Mental Health Thread • Page 188

kinda weird question - do you guys curse when you talk to your therapist/psychologist?

 

Woke up at 4:00 and I've been writing out all the feelings I can't share with the applicable person because they don't want to engage with me or listen to how I feel

 

I do sometimes. My therapist does too.

 

I don't but I'm really weird about cursing and sometimes I'm not sure how I properly express things without it, I don't think there's anything wrong with it

 

I have to go down to my insurance company soon and talk to them about my car and I'm dreading it. I feel stupid with anything insurance related and it was such a weird circumstance. I have to go down to the DMV too. Randos trying to give advice keep telling me it was a car accident but I'm like... Not really? It was like a massive car malfunction but no accident in the traditional sense so the accident form from the DMV isn't all relevant and it's super confusing so I'm just gonna go down there. But I know it's gonna be one of those things where I'm fumbling and acting like an airhead and hope it comes off endearing or pathetic enough to be sympathetic towards.

 

It happens but much less frequently than cursing in other parts of life, which is already decently limited

 

I always feel weird cursing around people I don’t know very well but I’m also bad at talking about stuff that upsets me without cursing

 

Lol you guys I asked a question and she said there's no such thing as stupid questions which is like the line you say to stupid questions haha but the guy I talked to on the phone was super nice and now I have to wait for a claims dude to call and I'm like omg all this phone calling and paperwork is more stressful for me than the car deal itself!

 

I've been stuck in my own head all day and now I've wound myself up so much about some shit that I feel legitimately nauseous.

 

even though I do everything alone pretty much unless I'm with my girlfriend, just having a job and being out and about in the community every day makes me feel really good, I haven't felt like this in a really long time, if ever because I was always living at my parents house when I was back in St. Louis. Just being on my own away from home but finally succeeding and feeling like I'm actually a part of the community here in some small way has helped the feelings of loneliness and isolation I've struggled with since moving here

 

I eat my feelings and I've been keeping myself busy enough that I haven't wanted to until now. But omg. I want it all. A veggie burger, fries, donuts, pie, chips... I want it all. I don't really have junk food in my house but I do have the leftover ingredients for ice cream sundaes except for the ice cream lol so I spent a good deal of time considering eating a bowl of whipped cream with the different toppings.

 

Glad I haven’t decided move out bc I’m currently out of a job (me and everyone I worked with) I had a feeling this was going to happen, and i think everyone else too bc people were putting in their two weeks and afraid of being out of a job. So I’m job hunting and it’s so hard because either I don’t qualify or is min wage pay. I applied at a place that should pay more than min wage since it’s at a hospital and I’m hoping they contact me. I feel like I’m qualified for the position based off what it said. I can get hired a place no prob but again it’s min wage pay with being understaffed

 

I got a part-time job??? Over a year since graduation and finally something stuck. It's certainly not in my industry but at least I can start paying bills at home and hopefully save up for a Switch. Going to Baltimore (to visit my best friend)... next month? Plus a great concert in April.

It's nice to have things to look forward to again. This week has been rough but things are looking up. (Just trying not to get Too Excited bc things don't always work out but oh wellll)

 

Congratulations!

 

Still in a holding pattern with the position in SF, but was contacted to do a quick screening call with a company I applied to like 2.5 months ago that's in Maryland. Not sure I'm super into the location, but fuck it at this point.

I'm at least getting interviews with companies not near me, just need to figure out how to be more appealing that local candidates. So exhausting.

 

Since we're talking jobs, I lost my job of over 4 years in February and I haven't had much luck in the search. My experience is good but in most cases it's for an entry level position where they usually pay well under what I'm used to and what I need to cover my expenses. I don't really want to be in sales, but even if I were to take another sales job there's a lot of sorting through scammy or commission based jobs and the interviews I've had didn't get me hired anyway. So now I'm a single unemployed dad with no real skills and just not finding anything for me.

 

I feel u. I quitbecause of stupid "morals" and "principles" and yeah I rocked the boat for like two seconds but dust has settled and I'm still unemployed lol. I get anxious even going to the store cause i don't wanna run into people and have it brought up. Every time I see people they ask me if I have any leads and the answer is always no and it's defeating. Anyway, I feel u and keep ur head up! Job searching is super demoralizing but it's honestly almost all timing. It's so hard to nail the perfect timing with decent jobs actually hiring. I hope u find something u love soon!

 

Thank you. My life feels like it's at a standstill right now. I'm really going through a lot and i think getting into a job is the most important thing right now before I can work on fixing other things so I'm really hoping something comes along soon.

 

Good luck! You're not at a standstill so much as a transitional period that will lead to amazing things! Hope u find something soon

 

I typed an emoticon and the resulting emoji is much happier than I meant. I was going for like a closed mouth hopeful smile not a big toothy one that rubs things in or anything smh!

 

I think I’m depressed. Not clinically diagnosed or anything. I saw a therapist several times last year which led to a group couples counseling class, I guess you’d call it. That seemed to really help. My depression wasn’t really with my marriage but more about how I feel like a failure. I’m an editor in LA. 90% if my work is on Disney/SW/Marvel stuff but not features or tv. Value-added stuff, promos, commercials, and that stuff. I feel overworked and underpaid. I’m swimming in debt. I’m 33 and I feel I have nothing to show for it professionally. Personally things are ok. Wife and kid. MIL moved in to help but it’s the little things that eat away at you. I feel like I should have been more careful, less social, etc and saved and networked but the 2008 writers strike (here comes the excuses, right?) really fucked me. I was on a network show that wrapped and I had nothing else to go to so back I went to the shitty place I worked before I left to do the NBC show. Dead. End. Took me 6.5 years to build my resume and skill set up to the Disney job I have now and I would say most days I feel completely uninspired and I hate it. I hate what I do there and then when I do something I enjoy I’m not happy with the end product. I know it’s not my skill set, these short things. Anyway, saw this forum so thought I’d join up and tell my story.

 

Lately, I've been having headaches once a week. I never used to have them! I suppose it's a combination of terrible sleep, eating my feelings, anxiety, and always being on my phone/computer. I'm so tired and fed up with being so weak!

 

So my options now are to work a different location which barely makes over min wage. I will be making LESS than I did at my previous job. It's basically a $3 pay cut. The other locations are funded differently, hence to pay difference. Still looking for a different job, but I have no choice but to relocate until I find something different. So stressed out. I was trying to save to purchase a new car at the end of the year and now i won't be able to afford it :( I was doing so well too

 

Another rant about job related stuff. Got a what appeared to be an automated email from a job I applied to stating not to call regarding your application because they've received so many and need to review them before they contact anyone. I would at least like an interview, and if I don't it will kill my spirit because I'm well qualified based off their qualifications listed.

Also debating if I should go back to working in the nursing home. One job says pay is DOE. Looked up employee reviews and it was mixed. I'm just afraid I'll deal with the same bs, and I'm worried about benefit packages. I could be paying more for coverage therefore income will be the same. My anxiety is really high rn

 

Doctor is putting me on (probably a low dose of) Wellbutrin in addition to brining me down to 10mg of Lexapro. Anyone have any experience with the combination of these two or Wellbutrin in general?