Mental Health Thread • Page 200

Group interviews are so pointless lol. They just asked us what's your availability and why do you wanna work here and we all said the same exact thing and they were like okay we'll email whoever is gonna get another interview. Lasted like five minutes like you really can't weed people out by their online applications you really gotta waste our time with this lol

 

I saw a previous post of yours the other day and this was for chipotle? If so I know what you mean. I had a group interviews at a few several years ago and didn’t get a second interview each time. They missed out a reliable, hard working employee. Their loss. Sometimes I wonder how they choose people to move forward (no matter what establishment)because I’ve seen how they work and I think, wow I’d never treat a customer that way. Anyway I wish you luck

 

I need a job stat. The semester hasn't even officially ended yet and I'm confronted with how utterly alone I am. Like I could legit just die in my house and no one would even know or notice for weeks

 

Got a rejection email from a position I applied to but never got an interview. I need a less stressful job or get paid more for what I currently do, because my type of work should not get min wage pay! Fast food workers get paid more. It’s sad. It stresses me because my paychecks go towards bills and I barely have any money left over at the end of the month. I’m tired of worrying about money. The stress is making me physically sick again and I use to get sick all the time at my last job, but most of the time I was lucky that I was sick on my day off so I wouldn’t have to take sick time. So over it

 

I thought I'd been doing pretty well moving on but I'm backsliding hard today

 

I just happened to come across this article on Twitter today, and it's already one of the most impactful things I've ever read relating to my own life. It totally helped me put into perspective things I always knew I had dealt with living with high-functioning autism, but had trouble expressing to friends and family, and would always beat myself up over because I didn't fully understand them. If you are on the spectrum or know someone you care about who's on the spectrum, I *HIGHLY* recommend giving this a read. I only wish I had found this sooner when I was going through heavy periods of burnout during my early college years, or last year after my breakup.

Autistic Burnout: The Cost of Coping and Passing

 

So today I woke up to my phone being dead, and now I'm thinking of just leaving it dead for the rest of the day. This is self-care, right?

 

i haven't gone on facebook in 2+ weeks now and it's the best thing i've done in months

 

it's been a year and a half for me and has done wonders

 

been 4+ years here. don't ever look back!

 

And here I am live streaming bs on fb like a dummy

The only thing keeping me there right now is to keep up with events but twitter is starting to take that over too

 

I really trying my best not to go get a drink right now. Its really nice outside and I want to enjoy the weather but I know if I go out, I'll end up at a bar. Hoping tomorrow I won't feel as tempted, I want to be in sunshine

 

Probably better than the obsessive way I check my phone when I feel down

 

So I went back to that therapist determined it was my last session with her but she was actually helpful oop. I mostly talked about anxieties so I'm thinking she's better suited to my anxiety issues than my depression ones idk. obv someone should vibe with me on both but it was a nice session today and I didn't cry after lol so I may still see her in the meantime until I can find someone closer even if I just discuss anxiety for now.


Also like ok there are only so many organizations in this town that hire in my field. I've applied to a few and one I haven't heard back yet but I'm jaded with them. One I just embarrassed myself to as told in the eternal cringe thread. Another pays so low my friend is working there with 2 masters degree making less than I made at my last job and I have no masters degrees. I know I'll get a job eventually but timing is everything with jobs and so far I think my timing sucks.

 

I got a job so I guess now so I guess I'm focusing on problems I thought I was getting over

 

welp i was going to talk to my boss about my future at the dispensary today during our meeting, but she added another person to it, so not today i guess. i hate this shit and it makes me anxious

 

blech yeah so i'm here at the office now and my boss is like "i want you to own the blog" which is awesome but also we need to talk about paymentttttt

people i was a timid child who grew up "socialized as a girl"... i am chemistry dog when it comes to salary and advocating for myself

 

Damn I straight up got the job from one of the two group interviews I did no follow up interview and it was the one with 7 other people I must have really stood out. I never give myself enough credit after interviews I always think I tanked

 

While were on the topic of jobs (and I didn't know where else to post this) has anyone had to write a letter of intent for an application? I'm trying to look in to school district jobs because they pay twice as much as I'm making and I've been told I'm more than qualified to work for the school district. Anyway, I've googled how to write letter of intent and there was a really simple example, but idk if some employers look for more? Also the downside is all these positions ask for 2-3 current letters of recommendation, which I do not have nor know anyone that could write me one. The only one I have is not current and nearly 3 years old. Anyone can offer info/advice if they've went through all this, it be greatly appreciated. thanks. feel free to inbox me

 

Today started really well and ended up pretty shit. I'm not too sure what set me off, I think it was a combination of things but two of them aren't a big deal? I spiralled down very quickly and if it was someone else, I'd be worried sick. but it took so much energy to convince that much smaller voice in my head that I should stay alive, that I shouldn't jump in front of a moving car, that I didn't really want that. I'm just exhausted now and don't know what to do. I did reach out to a friend but I still felt extremely unstable the whole time. Days where I experience suicidal ideation are still part of my life, I haven't moved past it, and I should be more afraid of it. Getting an early night tonight and hoping tomorrow is alright

 

I've had to write letters of intent or philosophy of education things when applying to schools for work. It's rly annoying lol. I usually read through a lot of examples and pick one I like and use it as a reference to build mine around. Letters of recommendation are tough. I don't have a ton of work experience and I'm not involved in the community to ask anyone. I didn't end things well with my former boss so I ask coworkers who have seen my work, and I've gladly written ones for them too. Otherwise I've asked a former boss who doesn't hate me or my old academic advisor. I try to keep in touch with those ppl partly so I can use them for reference when I need. I've found most ppl want to write one for u and I've been enthusiastic about writing them for others. But I've always had close-knit relationships with coworkers where that's possible.

 

Head to CA tomorrow. Picking up the Uhaul today. My friend is doing the actual driving since he's experienced driving large vehicles and with towing cars and flatbeds, but he's unavailable to do the actual pickup of the uhaul. So that falls to me. It's only a couple miles from my current apartment, but holy fuck am I super anxious and stressed. I really don't want to do this, but don't have much of a choice since movers come by a couple hours later to load it up for me.

 

you can do it! just take your time driving it and don't worry about how fast you're going. my dad did most of the uhaul driving but i had to drive it home from the rental place because we only paid for me to be the driver lol.

 

I was INCREDIBLY worried about driving a UHaul to Brooklyn. That means thruway as well as the hellish BQE once you're in the city. It was tough at first but after a few minutes it honestly just felt like driving a regular, noisier car. It was kinda nice sitting high up tbh. You can do it!

 

Thanks! I managed to do it without incident and then do a couple turns in my apartment complex to get it so I could pack everything up.

It actually wasn't so bad overall, I just didn't like that I couldn't actually see my car. I could see the dolly, but not my car on it, so I was super freaked out that my car came off at some point until I came to a turn which allowed me to confirm my car was indeed still back there haha.

Managed to get everything packed up pretty quickly, will just need to toss my mattress and box spring into the truck in the morning and my TV in the car, along with bedding and I'll be all set.

Head out at 3 in the morning tomorrow to try and get through AZ before traffic and get to LA after the morning rush, then smooth driving beyond that. Just need to make sure the new complex can leave my keys somewhere in case I show up in the Walnut Creek area a little later than 6.