Mental Health Thread • Page 231

I feel more and more like checking out every day

 

If I have to repeatedly be triggered every time I go online or watch the news, I hope all of this is making my rapist feel at least a little guilt/shame and that our ex-mutual friends feel guilty for supporting a rapist over their friend, who they actually did believe (they just "forgave" him).

This is a bad time to not have a therapist.

 

i engaged in self harm last night because of something someone on this website said to me

 

Report them.

 

i don’t want to bring attention to them or anything they didn’t maliciously do it im just not very stable right now. and i just posted here to get it off my chest. thank you sincerely for looking out though

 

you buddy

 

Let me preface this by saying I am NOT trying to victim blame. But if this site is a trigger, take a break from it, even if it’s for a while, and engage in self-care (no pun intended...but maybe?). Work on music or listen to 1975 or something.

 

I totally feel you. My girlfriend said the same thing. At the very least I need to stick to more low key threads where people just shoot the shit. Inserting myself in these intense arguments and taking a vocal role has never been good for me. Thanks again

 

Jake, I care about you immensely and I’m here any time you need a friend please do what you need to look after yourself

 

Yeah dude. There are people that care about you here. It's a tragic place to be right now then take a break. Do everything to look after yourself. Noone is going to think any worse for it and we can all wait on you returning fitter and healthier.

As always, everyone's inboxes are open for things.

 

Love you Jake

I get it sometimes with Twitter like it's such good stress relief until it isn't and you have to see vile hate speech

 

@sophos34 I hope today is better for you and you're taking care of yourself

 

The political news and the Pinegrove stuff is clearly starting to really get to me because I had an awful nightmare about having to go on the run from my abusive ex last night and that was uh.......Not Fun.

 

Yeah these last few days, including earlier today, I felt like I was about to have a breakdown at any moment. Thankfully I've been able to relax a bit by listening to music and writing songs, but it's getting harder to manage the anxiety.

On the bright side, I'm like "One more week to go before I finally see my therapist", but it will be the first meeting since I left the clinic, so one month and a half without a mental health professional to reach out to. Frustrating.


@sophos34 If you need to vent, my dms are open. I hope you feel even a slightest bit better today.

 

Had a freak out last night from a lot of pent up stress/anxiety/anger mostly related to my job and ended up punching my dresser which left me with a hefty bruise on my hand. Not proud of it but at the time it felt like my only option. Ugh.

My job is bringing me down so much, I'm not sure how much longer I can take it. The only reason I'm trying to stick it out until next summer is because it's helping me pay off some debt before I go back to school and take a huge pay cut. I'm starting to think my mental health is more important than money. I can figure that out later, even if it means using part of my 401(k) to pay off this debt. I said I'd never do that but if I kill myself before next summer, a 401(k) doesn't mean shit.

 

Mental health is more important than money. I’m in the same situation and...it’s hard to convince myself of that at times, but it is true.

 

I've been so stressed. My dreams are stressful too so I wake up stressed which is a sucky way to start the day. I'm tense and anxious constantly. I feel like I'm putting so much stress on my heart but I rly suck at relaxing. Basically every day I am stressed and tired and unmotivated. It's super fun obv.

Weekends should really be three days long. Sunday basically doesn't count cause u have to spend it bracing for Monday smh

 

I should probably get sober (alcohol), would solve alot of issues I've been dealing with recently

 

Everything on the news and the discourse it has inspired has been so utterly mentally exhausting

 

it’s been two weeks since I’ve left my old job and I feel so much more happier. I am struggling with the wait for my new job to start so I’ve been so bored besides school.

I’m also trying to start getting rid of a bunch bad habits starting tomorrow so that should be interesting.

 

Sometimes I fantasize about going back to basics like taking a pay cut and just doing something low stress and whimsical idek lol but then I think of my car payment and student loans and rent and just... Heavy sigh. Honestly part of me just wants to get rid of a ton of my stuff and then go move somewhere but like even in movies when they do that they always still have a cute quirky apartment like LIIIIES. Like when did I become an adult and have to think "but what about retirement and/or health insurance?" like lmao how did I get here it's awful. I want all my debt gone so I can just chill and not feel so tied down. And then it's like could u be any more privileged to want to get rid of like all this stability? But it doesn't make me happy either sooooo idk idk will anything make me happy at this point?

 

I desperately need a new job but I’m already having anxiety about having to stay in said job for a certain amount of time. I want to be in a city and I know the whole “timetable” thing is bullshit like the prospect of being in my late 20s in NH shouldn’t matter but it does. I haven’t even gotten a new job yet but I already have these self-sabotaging thoughts. I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy with what I have or if I’ll always want to be somewhere else. I always have one foot out the door.

 

Capitalism is hell

 

yeah I'm miserable at my current job and it's so hard getting a new one because everyone wants experience and I was supposed to magically know what skills would be deemed marketable, and I still don't know what I want to do with my life, and I get depressed about the whole thing but then remind myself it's silly and that shouldn't be how I deem my worth as a person

 

my job is a joke and i'm pretty miserable about it and can barely pay bills even though it pays well above most other starting positions I'm qualified for. Plus I'm a bad interview which is a result of me being not personable which is a whole other set of things that weighs on me