Mental Health Thread • Page 322

Suddenly got pretty sad. I’ve been thinking about my grandparents who are both 85+. I live less than 30 miles away but I don’t drive and I haven’t seen them since the pandemic started. Part of the reason I moved here was to be closer to them.

my grandpa has dementia-like symptoms. When you see someone frequently it’s kind of a frog in boiling water situation, where it’s easy to overlook any kind of mental deterioration. But I’m afraid when I’m able to see them again it’s going to be really evident.

 

Therapy went as well as can be expected. I mean, it was just the introduction, but she let me explain the situation and she asked enough questions to know show she was invested and trying to understand. But any solutions will have to wait until next time. Still, she is very nice and seems like a good fit. Hopefully, I'll be able to make a bit more progress next week.

Also chatted with my general practitioner today. He's been handling my meds since I've been stable on just antidepressants (no mood stabilizers needed anymore atm). But because I still have some anxiety and these obsessive tics or BFRB (body focused repetitive behaviors), he increased my Zoloft some. So, I have to keep an eye on this that it doesn't trigger any unhealthy elevated moods. Hopefully it will just be helpful though.

Oh, and I'm a bit sad that I napped from 7 to 10pm and might be inclined to stay awake late when I'm trying to get on a sleep schedule...but maybe ill be alright. I'm still tired. Therapy and a early morning doctor call has been draining I guess! :P

 

I'm such a people pleaser that I'm not forthcoming to my therapist when I'm struggling because I want her to think I'm always doing well which is so dumb

 

she hasnt caught on to that?

 

I'm sure she has. I tend to keep things kinda surface level. I get into some of my stresses and anxieties but keep it fairly light. Def easier to do with phone appts too. I think I was a lil more open with in person appts

 

Today is a bad day lol

 

understandable. hopefully you find a way to push forward and be more open/honest since that'll be more helpful I imagine (I have my very first ever session in a couple weeks so i don't really know tbh), but you already know that.

 

Today is bad. Three days in to taking Prozac and I had to leave work early because I was having a mental breakdown. I want to disconnect my phone and crawl into my bed and die.

 

Sorry to hear you’re struggling. Pills can take a while to take effect, which sucks. I know it took like 4 weeks or something for what I took. Not looking forward to starting something new (provided that even works, which isn’t always the case. My sister has had to try a few before finding something that worked and didn’t give her weird side effects too).

I’m always around if you need to talk

 

I’ve been doing mostly ok the last few weeks by just staying in my routine and trying my best to deal with everything that I can control, but the last few days have been so hard and the external factors of what’s happening are making me super afraid that I’ll backslide. I feel so useless and helpless and I’m not sure how to keep it from snowballing. Nighttime is the hardest by far.

 

I feel very guilty that I'm not mentally capable of engaging in all that's going on and it just becomes numbing and surreal,and it's hard to know how I can actually make a difference

 

I don’t have any friends or relationships except for my fiancé and I’m convinced my coworkers hate me. I don’t belong anywhere.

 

My daughter is going back to her mom's apartment tonight and she didn't want to go. She said she doesn't like going there. Her mom is also pregnant again (she has three kids already, my daughter included, living in one room, not to mention different dad for each one) and she is saying she doesn't want another sibling. I am sure I'll have to go back to court and get full custody sooner or later. She already almost got kicked out of school last year because her mom always takes her late or sometimes not at all.

On top of all that, my daughter is feeling a lot of self loathing and going through things

 

Keep thinking about how long it would take for someone to notice if something happened to me

 

I'm doing real bad tonight. I feel like i'm backsliding with my physical issues which increases my anxiety attacks, with my anxiety already higher as i watch all the protests and shitty responses. i feel fucked and i'm so tired.

 

I’ve had psoriasis on my face for the last few months due to stress and depression and it seems to finally be going away and that’s about as good as things have been for me all year lol. I’ll take it.

meanwhile, started taking Prozac about a week ago and am not really noticing much difference but it’s still too early to give up on it. But man, sometimes I feel so empty in a way that I didn’t prior to taking meds. Hoping that goes away eventually.

I have also continued to smoke weed (in a state where it isn’t legal) and left out the fact that I smoke when I initially went to see a doctor to get the Prozac. I’ve read that it can interfere with the progress of the Prozac but with everything going on I don’t think I can give it up right now. It’s the only thing that’s giving me any relief. However, there seems to be conflicting information out there regarding whether the weed actually does have a negative impact. Anyone have any experience taking meds and smoking weed?

 

hey good to hear the psoriasis is going away. i wish my issues would resolved as I battle against my anxiety and depression. Maybe in time.

While I've never smoked weed while taking antidepressants, I will say meds sometimes take like 2-4 weeks or so before you feel any difference. It sucks, but that's how it was when i took antidepressants. Just know it takes time.

 

Yeah that’s what I keep telling myself. It’s only been one week so far so I’m just trying to power through it but it’s been rough. Thanks for the kind words though. If you don’t mind me asking, why did you stop taking anti depressants?

 

I stopped taking them partially because I'm dumb and found myself doing better so I didn't feel as if I needed them anymore. Also, I was prescribed by my primary care physician and I had to go back to them constantly before they'd allow a refill and my schedule was too busy so I just sort of ran out and continued on lol. Not exactly wise, but it's what I did.

However, I am working to get back on meds. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week to begin therapy and start meds again.

 

Since this time last week I found out I might have Covid (tested negative thankfully), one of my oldest closest friends died from cancer, I am (very likely) getting ghosted, and today my ex texted me for the first time in nearly a year. My problems are obviously nothing compared to what's going on in the general state of the nation/world, but I would really really really like a break right about now.

 

You have every right to feel how you feel, so no need to slight yourself just because some other fucked up shit is going on in the world. I hope things improve.

 

Ah I see. That’s annoying having to always make an appointment to get your prescription refilled, that’s something I’ve already been dreading and hoping my doctor will fill it over the phone eventually. Good luck with your psychiatrist though! Hope it works out for you.

 

Yeah, hopefully your doctor handles it a little better than mine did. Thanks! I've never done this before so I'm excited to see whether it all helps me our not haha.