Mental Health Thread • Page 79

Just want to point out that this isn't the place to call people out for their politics or belittle others. This thread is very much not the place for anything like that. Take it up in politics or something.

thnxbye

 

Did someone call another out on their political views? I see people voicing their own, but I don't see any belittling or calling people out.

 

The post was deleted.

 

Well I finally got some certainty on the job I was going through the process of getting lol.
They called me telling me to come in tomorrow anytime after 11 for an on boarding. I was thrown off at first cus no one even called me saying I got it or not, last I heard from them was they just got my info for a background check.

Good news for the day. Guess I'll have a mini celebration tonight aka personal party lol.

 

So I'm an idiot. What's an on boarding?

 

It was the first a job hit me with that word to but its basically just a Intro to your new job 101 course type thing.

 

Oh cool. Have fun.

 

I've been feeling weird for such a long fucking time. Like, I think I feel better than this time last year. I think I'm less stressed, but I also think stress is just showing up in different ways. I'm still always tired and basically just pumping myself with coffee every day. I'm constantly in a sort of brain fog, and I'm not sure if it's getting a little better or I'm just getting used to it. I also need to get off the internet and do other things with my life but I don't have any friends where I'm living currently so I feel pretty isolated.

 

Someone: "So, you're in?"
Me: "Maybe. I don't want to say yes and then flake out at the last second."
Someone: "Well, you could say yes and then not flake out."
Me on the inside: "THAT'S NOW HOW MY LIFE WORKS."

 

Anxiety test day, was going to the on boarding this morning (after being told to come 11, i was called at quarter to 10 like "We're here, waiting" blah) - en route I stop for gas. I get there fine, go to start up after fueling up - wont kick over at all.
Jesus christ - I call my friend whos a mechanic and he tells its the starter shitting out. Well fuck me...
I call hoping theyll be understanding and they seemed to so thats a weight off my back - my friend got the starter for shockingly cheap cus of his business deals so it only cost me 110$ fo the part/install and another 20 for lunch lol.
So overall the outcome of the day wasn't SO BAD (bit frigid cold though) but god... the start was so concerning. Had me here like "Well.... fuck good first impressions I guess.... hope they don't say fuck this guy."

 

With my job on my first day we had a training and I got lost cause my GPS kept taking me to random empty fields and I was like an hour late and was sure they'd hate me, but it worked out! Tbh most ppl understand that things happen, and if they don't, like meh you'd prob be miserable somewhere that gives no room for people to be human and things to happen. Hopefully your second impression goes better!

 

always appreciate when people like her talk about it
Emma Stone's Battle With Shyness, Panic Attacks and Phobias on the Way to the Oscars

 

Been having a lot of off nights lately. It's tough. I spend a lot of time alone now which I haven't had to do since I was using and before then. Granted I'm not alone all the time which is nice, but the girl is busy and has her own life and I don't really have a life here yet and things just get lonely. I get down and I get anxious when she's out and I'm alone. I'm terrified if it stays like this I'm just waiting for a relapse. A job may help, but I also fear a job may just make a relapse more likely with the money I have. I guess I'm just still adjusting and it's a process that's taking more time than I thought. I romanticized what this would be like in my head and now that the sheen of a new place is wearing off I'm kind of floundering.

 

past few days have been rouuuughhhh

 

Agreed.❤❤❤

 

pretty much the tl;dr of my post hehe

 

I can already tell this weekend won't be long enough

 

Today I had an opportunity to spend a few hours with my girlfriends and I declined because I felt really tired and weird and couldn't bring myself to get up, and now I feel really bad about it. She isn't upset or anything, she said she thinks it's better for me to stay home and rest, but I know spending time with her would have probably made me feel better for at least those 3-4 hours and I can't really figure out why I said no.

Also, trying just to keep up with the sheer volume of shit that happened this week politically is intensely draining. I have no idea how I'll be able to keep it up for 4 years.

I guess one good thing is there are seriously 6 albums coming out tomorrow that I want to listen to, which will give me something to distract myself with this weekend.

 

me and my gf nearly cried this morning when we read trump was threatening to cut federal funding from philly, that would be so terrible. we were gonna go to the huge protest but she was super sick

 

I thought I could prepare myself for the depression bc of politics but like @mad said it's been rooouuuuugh.

 

i dont know how im gonna stomach four years of this


or, god fucking forbid, 8

 

Tbh I used to get annoyed by ppl who turned off the news or didn't read up cause like it's still going on and ignorance doesn't make it go away. And it seemed like a privilege to shut it off and pretend like it doesn't exist when not everyone can turn it off and ignore it. Buuuuut I get it now. since he was elected I legit cannot read anything about it at all. It feels hopeless and full of dread. Even the stuff mocking him, which I thought would be an amusing break, just kills me knowing that he's that inept and it doesn't matter. And I feel like now there's no line with nominees. We proved they can do whatever tf they want, professionalism or even just a facade of humanity be damned, and ppl will normalize it.

I guess this is more of a politics post now lol but there's just this perpetual weight. Tomorrow imma try to self care a bit

 

Someone on twitter threw 16 at me bc #Ivanka2024. I almost passed out.

 

and now i almost just passed out!

 

yeah im always going to be engaged and active in politics but i gotta start giving myself breaks here and there