Mental Health Thread • Page 40

Yea, finding a therapist that fits is crucial. Even though I like CBT, I've been to some CBT therapists who I just didn't click with. Has to be a person you feel comfortable talking to.

 

I had a really huge fight with a friend because they didn't know why I wasn't over my 5 year relationship ending after a week.
Honestly screw those people.

 

Thank you everyone, I'm so glad this thread exists.

 

I feel myself spiralling again. Is it normal to be kind of out of whack and a bit more up and down when you're still in the first month of am SSRI?

I can't tell if I'm noticing it more right now because I've been better and I'm just dipping down or if I'm being more mindful and this is just normal or what.

Definitely adding a mood tracker to my journal, though

 

I don't know if it's normal necessarily but I know that it can take 4-6 weeks for SSRI's to fully kick in. Have you been taking it consistently?

It's also possible that you're just not on the right med. I've tried Zoloft, Prozac, and Lexapro but for various reasons none have worked as well as Celexa for me.

Tracking moods is definitely useful! Maybe note what recent events could be contributing positively or negatively to your mood to see if you can detect a pattern?

 

Having no friends is really taking a toll on me. Really wish I had even just 1 person in my life who I could turn to for help but I really don't have anyone. The only "friend" I have, I know the relationship is very toxic and I need to cut her out of my life but then I will have no one so I keep putting up with her shit. So sick of just being used for money and having my kindness be taken advantage of. And every time I think I make a new friend, they either turn out to also be awful or they basically immediately start dating someone and then don't ever want to talk to me anymore. I wish it was easier to meet nice people with some common interests.

 

I basically compartmentalize things until I'm ready to deal and then when I am, I overthink it for months. Like when my brother in law was diagnosed with cancer I hardly told anyone and i'd get uncomfortable when they'd find out and ask me about it. Now for some reason a year later it feels like I'm telling everyone all the time and I can't stop myself. It's weird and idk if it's because I held it in for so long I wanna finally talk about it or what but I wish I could stop. It's like word vomit. I usually keep things inside or whine about it on here so I'm not a fan!

 

really anxious at the moment -_-'

 

Hugs.

 

Today I was remembering my 14th birthday party and how me and my friends were in the backyard and my parents were separated but were together for the party and we could hear them fighting and yelling and screaming at each other inside. I was so embarrassed I pretended I thought it was funny when I just wanted to cry. My friends still remember and bring it up sometimes even tho it was 10 years ago.

I kinda hate when those memories pop up. That's not the worst memory I have but there are so many lil ones and a couple of big ones I wish I could forget. It's funny cause if you ask my mom how my childhood was she'd def say it was good and happy, and my answer would be different. I'm supposed to see her tomorrow and it's like I'm filling myself with extra resentment to prepare ugggh

 

My parents have gotten so bad since I moved out and I feel so bad for my sister.... She's a freshman in college right now and my parents are making her life a living hell. They try to control her even though she's in college. She's an avid gamer (like myself) but they won't let her bring her gaming consoles to college because basically my mom told my sister "you're fat and playing xbox isn't going to help you lose weight". Like really? I feel so freaking helpless being on the other side of the country while my sister is basically being bullied by my parents. My parents have gotten really bad over the years. Like I hate the fact that one day I may just have to sever all ties with them. They haven't really been "parents" in a long-ass time. They try to bribe us with fake promises and expensive things that they can't afford and I'm so sick of it. Luckily my girlfriend's family is absolutely amazing and I can stay with them for the holidays. /end rant

 

I'm in this really bad "eating my feelings" cycle. I feel like shit so I binge eat stuff like pizza and chips, which makes me mad at myself and I start to feel worse. Cue more eating garbage. I've been consistently gaining weight over the past few years and I know I'm super unhealthy due to lack of exercise and poor diet. Thankfully my depression also causes my motivation to be basically nothing so actually fixing my bad habits feels impossible. Maybe I'll just have a heart attack and die, that'll fix everything.

 

Let’s Talk About Suicide Precisely Because It Makes Us Uncomfortable

National Suicide Prevention Month and I know I say it loads but I ❤️ you all and I'm always here for you!

Love this article.

F*ck Fear. Love Anyway.

 

spending my birthday alone bc i refuse to hang out with my ex bc i am not that pathetic!!

 

You aren't alone with this one. I'll be spending my birthday alone in a few weeks for the exact same reason.

 

I spent my bday alone watching Scrubs and eating pie in my bed lol. Loner bdays unite!

 

i'm literally about to finish all of the get down today

 

Having a panic attack waiting for the girl I like to text me back and let me know what time I should pick her up.
Haven't heard from her yet this morning, and there's no way she hasn't seen my text. The fear of being ghosted is real.

Edit: This is why I hate anxiety. She was sleeping, like any normal person would be doing on their day off at 8:30am. I need to calm down.

 

I know this feeling too well. Hope everything works out okay for you though. I'll be thinking about you.

 

Genuinely could not of been a better day. Went to the beach, had a picnic, ate ice cream.
Even though I know my anxiety is completely unfounded, I still sometimes let it get the better of me.

 

I'm so glad to hear that it went so well!

 

I saw this today and was like well this is accurate

 

Yep. I tend to overanalyze or read too much into just about everything. It's an awful feeling.

 

I feel like I'm treading water

 

That is half the battle. Keep doing it.