Mental Health Thread • Page 186

Are you an introvert? Even social interactions with my friends wear me down pretty quick.

 

Ya definitely am. Was never this bad before though, only started happening in the last year or two. But I want to hang out with them and I don’t feel like I’m overthinking things when I’m about to so it’s just a physical reaction not really a mental one so I don’t really understand it

 

huh. seems like some kind of stress reaction but idk man that's odd.

 

Ya is totally that stage frights feeling you might get before a show. I feel like I’m so comfortable with these friends though so it’s weird. I feel bad for airing that out here. Last experience with a therapist was just absurd to me and i Wish I could find something that works but the logistics of that are hard right now

 

don't feel bad about it - this thread is for all this stuff. mental health affects physical health too!

 

I've been trying to go to the gym later in the evening to tire myself out since nights have been so hard for my depression. So it's like gym, shower, fall asleep quickly. It helps I think. I don't overthink while working out cause I'm focusing on not collapsing and dying lol and then I fall asleep quickly before the thoughts come back. It's not feasible every night tho so idk

 

Have you tried working out in the morning too? I always felt that a short jog or walk around my neighborhood, or doing some push-ups or crunches when I wake up helped get my endorphins going enough to offset my depression for a good part of the day.

 

I think I need to work on foods that give me energy cause when I work out in the morning I just feel exhausted all day long. I'm trying to eat all the food in my house before grocery shopping cause I have no income now lol so I'm not eating as much veggie protein as I should be, which is prob also why I get so tired.

 

Haha yeah, I'm the same way with my food intake. Lately, I've been trying to make smoothies (fruit, kale, greek yogurt, pumpkin seeds and almond milk) in the morning instead of eating a bagel or something, and it's helped but it can get expensive. I've also been trying to limit myself to one cup of coffee in the morning and just drinking water throughout the rest of the day.

 

yes! often.

 

I am excited that the weather is warming a little so I can make more smoothies. It's so easy and convenient to make them. I'm just not in the mood when it's cold. I'm also excited for the weather to warm up cause the farmers market comes back and it makes buying produce easier. I've noticed I eat way better in summer. In winter I want all the carby comfort food!

 

The only thing keeping me from wanting to work at the school after my internship is over is that me believing the staff hates me. The kids love me and they’re great. I really admire the staff. And it’s a great atmosphere. But I really embarrass myself and fuck up and am so awkward. My girlfriend and therapist have told me I’m being irrational, but they can’t fix my brain or instantly change the way I think, especially when I know I’m right.

 

Just so exhausted by everything right now. And living, too. but whatever. Just want to sleep for like a month straight.

 

Yesterday I had my second session with my counselor and I didn't enjoy it as much as the first session. Maybe it's because she's challenging the way I think, idk. I was already in a weird mood that day and felt off. I've been trying to track when I feel most depressed and anxious to see if there's a trigger and because she wants me to chart the things I can control, or challenge myself to see aspects of things I can control, but honestly most of my issues today were getting bad sleep cause I had nightmares, and then the random depressed blah empty feeling that comes out of nowhere. Only once did my anxiety feel legit spurned on by a tangible thing, which makes me feel even less in control.

 

Having a bad day. Just a bunch of small, ultimately inconsequential things making me cry! I feel so self destructive (I'm not going to self harm or get drunk like I want to) and I need to be home, cuddling my dog

 

My 16 year old cat died in her sleep on Sunday. I found her in the morning and I literally can not stop thinking about seeing her that way.

I need to get out of town I need something else or I really don't see any way out of this. I don't know what to do I feel like I have no one close by to talk to.

 

I'm so sorry I can't imagine. please do take care of yourself. Hugs.

 

Had an extremely hard night, and am realizing how much more I need to improve with myself. I thought I had put a lot of things away and in the past, but old wounds showed themselves last night.

Like, I don't know. I'm letting the bad memories of my abusive relationship make me feel nervous about my current relationship. Which isn't anything like that, and it's not fair to her for me to still feel cautious when she's given me absolutely zero reasons to feel like that. And I know I'm way better than I used to be, but last night shows that I still have a ways to go, and I'm just worried that I'm going to completely ruin one of the best things that's happened to me.

 

As someone who has watched an old pet pass on, I'm really sorry.

 

Hey man, it’s not an overnight change. Some of these things were bound to sneak back up on you. It takes patience and persistence. It’s taken me over four years to kind of completely change a lot of stuff about myself, and along the way there have been countless set backs. Two steps forward, one step back is still progress. For each time you may feel like you’re screwing up, think of all the times you haven’t and all the times things have been great. Positives outweigh the negatives.

 

I’m so sorry for your loss. My cat was also 16 when he died. I have two cats now and they’re my world.

 

Keep your head up, I’ve been there before too in my current relationship, and my gf was dating an abusive guy for 6 years before we met. There are still things that happened in their relationship that she still has yet to tell me about. I just let her know she can tell me when she’s comfortable with it and that I’ll be ready to listen when that time comes. It’s all about communicating those feelings and reassuring your s/o that it has nothing at all to do with them, letting them know you’re working on getting to a better place and just asking them for a little patience. It’ll all work out, just gotta take it one step at a time.

 

so sorry about your cat

 

@lightning @scroopy.noopers @xapplexpiex @mad thank you folks so much for the replies This is my third cat in a row that I've lost over the past three years so it's rough for sure. Thankfully I have awesome people here and a really sweet cat to help

 

Feel like I just keep jumping from one toxic environment to the next. Really need to move out on my own, I think.