Mental Health Thread • Page 309

How’s everyone else dealing with coronavirus anxiety? Freaking out over here, especially being on an immunosuppressant. Thankfully I have therapy tomorrow and see my gastroenterologist on Friday.

 

Everyone here is downplaying it and making fun of the virus but it makes me nervous. I do home visits with my job so I'm constantly going into people's germs and interacting with germy kids. Some of the agencies I'm working alongside are just doing phone visits but I can't do that. Instead I sit in court or in homes watching people cough as I die inside. I keep trying to tell myself I'm healthy and okay but it worries me, espesh for my brother in law who is super immunocompromised and like legit can't leave the house rn

 

I've blocked a lot of threads here, blocked several websites, and my grandmother. I'm legit VERY close to going off on someone for posting about this shit in every thread. Someone make a single thread for it or something. I'm not doing great with it lol. Washing my hands upwards of 50-60 times a day.

 

I had a cold come out of nowhere on Monday, so I did a little freaking out about it possibly being more. Thankfully I feel largely better today. I'm admittedly not really worried about myself in general, I'm fairly healthy. I do worry about those who are older, like my parents who I checked in with today to see how they were doing, and those with health issues (so be safe dude ).

What has become my main worry as places shut down, is what happens if the economy slows down and my company decides to eliminate my position? I'm fucked. I do not have enough to survive being without a job for much longer than a month or two. So my anxiety is off the charts there.

 

I'm mostly anxious about the fact that what exactly I'm supposed to do is very vague, like social distancing shouldn't be a personal decision this is unprecedented and it sucks because if I can't do things my mental health will suffer and I'm not helping anyone then

 

you play games online and have voice chat. that helps me.

 

I’m freaking out but basically just already decided to cut out everything not absolutely essential and stay home. If my family can start working from home I’ll feel a lot better about all of us and that will help too. At this point I’m more concerned about what things look like in a month or two or six than I am about my immediate health, and I don’t think there’s much that can be done for my state of mind to feel less panicky about it.

 

I am freaking the hell out. My brother in-law works at the U of M hospital in Ann Arbor where a coronavirus patient is currently being quarantined. He has a wife and infant son. I’m worried for them and for all of us. Way too close in proximity for comfort. Everything happening tonight is scaring the shit out of me.

 

yeah my girlfriend is a nurse and a friend of mine is at Emory and works at the CDC.

 

I’m on my phone constantly refreshing for updates. My grandmother had a bout of food poisoning last week and we all worried it would be much worse. I’m terrified that I could become a carrier of the virus and accidentally spread it to folks far more vulnerable to its impact than I am. I’m also losing work because of self isolation, so that’s another thing to worry about. I’m so lucky to be in a privileged position that I’ll be okay. Wishing there was more information, the vagueness of what we can do to avoid the virus and knowing governments are absolutely hiding things from us makes things a lot worse. Basically, I’m a nonstop anxious wreck.

 

Hugs for everyone in here tonight.

 

The 24-hour news cycle definitely exacerbates my anxiety

 

I've been freaking out about how society is going to handle this in the coming months and my family kept brushing it off telling me i'm overreacting and it's "just the flu"

 

I also feel like I'm losing my Inception top because none of this seems real, it's happened since the president got elected but it's just full chaos now

 

@CarpetElf been thinking about you today, hope you’re doing ok.

 

Well i am at work so rest assured, I am not haha. But thank you. Thinking about you all too

 

Sending all the very safe vibes I can. You’ve all been on my mind a ton with this. Everyone here means the world to me. At least the one silver lining in this is that internet connections will be a huge lifeline for a while.

 

After 15 months of on and off and a lot of tension, my wife and I finally decided to end it for good today. I know in my heart that it's for real this time. It's undeniably shitty but I thought the conversation went really well and I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

 

Yesagreed. Love you all

 

Canceled my trip to Iceland today. It would have been next week for nine days. Still have to refund all the hotels and tours and shit my fiancee and I booked. Been looking forward to this trip for months, if not years so I'm really upset about it. Yes, I know it could be worse.

All my other plans were canceled too. Was supposed to visit family and friends in NY this weekend but that's obv no longer happening. Everything shutting down, plans being canceled, staying indoors all day long--all of this shit is really not good for my depressive tendencies. Again, I know it could be worse, but still...

 

Hey I just wanted to stop in and say that acknowledging your own struggles and pain is crucial and your response to your situation is valid. Your feelings are valid. Don’t get down on yourself by telling yourself it “could always be worse” because the pain you’re feeling and what you’re going through right here and now, that matters too. You could compare your pain to others’ all day, but out of all the billions of people who live together on this planet, pain will never be a singular experience belonging to only one person. Someone else’s struggles and heartache might seem so much larger to you in the moment and lead you to feeling guilty about your own situation, but don’t allow those feelings to invalidate what you’re going through. You matter and so does your pain. I hope you’re alright.

 

After the most difficult mental health week for me personally this is me this morning


Want to give a shout out to everyone in here that offered advice and kind words, I really really appreciate it!