, but it’s like I’ve broken a family code and that comes back to loom over me from time to time.

I also really dislike that the catalyst for feeling this way currently has been a series of dreams involving her. They haven’t been surreal at all; they’re all just scenarios that feature some combination of her being passive-aggressive towards me, devaluing me, screaming at me, threatening me, and striking me—things from my life.

It’ll pass, but these thoughts have started to bleed into my waking hours too, and it’s so fucking disruptive and emotionally draining.

 

I'm sorry I've had similar dreams about friends I've had to cut out, and while those don't sound as intense, they are definitely draining and leave me in a bad place when I'm awake. I'm glad you feel secure in your choice, but I'm sorry your brain is playing tricks on you right now.

 

I called my doctor's office to speak with a psychiatrist for meds. My first time meeting with this provider. My pcp is in the same office but they want me to meet with a different person for meds. I called Monday and they got me in Wednesday. But I realized I had a work conflict and called just over 24 hours in advance to reschedule and they gave me a lecture about how it's a late cancelation and if I make it a habit they will refuse to see me. I made the appt less than 24 hours before I canceled and canceled with at least 24 hours notice so I was a little frustrated. I have a hectic job where things can pop up unexpectedly and it sucks to be penalized. Like thank God I was cautious and rescheduled because I had to deal with a huge and serious issue at work that I could never have foreseen. While I have some complaints about my therapist I appreciate that she and I work in a similar field and she never charges me for canceling with short notice if an emergency comes up. I understand doctors have their own stuff and deal with flaky people all the time but it's already inconvenient to work a 8-5 job and only be able to schedule appts within business hours in the middle of my work day, let alone having an unpredictable job where most days don't go as planned. Just feels like I'm starting off on a bad foot with negative vibes

 

Biggest thing that bugs me about therapy (and it’s her company’s policy, not hers, but still), is that I get charged if I cancel and it’s less than (2) days from the appointment. She had to cancel two HOURS before our session last week and I don’t get reimbursed or a free session.