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Mental Health Thread • Page 168

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Shakriel

    I wanna feel like I feel when I'm asleep. Prestigious

    Ah yes, time for my usual post-holidays mental collapse where my emotions are all over the fucking place, even more than normal. Fucking hate myself.
     
  2. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    Two things:

    My doctor named Tammy really must be a long con. The med she's putting me on is going to be $300+ even with a coupon, and when I called the office today to say "lol nope please help," they had me come in and take two boxes of samples. Fuckin "$150" in free damn medicine. I am floored right now. Also really annoyed at health insurance and the orange goon whose sole mission is to undo what the black guy did while personally enriching himself.

    Was listening to FOB on the way home: "One day we'll get nostalgic for disaster" and my first thought after that was "but thoughts are just vapor, and you've set good healthy boundaries that you stick to, so go about your day." Food for thought.
     
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  3. Carmen SD

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    I thought being sat on only happens in movies. Didn’t know it could actually happen irl. I don’t think that has happened to me- nothing that I can remember. I’ve stopped bothering making certain posts on social media because I don’t want people to all the sudden care out of no where. It just sucks that people that use to care seemed to have stopped
     
  4. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    FWIW, people are inherently self-centered. I don't know any of the people in your life, but that tends to be human nature. Sometimes that's a good thing and other times...they might just have no idea you're struggling and they aren't doing enough.
     
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  5. ChaseTx

    Big hat enthusiast Prestigious

    My anxiety is at a high point these past couple weeks or so, as bad or worse than it was when I went on Lexapro earlier this year and went to a couple therapy sessions. I don't wanna go back on it because of the side effects and therapy was too expensive to keep up ($35 copay per session) so I'm hoping it recedes a bit. But it's definitely affecting my relationships and how I interact with people. It's like a mounting pressure and an irrational feeling that something isn't right.

    I also have a tendency to lean on things like checking my phone (chorus, social media, etc) rather than engaging, or focusing all my energy on one thing. And I need to stop those
     
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  6. bigmike

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    I thought I would feel relieved after Christmas was over but now I feel like I’m just hitting a low.
     
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  7. Shakriel

    I wanna feel like I feel when I'm asleep. Prestigious

    Tomorrow I return to my empty apartment. Fuck.

    Least I don't return to work until mid-next week, so plenty of time to become even more of a hermit, I guess...
     
  8. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    Do you live alone by choice?

    I live alone and sometimes feel a bit isolated, but the other day I spent the night at my dad's and I was so grateful to come back to an empty apartment. But if u ever feel too lonely u always have this thread. Wish you well!
     
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  9. Shakriel

    I wanna feel like I feel when I'm asleep. Prestigious

    Yeah, by choice. Overall, I like living alone, but anytime I return from visiting family out of state, it feels a little too empty for a day or two until I settle back in.

    Most of the issue is that I see how my parents have each other and a busy life and my sister has a bunch of friends, and I don't...really have any of that? Most of that is my fault since I don't enjoy going out much, but everyone (whether that's family or friends) have moved away from my state over the last few years and now it's just me fruitlessly trying to escape too.

    I just get profoundly lonely for a short while until my brain pushes it all to the back of my thoughts. Thank you! :heart:
     
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  10. bigmike

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    I've been trying to combat isolating myself since my breakup and moving into my own place. My job involves me talking to a lot of people throughout the day so when I come home I just am glad to not be speaking. It's easy to get in this loop of just looking forward to be home then suddenly I haven't seen my friends like three weeks. It's a bad habit.
     
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  11. RobJGolde

    Wrecked 'em? Damn near killed 'em!

    I've got my first appointment today with my new therapist. Looking forward to it :-) my girlfriend and I had a nice relaxing holiday and a nice night last night, but this fucking seasonal depression still keeps me from being fully present and I wanna get out of that head-space asap. She's been really patient and understanding though, and I'm so grateful for that.
     
  12. ImAMetaphor

    one with the riverbed Prestigious

    Meeting with a doctor for the first time in probably 5 years to talk about my mental health today. I’m kind of terrified but also excited.
     
  13. RobJGolde

    Wrecked 'em? Damn near killed 'em!

    Good luck! You’ve got this :)
     
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  14. Jams

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    The only person I ever even bring up my depression around is my mom. The rest of my family just tells me mine isn’t bad and everyone else has it worse so I don’t even bother. Now my mom said I’m not allowed to bring it up anymore and to keep it to myself bc it is too “negative” and she can only be around “positive” energy and told me it’s my fault I’m depressed and basically chose to be this way. According to her I just need to think positive and I’ll be all better. I’m so sick of this shit.
     
  15. RobJGolde

    Wrecked 'em? Damn near killed 'em!

    Ugh really? I'm so sorry to hear that. FWIW, how you feel is completely valid and it's okay to not be okay. It's a part of life for everyone, and many people just feel it worse than others. You deserve a better support system. None of us chose to feel the way we do. I hope you keep pushing forward, and seek proper care/help. You've always got a voice here. We hear you, we see you.
     
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  16. ChaseTx

    Big hat enthusiast Prestigious

    Now that I've thought more about it I need to do something. I thought I had gotten better but I haven't. I'm going to go to my psychologist at least for one session. And if my physician recommends another course of medication when I go I will try it. I don't really have a lot of people I talk to about it when I feel down, pretty much my gf and I don't want to put all of it on her
     
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  17. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    I mention my depression sometimes in passing to my family but I think it's just one of those things that has always been. Like everyone knows Kiana has depression. But my dad is the only one I've ever really been able to relate to about it. I don't go super in depth about it to anyone and I don't think they know the extent it's been lately, tho I did tell my sisters I'm trying to contact a therapist. I haven't been working cause winter break so I've been doing a lot better. Kinda confirms that work is the rly big trigger rn. I am dreading going back next week.
     
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  18. Shakriel

    I wanna feel like I feel when I'm asleep. Prestigious

    My sister is the only one who might know about my mental health issues, though I bet my mother probably has some idea. They got my sister help when she was in middle school when it became outwardly obvious she wasn't doing so well. I've sort of avoided all that by being unconsciously private. I'm also a very sarcastic person and have a dark sense of humor, so no one can really tell (usually) if what I'm saying might be some true issue or just some dark comment.

    I know eventually (probably sooner rather than later) that I'll need to get help. I haven't been doing real well over the past year and have some self-harm thoughts, I just haven't been willing to look for a therapist or anything. Part of it is because I hope to move out of state sometime in the next couple months (if I finally have some good luck) and the other part is that I'm not real great at opening up, I can, just not super awesome at it.
     
  19. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    Okay so A she's wrong on a scientific level B I'm guessing she's being selfish and C yes having perspective is good, but everyone's issues are valid. I see this as an excellent opportunity for you to set a boundary here.
     
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  20. BirdPerson

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    My brother knows I got to the point where I put my head through the belt loop but changed my mind. At this point I'm so far removed from that time it'd only upset them to find out how bad my depression got. They know I am in therapy and take pills every day though.
     
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  21. iCarly Rae Jepsen

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    My anxiety is unfortunately incredibly obvious
     
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  22. St. Nate

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  23. ImAMetaphor

    one with the riverbed Prestigious

    Anyone have experience with Celexa?
     
  24. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    Yes and I will return to this post later
     
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  25. BirdPerson

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    Here's what I can tell you about Celexa. I was on it for about 5 years. It definitely worked for me in combination with wellbutrin. I no longer felt like I was going to cry/break down constantly. Don't drink on it. Your hangovers will suck even more. When I'd forget to take it, I'd get bad night sweats.

    I'm currently on Lexapro, which is a more isolated molecule of what's in Celexa, but we're weaning me off that onto Zoloft because my anxiety is worse than my depression at this point.
     
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