Vent Your Frustrations • Page 82

Haha naw I tell everyone my cautionary ulcer story and all my friends and family still leave them in! I've never had pink eye, does not sound fun

 

Idk how you can leave them in! I haven't had contacts in about a year, but if I left them in overnight my eyes would be dried to hell and once one of them ended up deep in my eye socket

I used dailies though

 

Y'all I don't want to shame you at all but I must chime in that my high school boyfriend left his contacts in all the time and ripped out his own cornea trying to take them out once. It grows back but you do NOT want to go through that.

 

My soul just withered up imagining this omg

And I’m not saying this is sound logic lmao but I’ve been leaving them in like this for more than 10 years and I’m ok so far so that only furthers my trash

 

I feel like y'all know eyes creep me out and are trying to torture me, can't even watch someone put in contacts

 

Back when I'd leave my contacts in every day it didn't bother me. Now since i take them out daily it feels super dry and uncomfortable if I leave them in overnight and I can't handle it.

 

I'm actually jealous because I used to wear contacts every day in high school but now my sensitive eyeballs can't handle it so I'm an only-glasses gal now.

 

I don't have them because I haven't had vision insurance for the past year

 

I mean that’s definitely part of why I wear them so long
I haven’t hadn’t vision insurance in almost 2 years but I still haven’t run out of contacts bc I change them so infrequently lol

 

this might be long......

I was working a job where i made $14/hr but the manager didn't keep any of the employees in line so i was constantly doing all the work and just getting shit on. A friend of my girlfriend said i should apply at the liquor store he worked at because they DESPERATELY needed help. The manager agreed to hire me and also made it seem like they needed people badly. I took a pay cut to change jobs (which the manager was aware of) but i was ok with that because i was told i would get enough hours to make it work.

turns out that was a blatant lie.

i was promised 35 hours which i never got with no explanation as to why besides "there's not enough business" and then they hired a new employee and we are now both getting 25 hours a week. the new guy was working 40 hours a week but his employer went out of business. the silver lining is that i found employment with the store's competitor, but when i turned in my two week notice today i noticed that i'm only scheduled for 13 hours next week. Also an important detail is that i'm in school full time.

I am beyond furious.

 

After dumping $450 on new tires today I just have to say...

It is absolutely disheartening to live like this. Days like this just really put in perspective how difficult it is for people in my generation especially to get by. When I was supposed to be going to college, in my teens and early twenties, I was dealing with my mental illness. When I was recovering I went back to school (for the third time) at a good state school because it was cheaper even though it didn't offer the major I really wanted, and put myself through, working 30-40 hours a week and busting my ass to do well. I graduated with honors (news flash: this means NOTHING in the real world) and went to work at a company in an industry I have absolutely no interest in, in a job that gives me no joy. And despite doing all the "right" things I find myself in this position, where I dump the majority of a paycheck into fucking TIRES. And something that should just be an inconvenience is actually something that can make or break the way I live for a month, two months, however long it takes to recover. I pay my bills, get up and go to work every day, do the laundry, all that crap that you're supposed to and in the end it really feels like nothing matters.

Doesn't help that my BPD complicates everything and chronic feelings of emptiness/boredom are persistent and never ending. I am always looking for the next thing that is going to bring me joy or fulfillment, but in the end, it would take a major lifestyle rehaul to do that. And it's just not that easy to figure out what that is, how to do it, and where to look for it. I feel like I so consistently just reach, reach, reach into this endless void to pull back absolutely nothing of value. I don't want to live like this but I don't know how else to live.

 

There's studies that show millions of americans are one missed paycheck away from poverty. i'm in a similar situation and it super sucks. that's why I want to go into journalism and highlight the massive inequalities in the united states.

 

This isn’t helpful but I definitely relate to this 100000%

 

The income divisions in this country are awful. That type of journalistic work is needed :)

It's always helpful to be seen even though I hate that you can relate if you know what I mean :(

 

I feel this hard right now. I was already struggling before losing my job, and now that I'm unemployed and trying unsuccessfully to find a job that pays what I need, I'm struggling financially and also getting super dispirited about everything. I actually just applied for school again because I feel aimless. So idk, I get it. Some days are rough

 

idk if this will help anyone but what I did was I really took some time to think about where I was in life and where I wanted to be. Specifically career wise I decided that working in the automotive industry was a dead end job and I would rather go back to school and pursue a career that makes me happy, even if it puts me into debt and/or doesn't pay that much.

Think about what your passions are and how you might make a career out of them. In my opinion struggling for something that gives you a sense of purpose is better than living comfortably doing something that makes you feel dead inside.

 

I just has to buy new tires and glasses and contacts and the medical bills keep coming in and ugh. It sucks and I am grateful for the job I have but I get so frustrated. And then I feel awful because I spend money on luxuries like concerts because I hate where I live so I'm shelling out tons of money to leave and go to shows in PDX and seattle and stuff instead of just getting brave enough to move so I think I'm more mad at myself than anything

 

damn I got a quote on tires today. $600 for the set plus realignment, which I badly need.

 

It's so hard! And then it becomes a gamble, do you settle for the lower paying job but then get stuck in something unfulfilling that doesn't meet your needs or try to tough it out and wait for the best opportunity...ultimately only you can make that choice but if something comes along that can get you by temporarily that might be worth taking the hit and then you can search for new jobs.

School is a good way to give you direction, I found at least...it gave me something to work towards and a sense of accomplishment when I did well. Now that I've graduated, I found lacking that sense of purpose has been hard lol. The way professors talk in college you'd think opportunities will just fall in your lap when you graduate!!! Either way, being stagnant usually feels the worst. The fact that you've applied for school and are still looking for jobs is good and you just have to realign your expectations and make let yourself feel proud for the progress you're making. You deserve that much at least!

I can relate! Seems like we're all dealing with medical bills and tires in here haha. Living is just so damn expensive. I would love to move out west but I'm in a relationship with someone so I have to consider them (ughh), and also it's wayyy harder to get the guts to make a big move then it seems! My sister one day called me when she was living in Aspen (which had been her first big move away) and was like "I'm moving to San Francisco!" no job lined up, no housing, just went with a few friends. She struggled and it hasn't been easy but she's successful and thriving and I am so ENVIOUS but of course happy for her. I guess it doesn't work out for everyone but ultimately I've seen all the boldest moves pay off in my life...all I'm saying is I know I spend a lot of time psyching myself out of something that may ultimately be the best choice for me just cause I can make a list of 1000 things that could go wrong, instead of thinking of all the things that could go right. We get one life and sometimes I think being 30 and letting it all slip by me is such a waste!

 

Well I lost my keys on my school’s campus somehow and searched for 2 hours with no lick. I really don’t need this

 

*passive aggressive/this post won't make any sense to anyone*

Lately you've been making me feel like shit in ways I never could have expected, especially from you. It really hurts.

 

i saw this yesterday and this is the reason I am scared of driving because people like this hate everyone

 

Wowwww. And also HOW

 

A while back I posted venting about my schedule/ days off. Well I got want I somewhat initially was promised (fri/sat)...BUT for whatever reason the new person gets fri-sun!??? It’s like a big slap in the face. Originally I was told I’d get sat/sun, but the fact that they basically give it to a newbie when it could’ve gone to me.

Reminder I accepted the lead staff position, and along with it I was suppose to get weekends off. So the fact that someone not a lead gets it is kinda messed up imo

 

I don't get why people take such pride in not enjoying things that everyone else does. With Game of Thrones returning, so too does the smugness of a few of my friends because they "haven't seen it" and think they are special or something. What's so wrong with enjoying something that everyone else does? Do you want to be special for purposefully missing out on enjoying something with your friends because you get off on being unique or something?